it's all about me

2009-08-29T03:48:00.000-07:00

ok so like. :) exams r almost over.
considering if i should apply to get the heck out of this school.
but like. i'm scared of risks.
i can't believe that the year has gone by so fast.
soon, it'll be my birthday then i'll be in sec 3

they say time flies when you're having fun.
but am i having fun?

anw, went out aft sch with shumin olli and charlotte.
it felt like exams were over but still have science lols.
it was a great outing.!

i so reccommend the following movies:
while you were sleeping
coyote ugly
its a boy girl thing
first daughter
marley and me ( i havnt seen but the trailer is soo funny :) )
the perfect man
the sleepover
just friends
10 things i hate about you
just like heaven
another cinderella story
STEP UP!
picture this
fired up
music n lyrics
clueless
mean girls
a walk to remember
sydney white
what a girl wants
she's the man
the notebook
THE BUCKET LIST!!!!

p.s. it feels so weird, not being able to talk to you. am i just being delusional?
you dont know how everything you say hurts me. maybe i'm oversensitive but i just can't stop myself.

2009-06-17T23:19:00.002-07:00

okay, supposed to be studying now.

Week 1,
nothing much really,
but wed - fri had DVBS,
and Sat had YF retreat, btw, still have bad memories of the game
the only good part was the bonding in the van, but other than that, no.
sorry organizers
then sunday went to church

Week 2
mostly stayed home to study, but on tues(ithink) went out with hcis friends (:

Week 3

Had BIBLE CONFERENCE in the night for the whole week from 7.30-9++++
haha and tues went to ariels house with ollie and stuff
Wed, had baking with vicki, ky, nad at myhouse (:
today, gonna study, tmr, gonna study

Week 4, hopefully going to have a barbeque(:
We'll see what happens.

2009-05-25T07:04:00.000-07:00

WOOHOOTs. so anyway, hvan't posted for long
so
today
english, was kinda stupid, 'cos like we had to write 150 words and canot reuse any word except for prepositions and articles
-.----.
then had recess.
then had assembly
had to 'rate' ourselves
lol i gave myself 7/15
yeah, apparently that's not good-.-
so wadever luhs
then had math ( ms ho didn't come she's taking her masters in math)
then mr ye zhi took over
:D laugh until super fun luhs
'cos mr ye zhi didn't really bother us :P
tyty
SUPER fun.
but like my cheeks were sore
><
;(
no yay me
lols
then had 'music' but ms ho our music teacher too so therefore never come.
then this new teacher came in and ask us to compete in speed stacking.
so wadever luhs.
lols
aerisa and kelvin won
so good for them loh.
then had hist papers back
WOOOO
FULL MARKS FOR ESSAYYY!!!!!=D
93/100:D
never expected it
:'(
-sobs-
haha
congrats kavern, on getting 97 ( esp on ur birthday, really is ur day)
then had english compo bck
got 41/50
very happy
(:
didn't expect my crap to make it through (:
then some very stupid stuff happened that wasn't even my fault but heck.

then walked to busstop
then ppl (yirong, dario, ryan kavern)
too lazy to take bus
take taxi
lols
also too rich luh

then gerald darren and me take bus lohs
wah so funny :D
darren so cuteee
but i can see similarities between them.
;D
they do the same ' whatt?!??' face
XD
haha.
and like super funny
oh, gerald's a sci freak, 'cos his so stupidly smart ( in sci)
so anway
went to plaza
and went to MOTHERCARE( waited outside)
and bought sth for kavern ( HAHAHA )
then i bought sth for yirong ( its FAB.)
but we were shraing our presents luhs
then
we went to buy the chain for kvern's (haAHAHA) present.
then there was this popular sale at the atrium
so we bought a book for kavern( hahhaa ) - colouring book! :D
its super nice luhs
then
gerlad and darren were like obsessing over htis woodcraft thingy.
(my brother has made so many alr :D )
hah
i bet gerald is going to fix everything
xD
but gerald and darren were so sweet luh
darren : Kor, i wan this!
Gerald : oh okay, you can pick the last one, its your choice darren
HAHHA
sth along that line
:D
then came home
and slept from like 5 - 7/8
lols
xD had some funny dream
can't rmb it though=X
STM!
:"(
haha
then practiced piano
then here luhs

thank God for today, considering the low mood i've been the past week.
thank God for giving me wonderful support ( church , kellr etc. )
thank God for my results
thank God <3

2009-04-13T08:07:00.000-07:00

today was like almost the worst day ofmy life larhsss.
:(
started the day waking up at 530
went to school early 'cos sis neeeded to be in early for either SPA [ science practical assessment ] or prefects.
duhno.
;D
then reached school bout 650?
yup
even though sch starts at 8
>< time flies
then had english
erh
uhh
it was quite dry
then had recess.
then had principal's assembly
seriously lah.
i'm getting like super bored during PA.
its like
keep asking us questions
when we just want to know what is next
but wad to do.
then
had
math
lolz.
i find graphs like super fun lah
esp when plotting the graph and drawing the line
;D
IT'S LIKE KINDERGARTEN ALL OVER AGAIN!
;D
then had moosic
haiz
again, DRY
then the play was to start at 2
so
from 110 to 2 celene and i were like doing the props
like the debris[ crushed paper ] , the signs [ foolscap paper], and basically trying to calm everybody who was just freaked about the one line they had to say?-.-
but nvm
everybody's liddat.
but i'm like sort of the person who ask them to do stuff
so anything that went wrong, my fault
but it was one of the rare times where it was actually worthit.
'cos like it was really good play.
;D thanks to positive comments n suggestions from celene, yijing, ollie, russell[sometimes], gerald ;D sometimes michael too

---------------------ISLAND OF THE BEASTS adapted from'lordoftheflies'---------------

self destruction in 10.....9.....8.....7.....6...5.4.3.2.1 BOOM!

;D
hah.
it was great
and like sooper funneh
esp like the part where russell'striped'
well he didn't really
but
at least he had the decency to wear a singlet inside-.-
like
erh
hello, he wanted to strip to his underwear, literallyh.
but we made him strip to his singlet and school shorts
so
it was juts taking of the jacket and tshirt
if not russell wldn't 'do the play.
:)
i mean, willingly
then
they played ' dontcha' aft i said ' ralph started to strip to his underwear'
SUPER FUNNY CAN>
once the music started
he just turned round and started lolz.
lucky it wasn't that short.
HAHa.
it was funny lah
-.-
little joke liddat tch also canot take
aft that he also said sth that really like ' drew the line? ' but shan't say it here ltr kenna scolding-.-

then
kenna scolding lohs
but
don't care
russell was like ' no regrets, it was fun anyway'
;)
so
i also no regrets lohs
in the end also i never kenna[yet].
it was worthit

so sec 2s!
IN THE END, IT WAS ALL WORTHIT 'COS IT ROCKED.
and it did
big time.
even though we didn't complete the entire play
it was good
then
aft that
went bacfk to class for IFD[intl friendshipday] practice
i was alr quite pissed then apparently i didn't look pissed enough
so when benny and dario came back from macs [ they weren't at the play ]
he thought i was normal

Then he pissed me off
and then i got super angry
the tension in the entire class was like super high.
i felt like slapping sth
but
nvm
><
i have to learn to dispose of anger
i didn't talk to him aft that
'cos i needed cooling down
at the end of the day
i don't blame him.
i blame me
'cos i didn't get myself sth during lunch, so i was hungry
and i shldn't have flared up at them.

so , sorry benny
i'll get over it
;) hope u will too
went home
and decided to get over it
came home at 530
slept until like erh 8
><
-paiseh-
but was really tired.
then practiced piano
.<
really excited[sort of]

i just really find some ppl really erh you know
'cos
they just can't take jokes and they just think everything is so perfect, so steorotype.
seriously
it just annoys me that they treat us like really small kids when its not like as if we're that young

we're teenagers.
you've been where we've been
you've either been an outcast, emo or a popular.
yeah, i think i iknow which one u were.

2009-04-03T05:18:00.000-07:00

3.4.09. time : 815pm
i am super tired.
i can't stand this anymore
i just feel like giving up.
what keeps me going, is the fact that i know that GOD has a plan for me somehow. he protects me in little little ways, and that keeps my faith solid.

its difficult
i'll breakdown.
but someday, i'll be happy.
and when i am, this won't matter.
it gets worse before it gets better.

went to school, had english, supposed to write out storyline and plan for essay.
did it, then started to do step-by-step, the sequence.
then had recess.
super tired alr
like mentally
had recess.
had chinese.
FROM TUESDAY ONWARDS. I WILL LISTEN DURING LESSON.
that, is a promise i make.
aft that went to LT
in the midst of having hist lesson, i was emo.
its like nothing i said was the right answer.
i started to scold myself
like really.
then i got really emo, and that really drained the enrgy from me.
felt like crying.
got teary
but didn't cry.
i realised, that i can't really be who i am anymore.
what i used to be, is kept underneath.
is let loose only at home.
now, i can't even laugh at certain stuff.
i can't make jokes without knowing that i'll be embarrassed.
i can't NOT do what they want 'cos that'll just be social suicide.
i can't do LOTS of stuff.
it not the same.
its either them, or me.
but i think its me.
i'm not PMSing if that's what you're thinking.
its true.
think bout last year.
how was i like.
and compare.
i can never be myself.
that's why i stray way from stufs like that.
'cos i know that nobody really knows what i am like.
'cept my family.

never felt envy like this before.
not hatred, just envy, and wondering why i can't do it.
why i can't be original?
WHY?
WHY?!

science drained me.
and no, mr oon's scolding didn't help either.
call me weird, it actually affects me.
then aft that went to cafe.
then went up to class, to help clean the class and decorate it.
aft decoratng the board, cleaned the walls.
and then went to math class late.
[olympiad,]
then stayed for like 1 h +
then went bk to class.
and arranged tables.
into new seating.
then was late for piano
wenjie dropped meoff at little india mrt.
rushed to piano.
[thanks wenjie]
piano was tiring.
my hand hurt, n my head hurt.
it was playing, not the events that happened previosuly in the day.
and i kept yawning
was super tired.
1 peice, spent HALF an hour on it.
as in during lesson

came home
SUPER TIRED.
showered.
cried.
blogged.
time, 8.32pm

2009-03-30T05:53:00.000-07:00

k this is a sorta emo post.
>><
but i really can't stand it lah.
u want to hate me, just hate me
don't try to come pretend like you're my best friend then start to come and start acting like i'm all wrong and i'm a stupid idiot who's opinions are not worth listening to.
i know i'm bad
but i'm not that bad.
sucks lah.
everything i do
everything i say
you think i'm the same as you?
i don't talk then fall in love ok.
it doesn't work that way
what's wrong
she doesn't even mind.
and u start thinking, oh , just 'cos you fell into ' love' like that. i will too?
NO INTEREST.
GETTIT!?
want me only to go along 'cos u duwan to be alone right
USE ME.
USE ME BUY THIS.
BUY THAT.
DO THIS.
DO THAT.
HOW U THINK I FEEL?
everything i do, i dont get anything from it.
u got help everywhere u go. i don't have any okay.
you do.
and yet you get everything.
breaking down.

i know i wasn't very nice
but
DON'T ACT ALL PISSED
THEN STILL HANG OUT WITH US.
ITS NOT EVEN LIKE MY FAULT CAN.
maybe part.
but
like
u don't need to act like everything is my fault.
then like an hour ltr
like nothing happen.
I DON'T RECOVER SO FAST OKAY.
I'M STILL HURT.
I PUT ON A FAKE SMILE BECAUSE I'M NICE.
BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS AND GET INTO DEEP TROUBLE.
i think before i act.
you should too.

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yesterday had yf.
was pianist.
><
piano sounded like it was muted
duno
maybe they cldn't hear my mistakes lohs
><
forum was..
awkward
like ------------- was unsure of how to answer our questions.
then ------------ stare over at me, like as if i owe her living
ofcos idun care lah.
i understand but it wasn't like i wasn't listening right.
i mean if it was my dad, i wld like ppl to listen too
but i was listening loh.
make such a big deal.
it's not like i don't show you any respect.
then aft yf
uncle ethan shoo-ed us off 'cos of some reason he wanted to talk to the english side
WOAH. big embarrassment.
only jiaen my sis and me left.
cos we were the only chi side.
[ ironic ain't it]
then aft that my sis went home
then at church
uncle ethan msg me, say he very sorry 'cos his dismissal was very harsh
then he told me what he talked to the english side about.
i mean u talk like that to them, they also will be insulted
like as if its their responsibility
-.-
its not lah.
like we de zui them
i duwan it to be like that
---------------

then came home and slept for like super long
8pm - 5 in the morn

that's why i wasn't tired when i went to sch with joanna 'cos daddy was sick.
><
then today bad stuffs happened.
not talking to ___ again
since it got such bad response
WHAT EVER.
THINK THAT WAY.
i tried to emphasize my point
but whatever i say, you guys don't listen
so what ever.
i'm not out to hurt anybody.
so don't make me.

2009-03-14T06:46:00.000-07:00

haha today was fun.
first wokeup at like 730 then ate bkfast, showered, played abit of piano
then set off for RELC Hotel
for ABRSM grd5 theory exam
lols
woah the lobby was like super crowded lahs
then went into the exam hall
lol
i saw
its
grd5 's' paper
lols
then i did my paper
section by section
then after doing each question
i'd check again
then after the section i'll check the entire section
then i did the whole paper
then
i checked each one again,
and i spotted one mistake
xD
then
handed in the paper after 1 h30 min
woah
i tell u, the exam hall was like almost 3/4 empty
lols.
but most of them are like grd 1-4-.-
lols
then i went with mommy to far east
ate a kfc
guess wad! i'm a CHICKY MEMBER-.-
10% discount everytime i go there and pizzahut
xD
haha
then went in
and found this super cute shoe shop
mommy bought 2 shoes
i said i cld orrow from her
but i really like the wedges
super nice
its a nice shade of purple too
maybe i'll wear it to the gala dinner [90th anniversary,hwachong]
lol.s.
then went searching for a dress
didn't really find many nice ones
lols
then saw one super nice nice nice one
lols.
walked round sommore
then went back and bought that super nice dress.XD
then took a drink
then went to kinokuniya
lols
to spend the $70 vouchers i got from prize-giving
xD
then bought kenken book1,2
sudoku gold,
books
books
books
wanted to get jodi picoult handle with care,
but yuh
>,<
cldn't
'cos too ex.
this year, i'll do better
:)
then i can get more voucher
then can buy more books
MWAHAHAHA
ok
then came home
haha
at about 4.30
so i started out at 830

bought 8 hours
PHEW!!

2009-03-08T05:23:00.000-07:00

haha today was FUN.
=D
morning woke up at 930 blahblahblha read book practice piano,
then went to church
had sunday school.
HAHA.
the lesson was fun.
and like erhm i had to share my testimony on how god protected me during my trip to thailand [SEAMC09]
haha.
but i'm doing it nxt week.
XD
then had a little discussion after lesson 'cos the adults havn't finished their svc.
talking about the dinosaurs.xD

then aft tht
went over to fsc. [ student care centre of JSM]
then like all the youths were there like. 20 of us ..
split into 5 groups
grouped with jiaen, clement,yang en.
lOLS.
then had to make a volcano
or sth
haha
out of flour
HAHa.
then like super funny lah
'cos we put the flour first
then i duno why we keep adding water
xD
until super sticky
HAHA.
then we add sommore flour
haha
then okay le.
butthen the volcano is uneven
><
lols
so made sommore
then abit fat
then had to smooth it out
xD
then clement was playing with the flour,
like he wanted ppl to pour it in his hand, instead of bringing the bowl,
then all of us were like... erh...
HAHa.
xD
then we finished
and we poured some colouring
but one side got too much le

then clement went to make a smiley face-.-
like literally.
lols.
wanted to take photo
but my hands were like...
XD full of flour and stuffs.
i'll ask uncle paul and auntie dawn for photos ltr.
then had competition
lols
then like it was funny larh
the comments.
xD
and ours
'cos we made the 'lava' come out.
it was really a nice colour
and grp 3's one right
was like alr red,[volcano]
then the lav was more red,
then it looked super bloody
xD
haha
then ours was okay.
then aft that
we cleaned up
then joyce was commentin on how she doesn't use broom, she uses vaccuum.
xD
then she say broom is old fashion
then weiliang was like : shi ma?
LOLS.
then went back to church
ate at church
XD
church felt like super quiet
>< lol
all the ppl go home le.
then waited for super long for 70/70m
haiiz.
lols.
2 '7' came 2 '197' came
:(
haha
but thank God
for his guidance throughout today
it was fun, but my leg hurts like crap.
i hope more things like this happen.
it was great fellowship.

2009-02-23T05:23:00.000-08:00

feel really retarded.
if i told you i'm like totally screwed.><

Dear ♥

maybe i'm just going crazy.
ridiculous.
but i really miss you.
i miss talking to you.
i wish we never stopped talking....

i know exams and all... >< but now i don't even know who you are.
thinking about it now, i just wanna cry
but of course, you'll never know about it
><
just little me, being emo and all...

i miss you.
i hope you get this.
<3

♥,
Elisabeth

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that was really just an emo post ><
really

><
don't come asking me who it is, 'cos i ain't going to tell...

><
anyway
today... had english
it was okay.
just got into groups
and was stuck with some people [ only sane person ? Yijing <3]
then ltr had recess
then had PA><
it was ok lahs. lols
;p homework timetable? so weird.
haa
then had math
quite fun
i think mdm chew's question quite fun to do =X
haha
...
then had music
which was oober fun
but not so fun as lastweek
last week we were singing ' yesterday once more ' by the carpenters
then like this week we had to do wad we learnt the whole term.
:D
i think most poeple rmb vitas
lols.
♥s______

hahaha
then went to the mph.
♥s______
had this library board investiture
hahha
xD
thn aft that prize winners stay back for a while
i got 2nd top in sec 1 and topin hist for sec 1
and its like
so few prize winners
relaly? not professional AT ALL.
-.-

lols.
then like okay lah
then took bus 174 with gerald ryan jenna yijing and darren!! haha
xD
at the busstop something like super funny happenf lah.
=D
but its not much of my businss so nvm
then took to dhoby
then hung round a while
then took mrt to newton
for my last french lesson XD
surprisingly, the most effective tOO
maybe its the teacher? maybe its the willingness to learn 'cos it's the last lesson? i dunno
haha
lols.
then came home
kinda empty lah
and time passed pretty fast
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u know i duno
why
but i think that all you've seen is my face...
you havn't even heard me,
seen me in real life...
><
yet,
♥s_______
:(

i wait for the day this is over, and i can get over you...

♥s_________________________

xoxo

2009-02-20T20:47:00.000-08:00

yesterday was funn.
went to school and waited awhile 'cos ollie and shumin were finishin their homework
then sat at the round tables.
talked talked talked talked
then went back to class
had silent reading
almost cried
while reading ' for one more day' by mitch albom
icried the night before and i almost cried in sch except for the atmostphere wasn't that quiet [hinting shumin hahahahaxD kidding]
then had english
then had recess
canteen seemed quite empty.
then had chinese
ting xie
I HAVE CONFIDENCE THAT I WILL GET 100 MARKS THIS TIME, NOT 95><
lol
my previous tingxie all 95
then had history
they finished all their recordings
hha
ours had to most props
but celene's grp quite innovative, they asked 'tunku' to speak malay and the ' translator' translated it
lol
but ours still ahd the nicest props
eh, got tablecloth ok
and got sarong sommore
hahaa
lols

then had science
at lab
duno why
i always dont feel like doing the experiments
like seriously
i'm just sitting there
and then tch's explaining
then i'm like staring at it, no energy to evn touch the props
its sth about that room that sucks the enrgy from me.
><
then aft sch
felt ABIT emo
but shumin went with ollie back to shumin's house 'cos she needed to get sth
then i stayed in sch with tommy yrong and aerisa to do geo proj
quite fun actualy
and we actually did sth
but we aren't finished with it
so currently its difficult to see wad we're doing
even though it just looks like shape
so yu're prob going to think ' shape city '
hahah

then finsihed last part of theory
then went for math olympiad with aerisa and shumin
stayed until 5
then walked out:)
then reached piano at 6
then had piano
actually the piece ' gopak' isn't so bad after all

quite nice
its in the grd 8 peices or sth liddat its not the exam one
its 'alternative exam pieces'
lols
teacher's choice
or sth
lol
then aft that
rushed to traffic light, which thankfully turned green once i reached
then i rushed to mrt and train platform
with thankfully, the train also just arrived
then took to little india
where i rushed to the other side.

u must be wondering whyi'm rushing
lols
then waited a while for the bus to come
took 66
took so long mans
to reach school

'ran' up
the hill then reached school saw jenna screaming 'cos this mean guy was telling her ghost stories
hha
and iwas like panting and panting
[ i rushed all the way from clarke quay to bukit timah-.-]
and i dun have particularly long legs that can move like 1 m at a time
then jenna 'briefed' me
then i rested a while
luckly not so many parents yet

oh btw
i was there to help out the parents in finding teachers and stuff
its the 'PTI' for the new students of sec 1 and 2
helped out
cleaned up the drinks table
which was Litter-ish
eww... an eyesore much

but when i first walked in
it was really professional
really
better than last year
impressed me.

then helped the parents and stuff
until like 9

chit-chatted with hyunik and aaron with jenna
then like the last few parents alr
then like we started clearng the chairs
and jenna and i cleaned up the other stuffs
got alot of 'good' cmments from teachers
lol
-.
then i folded table cloths
cleared tables
took the name tags off the tables
and brought the whiteboard into the staff office
well actually i held the door open,
but yeah
haha
then went home at like 915 with jenna
the traffic on hwa chong side was horrendous
one side the cars light were red and the other white
lol
singapore colours
quite nice actually
then the other side
its like nobody
lols
then took bus home
at reached home at like 1030
showered
ate dinner
talked talked talked
then read for one more day
and drifted off to sleep
hhaha

it was FUN!

2009-02-18T04:52:00.000-08:00

argh. today was so stupid.
so embarassing.
WHY IN FRONT OF THEM.

ARGH.
STUPID ME
STUPID STUPID TSUPID STUPDI ME!
<<<<<<<<<<<<<

today really sucked esp after 2.40
living in embarrassment and emo-ness.

nvm.
anyway
tody had english
then the ppt.
quite stupid
esp the part that was supposed to be funny.
wasn't really funny.
-,0
and i think mr john was bored 'cos he kept looking out of the window
and the cursive font screwed up
dont know why.
then had recess
then had chinese.

changed places with yirong, sat with jenna.
quite ok actually
i don't mind it><
after lesson [i think my chinese is IMPROVING!]
had sci

erhm.
ALEX got first again--.-
i got friggin 15.5
i am so sa
*Sad
i got 18 for the previous test
!!!
thats like a 2.5 mark loss.
GRR..

aft that had math
laernt how to change the subject of an equation
quite easy actually
had to do like 5 questions from ex.4i
but shaokai came to me at like the last 5 min
and asked me how to do the last 2 questions
so i just sat there and explained to him aft everybody else went for lunch
shaokai actually not that bad lah.
something happend in class
shows that jo________ is not a gentlemen.
-.-
SERIOUSlY.
PUSHING A GIRL?
IS THAT WHAT YOU DO IF A GIRL TEASES YOU?
get used to it girls' tease you all the time
if that's how u react, then well, no girls will talk to you
-.-
you're SHAMELESS.
MAKING A GIRL CRY.
SHAME ON YOU.

skipped lunch and stayed in class.
then aft that hist time
grp 1 wasn't prepared
so our grp went.
took quite long to get ready
.,.<<
then did out first time.
but not very good
so ms kong say we cld do another time.
and we did.
it took us the whole period=X
whoops.
then
aft lesson
something really stupid and embarrasing happened
then went for CS
then went home
><
really.
stupid.
wat a bad day...

good note though
that at least she bothered to say : it'll be okay.
when she said those 3 words, i really thought it was going to be okay
all worries were lost for like a minute...

really..
powerful...
what simple things you just have to say to a friend to make them feel better.

don't add to the misery
tell them its okay, and move on
i've learnt.

2009-01-30T05:55:00.000-08:00

so tired.
><
had piano from 6-7 today
sucked all the enrgy from me
walking home was tiring
really
sole of feet felt like splitting
><
super tired
and just did some of HIST proj script
and i'm currenty doing reserach for geog proj
and my research is not just copy and paste and done
if i did that i wld've finished that long ago........
i need to summarize
>,<
so tired.
so much revision...

2009-01-29T05:06:00.000-08:00

WOOs.
:d
ok cny was kinda goOd
but kinda boring 'cos dint really visit alot of ppl :)
but nvm
(:
it was OVERALL. fun
ok
so anyway
haha
reunion on monday, saw bro and uncle kenna trashed at english chess by my cousin--
who's like only sec 1
but then again, smart kid:)
lols.went home.
bleahbleah
wasted
ahha
wed
went to jenna's house, from 9-12+
for MUGGIN.
and really, i MUGGed.
:)

ok
s o anyway, today
we had BORING lessons.
REALLy.
u know that i think they shld give us a 5 min break before very lesson.
'cos our attention span isn't so big.
its healthy to have a 5 min break.
REALLY. noo kidding

ok then had geog
ARGH. he doesn't TEACH.
i dont know what he's TALKING About.
at least during like math lesson mdm chew walked around and helped us
he like, doens't explain!
he doesn't even TEACH.
HOOWW...

ok so anyway
aft that
we rushed to the terraces, did warm-ups.
then mr sim briefed us,
need-ed to do 400m, and 4X100m.
lols.
400 m target 1.40min
i got 1.42
and now i have to run ALL over again nxt week
:'(
stupid me just went to slow down
STUPID STUPID STUPID.
lols.
anyway
then aft that 4X100m
our overall timing was 1.20
:D YAY RIGHT ON MARK
but lols.i have to run 110m like ollie, and aerisa and shumin[curved] only run 90m

nowonder i always seem to 'fly' round the bend
:D
haha
lols.

ok so anyway aft that had a break and went to buy drink then went up for cca.
lol alr sweating like crazy
then hall was SO hot.
then went up to outside the LT.
SO HOT.
kept perspiring.[idunknowhow to spell]
ok lols.
then did warm-up
then some of the senior managed to convince the floorball to use only 2 courts, and we use 1 court.
then aft that went for ike practice waitin for coach to come
practice passing
chest pass, shoulderpass
lols
ok then
aft that coach came lined up did straight line pass
=X
then did some drill
then aft that she had us try to shoot hoops
haha
at first like our team was like ' cheating'
ahha
[igot a few in! :D]
then the other team won
so we had to do 1 star jump:D
then did again, this time had to get 30 in
so we won, [ i got like 1/2 in this time l:]
then aft that they had to do the starjump
D:
then had to run, catch then throw
><
ll that one i never get in
AHHA
duno why
xD
then aft that walkd out wth shumin keller shelomith
stopped by cafe
saw alot of ppl.and ppl to go home with:D
so went home with them
lols
then walked out
then keller pangseh-ed me with the guys
><
STUPID KELLEr
XP
haha
ok nvm=X

sorry.
then took 174 with darren, ryan, gerald and josiah
lol josiah cldn't stop talking the whole way
lols
and they were so loudi think the whole bus cld hear
HOW EMBARRASSING.
><
lol then took train home
felt like the sole of my foot was going to split=X
maybe its the shoes
now i know
WEAR SPORT SHOES.
:(
esp when u have to run 400, 4X100 and longjump the nxt week
+ CCA.

2009-01-21T03:50:00.000-08:00

today was frankly sad.
><
and happy.
went to school.
at 6.50
nobody was there.rested.
then waited for shumin and ollie.
then went back to class.
then had english.
which was
disappointing.
its just not fair.
i worked so hard.
and they didn't even TRY.
they get a praise for that.

ARGH.
i know most people will just say
' you can whine here or you can go and do something about it'
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT.
I'M JUST NOT AS GOOD AS EVERYBODY THINKS I AM.
I'M JUST NOT SO SMART AS EVERYBODY THINKS I AM.
I'M JUST NOT LIKE WHAT I USED TO BE.

then had recess.
then chinese.
haiz
chinese had to write letter.
then ollie was like : TELL ME WAHT I WANT!!!
me : har?? lol.
XD
she wants me to tell her what she wants-.........-
lol.
then had science.
learnt about refraction thing.
i find that mr oon actually teach quite gOOD.
but abit scary at times.
then had math..
..
><<<<<
still abit confused
but got it sort of figured out.
then lunch......
then aft that hist.
we had a proj.
and kavern gerald ollie shumin aerisa and i were in 1 group.
then kavern came up with crazy, stupid ideas.
'cos we had to do on the merger w/ malaysia [ chap 9/10]
and between LKY and TAR[tungku abdul rahman]
and olllie was to be LKY and gerald to be TAR.
loll
then aft that.
had computer science
was on the way to the toilet.
then saw joanna chong in her yellow and blue unii. and charlotte.
and then finishd work
went down to check my CCA.
pretty pissed i didn't have a cca yet.
'cos ___ didn't put me in one.
and ___ didn't give me back my form to choose another CCA.
and =++ just said ' go for the tryout tmr' -.-
THE WHOLE PURPOSE IS TO CHALLENGE MYSELF
to go into a sector i never tried bfore.
i dont even know how to play!
much less, a tennis racket.

went to KAP with shumn and joanna.
then when we were walking back saw yirong arwin and weikai cycling.
++ toot.
then went back.
haiz

This. is such a bad period of the year.
i hate it at the start.
nothing much interesting is happening.

2009-01-17T20:56:00.000-08:00

that's crap.
you lot never really cared about me.
i did it for you, but no, not even a nice word.

i dont expect much.
i just think i deserve a little respect.
is that too much to give?
i give you guys LOTS.
you're selfish.
i thought you guys were the most down-to-earth people.
only care about the personalities, but NO.
it doesn't work that way...

you better watch what you say.
because you never really know how much you need something until they're gone.

and trust me, its already halfway gone...

not so happy birthday -- ---

2009-01-03T06:49:00.000-08:00

today was quite fun really :D
except for the slight fact that i have jitters about starting school now
ahaha
ok
so anyway\
woke up about 9+ ;d
ate bkfast,
said hi to goldie HAHA
practiced abit of piano
called my sister to wake up
practiced sommore piano
then went out to church for yf thanksgiving practice
ok lah not bad
just that i think that i am like soo not ready to start grd 8 or even grd 7 yet
looking at the standards of the pianist [ yangen >=(]
lol.
duno why he have to be so good can.
ok nvm
i still think tim would have done a better job at 'falsetto' than uncle ethan and joshua z.
lol
no offence but yeah
xD
seriously tim's high voice is like a cross.
.<
then came home
and felt super tired.
'cos the bus had like 2 jams
lol
ate lunch
then practiced sommore piano
then got super frustrated
and started to tear a little bit
got frustrated sommore.
and the sun was not helping.
so i took a bath
felt better.
then went to help to fry
fried rice
lol
then got ready to go to unclepaul&dawn's housewarming ' party' for youths & young adults
HAAH
so anyway took bus to aljunied then took mrt up to comm3nwealth mrt.
met
with
tim, uncle paul, uncle ethan, jiayi, grace, joyce, joy, jiaen, xinshi, guiling,peijuan.
waited for charis
then decided not to wait for yangen ezekiel and weiliang and went back to the apartment
haha
super cool'
and u know the table is EXPANDABLE :D hahah
then like i duno why but it ssuper funny
'cos all of us were like
' WAHH..''
when uncle paul was giving a demonstration
haha
then we looked at their wedding albums
and they also played their honeymoon pics on tv.>< haha
then talked ALOT.
then the guys came.
then
ate chicken wings
then ate the fried rice XD
ahha
then aft that a few more ppl came
[grace wong, lucas and marcus, how mean, caleb,] then went down with jiayi, grace, joyce, joy, jiaen, xinshi, guiling, joanna to the playground.
;P
Then aft that took alot of pics
HAHA
XD
then went back up at about 7.15
xD
then took sommore pics
then ate a few fruits
haha then had a big group pic
but i think the guys were ' camera shy ' so haha wdaver X:D
then aft that went home.
but since there was a shengshiong next to their house.
tim jo and i stopped there and bought a few necessities.
haha
then i dont know why
but then we saw marcus, ezekiel, yang en and weiliang there tOO.
><
-.-
haha
then joanna was like: boys think alike!!
me : haha they're stalking timothy!
tim : i'm a trendsetter
XD
ahha
then on the train home felt super tired.
.< then talked to mommy and joanna about a rug AHAHXD
then taddaaa

2009-01-02T07:37:00.000-08:00

don't feel so good about school anymore.
ah well, i'll just tolerate it for about 1 or 2 more terms
and see how it goes.
then maybe i'll transfer out.
.<
i have only 2 more days to feel fresh and get a new outlook on life.
argh.
ok.
-- i'll go sleep
and see how tmr goes.
i hope i wake up early.
'cos early always makes me fresh and happy
(:
tmr have thanksgiving choir practice.!
hopes it goes well and hopes that i don't have to tap into ' backup pianist' lol.
'cos
>< havn't really touched the song. hAHA =X ok nvm...
just scared i'll screw it up 'cos of my horrible timing.

2008-12-30T07:41:00.000-08:00

the photo above is what we took on the last night of church camp.
well its almost all the girls (:
ALMOST.
ok it was supposed to be like a soccer team kind of photo. but i guess didn't really turn out that way.
anyway we all still look glam. so its ok :)

ok listening to narnia now. duno why
heard it on some other vid.
listening to the battle scene that one.
><
quite grand.
gives my goosebumps.

right now, happily sad.
don't really know the exact reason why.
so...... yeah..
><
sad. but still happy.
like
abit sad. but doesn't really affect.
><
lol
haiz.
just wish that the first 2 terms will pass fast.
>< really tortured me this year the first 2 terms
.
then the other 2 semesters flashed by ><
haiz.
blinged my cam.
looks nice.
blinged the thing to put on my cam too.
><
haiz
ok.
i shall try to stop ' haiz-ing'
>< i sort of can't wait for school to start.
but then again.
>< i wish i had church camp all over again.
:(
like in the above pic :( really missed that.

2008-12-27T07:24:00.000-08:00

aiyo :(
so bored
today completed like 3/4 of theory homework
><>< :( and yet i don't feel excited haiz. and school starts in 1 week. ~~just hope my birthday doesn't get forgotten.~~ right.
haiz
ok
:(
so bored until i zilian alr.haha but ofc i got delete the photos lah.
i think that my spiritual life is alr like BLUHEA.
and its only like a few weeks aft church camp.
:(
argh.

went to popular today
got colour pens and 'portfolio' to keep certificates
and colour pens to make notes
etc.
lol.
and pen for normal use.
packed cupboard.
><
now its all neat
maybe packing desk tmr.
><
haiz
:(

2008-12-26T06:19:00.001-08:00

went out today
met shumin at outram park at 9.30 then went to vivo. and find shaokai at his mom's shop [adonis]
then walked around and then met yirong and ryan then went to bk.
then joanna came.
then bought a drink
then decided to go for lunch at kopitiam.
then lol joanna and i were so excited abotu eating frm the CHICKEN rice stall
HAHAHA.
then bought char siew rice.
and there was hair inside.
so joanna borugh it back and 'demanded' another one.
haha
then had it
then when joanna and i were eating
then the guys[benny yirong mostly]
were like
: AFTER YOU EAT THAT YOU ARE GOING TO BECOME SO HAIRY!
then they're like
' ew ..'
and i didn't really care
'cos it tasted nice.
so whatever-.-
lol
then aft that walked around abit
and went to minitoonsetc.
then went home
and lol
watched tv and practiced piano
major headache.
slept.
then went to celebrate daddy's bdae
[he bought home]
then uploaded photos on facebook.
><
haiz

------------------
i need church camp :(
i want church camp all over again!
i dont want joanna and joyce & all the sec 3s this year to go to syf nxt year!!
:(
haiz nvm
i'll still get to hang with them.
lol.
ok
i want youth camp etc
><
haiz
i feel so young..
lol
these days i've like just been tearing for no reason.
and wheni read ms ___ blog.
and a sms on her blog,
i felt all cold.
and had goosebumps.
he's such a liar.
he's SO not a gentleman.
REAL GENTLEMEN do NOT ditch girls .
REAL GENTLEMEN try their best to make girls feel included.
and whatever.
so what if he's in a good school and can make all his sms-es make you feel good.
he lies to people.
....
><

i really.
really.
really.
reall.y
need..
YF
right.
now.
i don't need
school to start.
i need to see yf ppl at least for more than 1 a week
><
:(
haiz.
right now,
i must have faith.
great faith....

2008-12-19T03:41:00.000-08:00

church camp was GREAT.
wish i was still back there><
even though like this year got less ppl,
it was still GREAT. and
ok lemme try to rmb.

DAY1
we arrived there [ dad drove along with uncle jing long, xinshi's family, and rev. james tan]
and haha.
we missed the road to the main hall then went one big round
and bcos we were in front,
the other cars followed =D
HAH.
and my brother was like 'monkey see monkey do'
HAHA =D
then reached there like around 11
then went to villa and met rev koo and his family=D
haha. got our rooms then rested abit then at 12 went to dining hall to EAT lunch
=D haha. the lunch was like way better than last year.
thank god for the great food.
then after that went to main hall for intro by senior pastor rev dr. peter ng.
sometimes feel very like, not comfortable liddat.
i duno why but like bcos he like shaking when he going up the stage [not cos of scared]
then like i feel like my heart like very....
ok then aft that went to yf room then lol
'cos like most of us alr knew each other
and not alot of ppl were there,
they decided to skip orientation.[ in other words, icebreakers]
and they gave us doorgifts
which we found out ltr were from DAISO.
and the money was from the yf fund
. woah are they good.
REALLY thoughtful.
then after that had our free time =D
went bowling with joyce and jie and jerrie and jacques.
haha juliette wanted to play but too young HAHA=D
then joyce was like winning and i was like getting gutters =D
haha then like the last few shots i got like 20 points
HAHAHHA =D
but it was funn... haha thenwent to dinner.
scripture reading was Psalms 121
then had the thematic message by
rev. Keith Hamblen
very very good. and i like learnt this verse
"And said, Naked i came out of my mother's womb, and naked shall i return thither: the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD." Job 1:21

VERY meaningful then we had Vesper where we went to villa 233 and had sharing and prayer went back and slept ;)

DAY2
woke up and went to breakfast.
scripture reading Psalms 122
bkfast was SUPER.
duno why suddenly so hungry HAHAH=D
then we had our Forum which was based on ' Parables of Christ' quite,quiet
haha then aft that they asked us for our opinions n joyce said it was boring
=X
then had a half hour break
and then had the special message by Rev james tan on the book of Amos.
Go read Amos chap 3 - 5
ok then aft that had Lunch scripture reading Psalms 123
n after lunch we had gospel message from Rev Tang very interesting
he talked about the beginning of the Earth.
and i rmb he said this : why isit that when something wrong happens to us, we blame GOD and not satan?

then aft that had FREE time. went running around the villas with gloria
and then met joyce and jie then wanted to rent bikes but lol no bikes good.
then went to the courts and saw one court empty
then went with yen hui back to the villas to get her volleyball to play
then went back to the courts and found out that the guys occupied AlL the courts
so we went to play on the field.
>< then went back not long after 'cos it was alr like 5+
and had dinner at 6 ><
then had Dinner.
and thematic message again by rev. keith hamblen
James 5:11
Job : - listened,
did not :
-curse God
-take his own life
-escape into drugs,entertainment
-surrender integrity
-throw off God's government

ok then had VEsper again
then went back to sleep
Day 3.
everything happened the same
breakfast
my turn to read the scripture in CHINESE.
Psalms 125
: They that trust in the Lord shall be as mount Zion which cannot be removed, but abideth for ever.
v.2 As the mountains are round about Jerusalem, so the LORD is round about his people from henceforth even for ever.
v.3 For the rod of the wicked shall not rest upon the lot of the righteous; lest the righteous put forth their hands unto iniquity.
v.4Do good, O LORD, unto those that be good, and to them that are upright in their hearts.
v.5 As for such as turn aside unto their crooked ways, the Lord shall lead them forth with the workers of iniquity; but peace shall be upon Israel.
OFC mine was in chinese
haha
then had bkfast
and then had msg by rev. tang
and then had break
then had msg by rev. james tan about Amos again
then had LUNCH.
then had FORUM.
which was more fun
and the parables were the prodigal son and the sower or sth. then had free time
went to play CAPTAIN'S ball with
joyce, jie, zealyn, zealicia,audrey, jerrie, and gloria
then suddenly like the other girls in the english side wanted to join us
and it was ok
but they brought along guys
who were TALL TALL and TALL.
lol.
felt abit.. intimidated.
haha
then had dinner
then had thematic msg.
it was the lsat thematic msg as rev.keith hamblen and wife had to go off. that night
then aft his msg,
rev koo was like.
' we love rev. keith hamblen so much that we decided to give him a chinese name'

HAHA
then they said they wuld do a direct translation
haha
keith = 'kai3' [ triumphant] i think
hahah
hamblen = han4 bin1 [ HAHHA a friend/ visitor to the chinese]
LOL
and his pronunciation not bad
=D
then we had vesper
but joyce jie and me haerd a frog die under a car
AHAH
like the car was driving past and we heard a pop sound
haha
then we went to check it out
=D
then went to 233 and had vesper
but it was abit rushed
'cos we all wanted to see rev. keith hamblen off that night
at 10
and it was like 9.15
then we fnished vesper then went tolook at the frogg.
then grace and xinshi [ithnk] and charis and gloria all screamed.
haha
ithink lah.
haha
then we went to the main hall
like we rushed there
but we were kinda late
as they were alr in the van
so we couldn't take photos with them
haha
but nvm we still managed to say good bye
=D
then went back to sleep
then thursday the same things happened again
and for games we played captain's ball again.
but haiya...
uncle ethan so act cool -.-
think he can throw backwords
HAHA
but serious la.
he act like its nothin to him:(
and all of us are like sweating and runing like pigs
[ofc not so slow lah .. but.. u get the idea]
then had dinner
then had msg about amos
then joyce and grace went off
[their family]
back to singapore
since joyce had concert today.
then had testimony
and sharing
with
jie, joy, jia yi, xinshi, charis

really... its like
we all think that we're all suffering the worst
but when we look at other people's problems..
they are way worse.
then had sharing
in a big group
then like went until joshua z. turn to share.
and what he said was like
' god won't give us a trial that we can't manage.'
and its like
even though sometimes they may seem lke SUPER HARD TO get through.
if god knows that we can manage,
we can.
so we can't let him down
so that is hope and faith
><
then had prayer in our small gruops again
then ended about 1
went back to villa
and slept
until this monrin
><

then had bkfast
and jie had scripture reading
Psalms 131
then aft that had a final message by rev.stephen koe.
then went off to tesco with jiaen's family, rev.yong, joy's family and ofc mine.
=D
tesco EXTRA.
had about 1 and half hours to look round
bought a few socks SUPER CUTE OK.
and bought a jacket thing.
and sandal
and ofc flour for tuesday's baking session=D

so here are some of the verses that i got from the msgs
ISAIAH 40 : 31
" But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles;they shall run and not be weary; and t hey shall walk, and not faint."
i REALLY. REALLY. REALLLY.. like this verse.
its so full of hope.

isaiah 14:28
Ezekiel 33
Psalms 119:65
Amos 5:4
Job 1:21
6:14
13 :15
19: 25
42:10
42.17
Amos 5:6
II chronicles 7:14
to become a better christian :
1. humility,
2. pray,
3.devotion
4. repent

Job 20:25 too

this camp, really. really. wonderful
pictures alr on facebook.
lol
on my sis account lah but i think still can view
i miss camp.
and i wish i would have more of this
so that we can support each other to keep growing in CHRIST.
thank god for the good weather and the great fellowship we had.

2008-12-12T07:10:00.000-08:00

kinda emo :(
but kinda happy
'cos JEOS having a convo
on msn.
like so long don't have
i'm emo.'
grrrr.
i'm like thinking
why do i alwyas HAVE to come in second?
and why am i like not the most down to earth?
i find myself very... stuck in the middle
like why do i always have to be the ' ugly bestfriend' of the hot popular[s]
aRGH.
i'm so depressed
esp by you.
every night
i take like an HOUR just to fall asleep
and every morning
i just stay in bed
dreaming
argh.
i wish you knew,
but it would just jeopardize our friendship
i just don't know how you would react
but i guess you'd alr have experienced it SO many times.
ARGH.
so suffocating
at home
maybe that's what i hate about holidays
that i don't see you and all you guys
everyday.
argh. i am SO clearly not over you.
every sms makes me just jump u p and eagerly rush to the phone and read it
this is SO frustrating.
its like
as if
i'm just some tagg along you deal with
and some pathetic freak
that is falling for you.
haiz
just saw some photos of bro paul and sis dawn on facebook.
their wedding
and some of their wedding photos
they're like the perfect match for each other
EVERYBODY could see
they were the perfect match
it's so sweet.
argh.....

feel like a freak.
no life.
you crushed me with that sms.
i hate you but i can't stop hanging around you....
you break my heart but i can't stop fixing it back.
you compliment me and i can't stop blushing.
you hate me but i can't stop ____ you.

............
i just don't hope you know that i do.
right now,
i miss you like crazy.
i don't know where you are
i don't know if you're safe.
i need an escape

i need to get out
i need to see people.
i need some kind of salvation.
i need some kind of peace.
i need god.

2008-12-04T07:17:00.001-08:00

argh.
stupid photobucket:(
i don't know how to use it
[i dont have even photos]
and argh
life now is like so boring
and so suffocating.
haiz.
i don't know what's happening to me
i can't focus.
i need school SOO needd school
post about langkawi will be SOON
btw
i saw eagles! went FISHING !
sat on a super fast boat!
went boat paddling!
and went horse riding!
[and shopping ofc]

2008-11-21T18:10:00.000-08:00

woo!
i found a new hoobby [ just hvn't started it xD]
: JEWELERY making!!
ahaha
[watched some vids on youtube last night
i think i can do it
:)
now just need to find the materials
mom said i shld design first
and i was DREAMING about jewelery items lastnight
and what i can use to make it
:D
like, sO coOl.
i can make rings, bracelets, earrings, hairbands,necklaces
and it all formed in my head.
now all i need to do is just sketch out my plans
and maybe when i'm in langkawi i can search for my items?
like METAL BOTTLECAPs.
i think that ppl who drink tiger beer shld have
:D i'll ask
hahaha.
CAN'T WAIT.
IT IS GOING TO BE SO FUN.
then i won't have to waste my money buying jewelery
:D
and it'll be something fun to do when i am MAJORLY bored...

EVERYBODY OUT THEre?
GET A HOBBY:D
don't stay at home and complain to be bored.
DO SOMETHING
HAVE fun.
:)
[ i would volunteer at SPCA but i'm too young :( ]

2008-11-20T19:22:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling bonded(:
bonded more with God at church
(:
tha'ts good.
WAY GOOD

YF CAMP NOV
WOO it was the BEST.
it was from friday to sat :D
ahha
2 days 1 night
i came late on friday since i had piano
so i went for the night message.
then afterthat we had discussion and we talked about stuff that hasn't really been covered
like why we can't go to cinemas and BGR stuff.
but most of it we didn't really understand
so we were like : okay we will ask pastor yong to answer us the next discussion
then we slept lol [ there were 3 flats/apartments at the PA thing. one for meals (the helpers) one for messages ( the boys ) and another extra one ( the girls)] lol
then the nxt mornin woke up at like 5.30
then did mornin stuff except bathe... scared the water cold.
lol
then met the other girls and went out to watch the sunrise.
i dont think any guys followed>< lol
haiz.
so sad
we wait so long then they say no sunrise to watch haha bcos was very cloudy. but still the scenery was like super doops nice
then went back and had devotion
then had bkfast [ i think] bkfast was like for 1 h.
then had msg
and rev.yong kept toucching on the point that we had to have faith.
faith is the first step.

then after that had discussion again
this Time had revyong to talk to us.
(: now i know why i can't go movies
and BGR, well that's ltr.

then had some games like tabboo and i forgot wad le.
XD
like super funny lah.
hahaha.
then wrote questions for the forum :
girls - fashion and BGR
boys - media
lol
then had lunch!
XD
then aft that had forum
><
auntie selena says that its slightly relieveing that nowadays teens are like dressing abit more conservative [ hannah montana etc. haha]
then the other group joined us and auntie ai lian answered questions about BGR.
she says that now, our main aim is to excel in studies
:) appropriate age for BGR? : 21.
haha. i can live with that.

then had bible trail or sth
haha

1st station : must form a rubber band skipping rope then jump like 5 consecutive times as a group [ classic lah.haha]

2nd station : must throw sth like waaay above something [ didn't REEAALLYYY geett itt... but okay... hahha]

3rd station : had to like memorize this memory verse [ i think i can't rmb]

4th station : had to answer like 5 querstions aobut the bible and recite one memory verse
then we all went back to the basketball court and solved this 'quiz' thing...

haha.
then had FREE TIME
for like 2 hours
the weird thing?
i didn't feel like sleeping until like the last 5 minutes
haha
and i showered
(:
then had the last message.
then had some presentation thing.
n then dINNERR
and then went home(:

but in between there? there was like bonding.
btw, pictures ltr.

DVBS nov!
haha.i woke up and went runnnin thne went back and changed and went to home team NS with mom.
then realised that alot of ppl havn't arrived yet even though it was supposed to start-.-
XD
then
had like singing session
and it was really fun.
then had msg by rev.Tan.
he talked about a new life
and he even told us that when he was a kid, [in sec sch] he was like SUPER naughty
he played truant and he cheated on tests and he beatup ppl.
but i mean, if u look at him now, you wouldn't believe that he did all that kinda stuff.
and he also gave us this analogy [ in chinese but i'll translate]
:
rev tan:wads the opposite of huo[life]
us : si [ dead]
rev tan : wad is the opposite of huo shui[ life water haha]
us : si shui [ dead water]
rev tan : yu ke yi zai si shui huo mah? [ can fish live in dead water?]
lol
and by fish he means like the fruits of the spirit.
><
then took the smaller kids to play at pasir ris park
SUPER FUN.
haha
we like climbed this and that.
and climbed the slanting rock wall.
and i sorta ' overcame' my fear of heights for that day
then went back and had lunch!
but didn't really finish the whole packet 'cos like i felt super full.
i dont know why.
lol
then had art session
WOO.
hha
i designed my own.... card thingy
but its like hard.
so i dont know wad it is.
><
then aft that had msg again.
then aft that had games [ freetime] hahaha
then went to swings
and started cam-ing
with jiayi and jiaen
XD
and then went to sit on somehwere and TRIED to emo, but couldn't
like
really really couldn't
at that time, i coiuldn't find anything bad in my life.
thank GOD.
then went to basketball court and TRIED to play haha
and us girls sat there and everytime the guy's ball hit the board i like clapped.
if it went inside the hoop i would cheer
HAHa.
XD
then we split the court into half.
then i tried to shoot it in,
but hey, it seemed SUCH A LONG WAY to reach it. it seems so far... haha
XD [don't blme me i'm short and my accuracy isn't good]
then went home XD

i mean, it sounds simple and all, but it really is FUN.
and today, i practiced piano and cleard out my room ' sorta' and sorted the booklist!
turns out i have alot of the books required!
WOO save money!
xD
[esp the slightly more ex ones]

PHOTOS NXT TIME!

2008-11-12T03:55:00.000-08:00

okay its over.
all the fun.
its over
;(
why am i always so emotional?
i'm irritating myself.
aRGH.
><
the YOG sports fiesta ended today and it was like. fun.
lol
ArGH.
i dont feel like going for the class party meetings
i want to spend time with my friends.
><
i mean its like
most of them are like going to another country.
argh
and i don know if i shld try to transfer to scgs too.
><
or some other good school.
i'll miss like everybody
and my holidays are going to be so boring
i don't know what to do
WHERE ARE MY gUts these few days?!
where are all my senses?
where is all my instinct?
haiz.
i'm like emo-ing
but this time not over guys or myself
its like
over the school term
i kinda love hCIS!
[we're in the newspaper of today's home section of the straits times under the sports section]
headline : YOG COMES TO HWA CHONG
i dont want anybody to transfer
but i guess in international schools, people come and go in your life.
like in the real world.
it will prepare. me.
haiz.i'll brace myself.

2008-11-11T02:44:00.000-08:00

WOOO TODAY RRAWWWWKKEDD:D
hahha.
sadly like 11 or 12 ppl didn't come ;d
but smaller group so easier
lol
so here's my day :D and al those ppl who went:D
so we gathered in the mph at like 8+ lol n this guy called adrien briefed us about the FIRST EVER YOG(youth olympic gameS)to be held in SINGAPORE in 2010. GUESS WHAT.
our school went down in HISTORY. :D we helped out on the day that singapore was proclaimed the winner of the bid. so anyway
proceeded down to the SALT centre ( student's activities leadership training) n had a MINI talk about triathlon. GUESS WHAT. i got a HAT! haha they asked some qwuestions and i got a hat:D
then went down to the frisbee place.
then we had to put our shoes in the mid way line.
then walk back.
then run to it, put on your shoes then run round the cone AND back.
AND I WON!
WOO TWO CAPS!
haha
serious.
D: then GIRL POWER
keller and I against Hyun ik(er) haha and aaron.
><
then went to the sailing thingie. had a MINI tlk again
then went down to try out the boats ( on land of cos)
THEN THE TEACHERS WOO! they tried
HAHA.
esp WU LAO SHI :D
then had break
then proceeded to LT for our rowing.
haha
wah the machine like super cool lah.
wish i took a photo of it.
then 'cos my gorup had yirong noey tomooki ziyi aerisa ahlui(ithink) n david
lol
then noey and tomooki n yirong like super horny lah
they say its like humping
...
then WAH we had competition
then we were winning
and we were the most enthu
haha.
super funny
i scream utnil i no more voice><
then noey last part
HAHAH.
then he starte doff like damn super fast lah.
><
i think we all know why
then last part
grp 3 beat us by a little bit 'cos noey stop fo a while 'cos ahlui told him to stop
Wddahell.
lol
nvm
then
went down to MPH for WREStLING.
hahha
then the instructors call our gruop enthu
'cos like alot of things i clap then everybody clap:D
[iwashyper.]
then we arranged ourselves according to height
LOL. then i challenged aerisa
i almost won, but didn't,
lol
'cos i mean,
AERISA IS A JUNIOR BLACKBELT IN TAEKWANDO LEH..
lol
:S i was like scared that i'll lose.
but she didn't use her taekwando skills on me
ahha
then went down handball
LOL
we practiced passing first
and all those basics
WAAHHH.
ZIyi my partner
then she throw the ball hit me in the____
lol
[downthere de.]
that's the first time
hurt a little bit 'cos she didn't throw that hard
lol
then
2nd time!
one of the guys the balls were in our court
then ziyi wanted to throw it
then it hit my leg
wahh
that one pain
lOL
duno how she do de.
lol
then had a game
erh
first game, i touched the balla little bit
but affter tat
idn't
lol
feel uselss.
--__
then had lunch but didn't eat
then had talk again
then had to discuss for our dance performance of YOG sports tmr.
(:
supper doops fun.
D:but at times yirong got pissed,
so...
lol
D:
we were dancin to SURFin' USA
and
apparently acc to one of the coaches we were the best.
X:
lol
then ms kong joined us
WOO
i was so hyper,
that even now,
my voice
is still hoarse
D:
NVM!
THIS IS THE LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL!
I AM GOING TO BE HYPER SOME HOW OR OTHER
EVEN THOUGH I EMO SOMETIMES ABOUT HOW I WILL MISS 1EX.
BUT THIS IS GOING TO BE MY BEST WEEK!

PSST.
also, CONGRATS SHAOKAI!
YOU PASSED YOUR OVERALL!
SO PROUD OF YOU :D
UR HARDWORK PAID OFF[ithinkuworked hard][

2008-11-06T05:23:00.001-08:00

i will miss you guys like crap.
ARGH.
photos just suck sometimes.
reminding me of how much fun we've had.
i mean,
that's like MORE than all the fun i've had in my 6 years of pri school.
(yeah. i had no life then)
i rmb when i first joined this school...
i never fit in with u guys.
but u made me feel included.
like
really.
i dont feel uncomfortable around u guys
yeah.
well, sometimes
but mostly never

REALLY.
REALLY.
REALLY.
dont want you guys to transfer.
:(
and waht's worse, some of u guys are going OVERSEAS.
woah. you're all lucky.
and i know that you're EXTRA lucky cos ya'll can fit in everywhere.
and JOANNA CHONG YUAN CI!
WHY MUST YOU TRANSFER!?
i know we only know each other for like 2 terms(1st 2 terms nv really talk)
BUT BUT BUT
will miss
lloll u pervertic person :D
hahaha
and i don want u guys to transfer.
this school will be NOTHIN'without u guys.
i'am. SERIOUS.
i feel envious your whole future is laid out infront of you with millions of opportunities.
i have to make my own.
i guess that's harder.
i dont want you guys to do badly.
please
just
do
well.
just come back ANYTIME.
everyweek also can
(it'll boost the economy... !!! lol the airplane fares)
:)
<31Ex08
hope we can have a class thin.

2008-11-05T04:40:00.000-08:00

woohooo
EXaMS FINISHED TODAY!

very
very
very
very

HAPPY!!!! can't EXPLAIN how happy i am!
wulaoshi also said that i got 70+ for my CHINESE!!! WOOTs.
WORK PAID OFF!!
woohooo
but i sad for hist
ms kong say my similar thing minus mark WAAHH!!
can DIE can
lol
haha
then after exams we waited for ollie's mom to fetch us to plaza ( THANKYOU MRS LIM! )
lol then we went to eat Pastamania!
lol
but we took photos for our PE proj.
then aft that
we called the guys and met them at vivo
haha
we had thoughts about ditchin them 'cos they ditched us so many times
but we nice people
so we never
;p
then we went to find sushi- tei to meet some of the guys
but met kavern! (HAHA!) gerald arwin wenjie and weiming at burgerking first ><
lol
then met the guys
then they went to book movie tickets
for HSM3.
then
we went up to the roof
'cos hve to do PE proj (only ariel joanna shumin ollie and me 'cos the others too lazy to do)
then we cam-ed and cam-ed
lol
we tried to take some jumpshots
but raelly retarded
and the water was sooo warrm<3
haha
then we went onto the platform cos got security guard.
lol then there was one group with the guys
HAHA then kavern was like
' OKAY EVERYONE! SPICE GIRLS!'
hhahha
then he did this pose
soo funny
everyody started laughing
we shld SO have taken photo of that pose
lol then we all tried to jump together
quite cool
then joanna and i wanted to 'show our butts' to the camera LOL!
haha.
then we went into pet lovers' centre
the dogs.
are.
SO.
CUTEEEE!
then the guys went inside arcade
and us girls went to erh action city, minitoons, precious thoughts
aiya its all in the same line so easy to walk. heh..
lol
then i waited for them go buy their nachos and stuff
EW THE GUYS WERE SO SICK
they were trying to be pro models and sick guys with the posters of the hsm3 cast
xD
lol
then apparetnyl
according to the other guys
lol
the first scene was troy bolton all sweaty
then
the guys were like ( yirong, benny, ryan etc.) : TROOY!!
lol
like those love-struck obsessed girls
lol
haha
then gerald said that
kavern was
calling every girl that came out a (s---)
and i was like
KAVERN!?
then he was like
HEY CAN SEE THEIR UNDERWEAR CAN.
then after that.

ollie started laughing uncontrollably
and claimed to have bladder probs haha
then we ' ditched the guys'
as in ollie shumin and i
then shumin went
then ollie's mom gave me a ride home
(THANKS MRS LIM AGAIN!!)
lolX:
really thankful
you know how far my house is from theirs?

anyway
haiz
this happiness only lasted for a while.
i didn't even get what i dreamt.
but dont ask what i dreamt.
i won't tell you
i won't tell anybody.><

2008-11-03T23:42:00.000-08:00

lol hey her'es a short post :D
haha
tmr is my last exam MATH..
aww geez.

chinese was relatively easy! hey i studied okay
business was.. QUIITEee easy but alot of writing
english was... i dont think i can do well :(
science was.... HA! funny and laughable
history was... lol
maths will be ... difficult

quite happy and angry these few days
some people are just crossing the line man.
insults, should be kept
tmr going out!! :D:D weeee..
but
the guys going too. >X< some.. only
i dont want some to go
but i mean,
its like
aroudn the end of year, so... just one outing won't really hurt
joanna is transferring to farifield!!! :(
i dun like her luh...

lol
even though i hang out with her alot n she's like one of my best friends ><
i shld want her to do well instead of staying in our some waht not so good school lol
::(
lol
i got a new pet name for her!

JOANNIEE!!!
as in
jo- and - ni!
lol
lol
i duno why
i feel like super bored these days
like nothing to do liddat
>< can't wait for next year to start man
to find out the new ppl in our school, or maybe there won't be
AHH!
:(
i wan be in same class with ollie and shumin
if not...
LOL
i dont know what will happen
but i will make such a big fuss
its going to be sucha big fuss
lol
i'm sprouting crap
AGAIn.
i've been CRAPPING
and
CRAPPING
like a professional CRAPPER.

i
feel
guilty, sad, angry, excited, irritated, bored, meaningless, stressed, MISSING SOME PEOPLE , happy

OH! MY SIS IS Coming BACK FROM MT KINABALU(ithink) TODAY! haha. no more being scared of the dark! WEE!

2008-10-20T05:56:00.000-07:00

you did this to me.
i can't believe that after all that we've been through,
you still repeat those mistakes again.
you still repeat those words
to make me hurt
to make me embarrassed
to make me angry
you freaking don't know how much i want to slap you on the face.
i put up a fake smile to be nice.
you think you so great.
you're only 13!
you think you've experienced everything?
if you have, then what's the fun in living?
why don't just go and be some kind of counselor? huh?
you think you've been through every kind of situation!?

you're only 13!
and even I act more matured that you!
i'm like what,
11 months younger than you?
MATURE people don't SHOW OFF.
MATURE PEOPLE CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE'S FEELINGS
MATURE PEOPLE DON'T EMBARRASS OTHERS.
MATURE PEOPLE ARE NOT YOU.
STOP CLAIMING YOU ARE ONE.
YOU ARE SO IGNORANT,
LIVING IN YOUR WORLD

WITH THEM AS YOUR COMPANIONS. ALL
STUPID
IMMATURE
FREAKING
EGO
IDIOTS!
YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT HOW OTHERS FEEL

we've FOUGHT, TALKED, QUAReLLed over this.
I NEVER INSULTED YOU!

WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS!
ARE YOU JUST FREAKING JEALOUS THAT I CAN DO BETTER THAN YOU IN STUDIES/
YOU KEEP CLAIMING YOU WANT TO BE THIS HIGH-RANKING JOB.

YOU NEVER WORK.
LAST MINUTE WORK NEVER PAYS OFF.

you know what i hate most?

DUMB IDIOTS WHO THINK THEY CAN GET AWAY WITH EVERYTHING LAST MINUTE AND ACTUALLY DO, BUT IT DOESN'T PAY OFF IN THE LONGRUN.

I THINK YOU'RE JUST STUPID
YOU CAN'T SEE HOW THIS IS GOING TO LOOK ON YOUR PROFILE WHEN YOU TRY TO APPLY FOR A UNIVERSITY.

ever thought about that?
ever thought the more erh,, MATURE way?
ever thought about the consequences/
you think everything's about fun.
its not
welcome to the real world

you might say, i know everything's not fun
words. never actions.
perfectly describes you huh.
you
idiot
you
scumsucker
you
egoistic
freak

i don't think you're dumb
you just don't USE your brain.
i find that funny.
you got the brains,
you just don't use it
so when you try to show it off,
it just turns out pitiful and PATHETIC.
PATHETIC.
PATHETIC.

NOT ONLY YOU,
YOU AND YOUR GROUP OF FREKING PEOPLE.
GUY AND GIRL REGARDLESS. YOU GROUP . WILL NEVER GET AWAY WITH IT during the major exam.
just wait and see.

2008-10-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

its so difficult to be happy
:(
its supposed to be a happy week.
i'm trying
but its really difficult

i don't want you guys to transfer.
i dont want ANYBODY to transfer.
'coz you guys really rock
ya'll make my day
every day
i dont think i could ask for anything more from you guys.

i know sometimes i'm like really sensitive
but i sorta...
kinda
... love havin you guys around.
nothin's gonna be the same withotu you guys aroudn
but i know that hwa chong inter. sucks
well,
i dont think its really professional
but i think the people are REALLY great here
also,
there's a big campus.
wayy good.
i know there are good ppl everywhere
but
i dont want to lose the friendship
its' typical
if you go,
you tend to forget
esp if the new school is WAY cooler
and i dont want tolose friends like that
within my erh
not so big range of friends,
losing one friend IS a big thing.

i want you to be happy. but i dont want you to leave
but i think that ya'll shld just go. if you want to. i'll stay here. as long as i can
if you ever feel nostalgic
come back to visit me(:

2008-09-24T05:58:00.000-07:00

there are really so many things going on in my mind right now
1. this is entirely embarssing
i know, its just a stupid website.
but
i feel like an idiot
actually, i feel like an idiot any where outside class.
that's just who i am
i'm an idiot
a big fat idiot
what you going ot do about it?
i'm angry
but i'm not angry at anyone.
i'm angry i wasted my money
now i have to survive on such little money
i'm angry i told you
i'm angry i didn't do it earlier
i'm angry i didn't talk to them
i'm angry i'm not popular
but i'm not blaming god
'cos i'm made like this.

i wish that i didn't hang out with you guys
it just makes it way worse.
it makes it WORSE because i get more jealous everyday
because i get more left out everyday
you all get included in class And outside class.
i dont
that's why i dont smile.
that's why my face muscles don't move.
that's why i'm so lifeless.

and i'm going to stay that way
i dont know for how long
but you can't do anything.
im sorry
i'm sorry i made you even know me
i'm sorry i hung out with you guys
, make you all waste your time and money on me.
i'm sorry
i'm sorry for everything i did to you
i'm sorry if i offended you

i wish that now you would juststay away from me, just let me live my sad and lonely world.
i wish that you would do that, if not you'll just hurt yourself and me more.
i'll just be a loser for life. and i accept that.
i just dont want you to be hurt

and whats worse, is i can't do anything about it.
you don'tknow how much of a coward i am.
sometimes i even question if i'm living
i have like no more feelings.
i dont think
i dont do anything.
its just all by instinct
im doing everything mindlessly.

i love you guys, but you really got to stay away from me. even if it kills me, i don't want to live with the fact that i hurt you.
because i want to leave this world in a quiet manner.
it would be nice to be appreciated,
but i'm not.
so
just stay away.
it'll do you and your popularity good.
not having to stick aroudn with me any longer.

i will dragf you down with your studies
especially with the upcoming EOY's
i'm selfish
i dont share my work
i'm stupid.
i dont get my work right
i'm jealous.
i'm emo.
i'm everything an unpopular girl is.
tell the truth, eveyrbody else knows somebody else from another level and is actually good friends.
me?

i'm a nobody.
they only know me as ' a girl who hangs out with THEM'
THEM referring to the SUPERIOR three.
yeah you knwo who i'm talking about.
the populars.

i shouldnt even be here.
i shouldnt even be anywhere.

2008-09-23T07:45:00.000-07:00

i vented my anger on you
yes.
but i didn't say i needed your help
DID I?
i need a place to spill
and you offered.
NOBODY ASKED YOU TO MONITOR MY LIFE
NOBODY TOLD YOU TO TELL EVERYBODY
YOU KNOW HOW EMBARASSED I AM?
YOU KNOW THAT EVEN A SEC 4 GUY KNOWS?!
I SHOULDNT HAVE TRUSTED YOU
I SOHULD HAVE
I FEEL SO STUPID
YOU COULD AT LEAST HAVE TOLD ME
so that i could at least PREPARE myself
i didn't even have the time
i THOUGHT
i could TRUST YOU...

YOU SAID YOU COULD TRUST ME.
AND YOU CAN.
IS THE FEELING MUTUAL?!
I DONT THINK SO.
I TRUSTED YOU
I SERIOUSLY DID.
I'M SO GULLIBLE\

NOW YOU MAKE ME HATE MYSELF MORE THAN I HATE WHAT YOU DID.
I DON'T HATE YOU, I HATE WHAT YOU DID.
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY
I COUNTED YOU AS MY CLOSE FRIEND.

I WISH YOU DIDN'T KNOW.
I WISH YOU NEVER KNEW ANYTHING
I WISH I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW YOU

2008-09-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

emo-ing
life so screwed man
nobody's really there for me.
they're all with their own cliques
i'm jus like
somebody taht 'has to be there' so that the other girls will go.
i'm not really included
i'm an outsider
i am NEVER INCLUDEd.
i'm not like them.
i was NEVER like them
I DONT KNOW WHY I'M EVEN ACTING LIKE THEM
ITS STUPID
ITS USELESS.
WADEVER I DO IS NEVER NOTICED.
even if it is, its WRONG.

i'll be known as a copy-cat, no life , no personality
person
so whats the point
i'll just go back to the point where i never knew all this.
i'll just go back to the days where i never thought of this
i'll just go back to the days where i WAsn'T like this.
where i wasn't full of crap
where i wasn't full of vulgar words
where i wasn't full of anger
where i wasn't full of sadness
where i wasn't full of THIS.

this sucks
it always does.
but only when i'm inside

screwing up things.
story of my life.

2008-09-11T06:09:00.001-07:00

msn's not working
:(
well at least its not the computer, its the server. my dad says that somebody's trying to hack it or sth
'cos shumin has the same problem TOo.
just finished math homework and staring at the lovely signatures that almost everybody signed on my little black book
lol
on the back
its relaly kinda nice
but i think i kinda ruined it
by
drawing hearts over every single person's signature thing
HAHA.
benny's one is a cat, dario's one is teletubbies and kavern wrote ' white it the new black'
lol yirong's one is ' ss' (supersexy) LOL
and nashlie's one is a helmet
and the girls' signature is like seriously nice
haiz.
whenever i need inspiration to keep goin on with my notes and revision, i'll just look at the back
(:

today
went to school as normal, but in the morning was quite haunted by the show we watched yesterday
lol
as in the toilet
at home
lol
and theN.
went to school.
emo-ed with shumin a while.
okay shumin was like really sick
and cold
so we sat outside the class.
then i went in
and bluh bluh
class started
then had reading
woah
thebook ' twisted' by i-cant-remember
is really GOOD.
glad i went to that bookfair
lol

had business after that
mr john's getting better at teaching.
kinda cool.
HAH.
then had recess
ate
and went back up
then had history
woah
i never thought history lesson could be SO boring
trust me, it was Veryyyy boring
like
ms kong was going so slow
and i was having a bit of a headache
and i was abit mad at kavern for saying that
chingyueh's my husband-.-
pls. i dont even talk to chingyueh
+ he's out of the school.
+ he speaks chinese and i don't.
and i'm pissed at you esp 'cos you're one of my sons kavern
lOl.
like
dario announced tothe whole world
that
: I HAVE A MAMA THAT HAS 5 KIDS,(dario,kavern, ryan, gerald, benny) WITHOUT A HUSBAND!
sommore pointing to me.
lOL
'cos dario was sick
and said sth that
' marriage is all about s__'
then ms kong was like
' girls! keep away from him!'
lol
that was the funnest part
then had science
woah
i realised that i've improved quite a bit
like last term, i wouldn't be able to finish the worksheets 'cos ill be too busy talking
and i didn't even TRY to attempt the questions.
then
this term, even if i'm not so sure, i just gave it a shot
i'm kinda proudda myself.
i'm kinda sure its correct
(:
well i guess getting almost the top in class kinda gives you a boost.
(:
then had PE.
walao
mrsim go and chasethem out of their court
bcos we had ' gymnastics'
wad the...
we had to get the mats from the hall
and og there
eh hot lah pls
then first had to do erh
animal movements
-.-
i was, a bird,a crocodile, monkey, pig, fish, hamster, dog, bear, bee, bird etc.
lol
then had to do duno what stuff lah
eh haiz
PE got PROJECT okay
need to organize some kind of thing.
geez.
then had lunch
arrived at class at 1.4 5
but realised teacher still wasn't there
SO ran to change.
speed change
then went back to class
(rAn)
then figured teacher still havn comethen waited like 5 min
then mrs koh came.
then
had to do duno how 3 excercises or sth?
in 40 min pls.
--
it totally drained me.
then after tht went to chill until 3
then went for ' cca'
where i read 'twisted' will waiting for the instructor, who, didn't show up
then mr dinesh came at 3.30 and said that it was too late evne if he did come, sO he let us off
and i went to tennis courts to wait for jenna etc.
then talked with yirong, sec __ guy (not sure heh), ollie ,obaja and TOMMY!
HAH.
tommy so cute
he can't even pronounce 'turtle'
hahahah
then yirong was like
' what s the most difficlt word u can't pronounce?'
i was like
' thirty three thousand and thirty three'
lOL.
'cos must pronounce the ' th' sound
LOL.
then jenna came out, and waitedfor yijing
then went out
and 174 was the 1st bus that came, so took it
lol
tommy super cute lalh
now we have a code to say goodbye
HAHAHa.
then went to plaza sing
'cos needed to pee
then jenna looked for her hairband
and bought sushi
:D
then went to walk sommore
then went home
then go home only , kenna scolding for 'going home late'
then read twisted
then fell asleep
until 8
then practiced piano
andwhile practicing, was emo-ing abit
i'm sure u don want me to list it all down,
but seriously, i felt like crying there and then.
no matter howmuch anybody says, it won't help
anyway

my sis
bought me boost
haha
as payback 'cos i bought her waffle ytd
(:
-- but she insists its 'cos i'm a nicesister
at times
---
joanna fong rui en

she's leaning on me now
guess i gotta go
tooDles

2008-09-06T20:38:00.000-07:00

sheesh
been abit busy
these days
doing notes, doing chinese, history, revising
.......
i'm not even FINISHED revising.....
but close therE(:

forgot to post aboutwed.
so here it is
LOL

supposed to meet at 12
but haha planned to meet dario and ollie at 11.15
duno why
lol
then ollie and her sis were there at 1115
but DARIO was LaTE. hahaha but still early
at 11.30
then hung around and walked round cathay
wah cathay quite boring leh
then about 12 i think joanna came
haha
i thought joanna was going to wear mini skirt
><
she didnt
AWWW mann
ahahha
then SOme people(not pointing who)
would be happier
oh yeah
allof us girls, except ollie's sis
were wearing skirts
HAHAHA.
dont ask me why.......
it was to prove dario
that we DO wear skirts
[besides school skirts]
then yirong came
then went to see which movies can rent
but couldn't find any.
so
went to eat ben and jerry
WAH MY BIG MISTAKE
one SMALL shake, chocolate is like
almost 8 bucks.
but it was my lunch
'cos
i like
drank half
okay not even half
i alr full
and i didnt eat bkfast
super duper nice
but suck money
lol
then
aft that, wanted go dhoby gaut see if there can rent movie/buy movie then go yirong house and watch
but yirong duwan go back his house
so he say go iceskating
at first, alot of excuses
lol
and ollie and joanna didn't have pants,.
so yirong and dario called benny to bring extra
[which i doubt he did]
then
took cab there.
then went to iceskate
wah very scared
but we iceskated in skirts
><
lol
i was like super scared
my 2nd time skating
and dario's first time
LOL
and yet dario still got the GUTS to push me
and say
' chill, relax'
LOL
i was holding joanna's hand like super doops tight lah
but thats' only the first few rounds
lol
yirong probably completed like 3 / 2 rounds in my 1 round lah
HAHHAHA.
><
he was like
ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM!
then erhhh
hhahha
make me feel worse nia.
XP
then rested
and waited for benny
then ssaw him
lol
i thought he would be the first to fall
X: AWW SHUCKS HE DIDNT FALL MAN.
he act only.
lol
then went skating sommore
somore
smore
then
dario and benyn were like
scaring me the whole time
i scared they push me down
then super wet/cold
btw, the ice was like melting
abit
so got like
damn lot of water.
lol
then
after a few rounds,
more confident de shi hou
then dario n benny was like
OKay joanna let go of her!
let her go one round
and i went one round
but dario was like following behin. and damn scared he push me down
then after i completed one round
they were like
' WOO! YOU COMPLETED ONE ROUND!'
i seriously , seriously, at that moment, wanted BOTH of them to fall down
XP
then
they made me go for duno how many rounds
lol
i never count
was too scaared
then
ollie , ollie sis(julia), yirong,benny and joanna went to skate sth liddat
then joanna fell down
then apparently benny wanted to help her up
but he couldnt stop in time
lol
so he ended up dragging her round in circles
MEAN WHILE,
i was at the other side of the rink
when
dario made me fall down
:(
AND IT WAS LIKE DAMN WET OKAY
SUPER SUPER WET LAH.
lol
then he was laughing his ass off.
didn't care
went back
and figured joanna had a cramp
HAHA
all benny's fault.
then wehnt to skate abit more
then watched a movie..
money no enough 2
WAH SO SAD
i CRIEd.
joanna almots cried
and ollie cried too
the guys,,
erhh
i duwan say anyth
yirong's too heartless to cry,
dario was thinking about stuff,
and benny if i not wrong, looked like he was about to cry, but didn't
but hey, real man cry eh?
LOL

then went to serangoon mrt
wait for dad to pick up
then went to sing post to eat
LOL.
looke kinda weird
'cos
i changed my flats to slippers
so i was like
wearing a nice shirt, skirt
and SLIPPERS
haha
but comfortable
so, who cares/
lol
then went home
and fell alseep
so tired
GEEz.

THURS
went to 'study'
at school.
sat in the canteen
met with jenna and ollie at 10.15
went to canteen
and started to study
well, me and jenna
while ollie,
okay she did at first
then later she gave up
and read her twilight book
and gerald came
then at 1, yirong came
bluh
bluh
bluh
then at like 4+
shaokai came
wah
he damn irritating
try to teach him, he duwan listen
keep laughing
GEEZZZ>
okay, lazy tO post le.
BTW I LIke my NOTEBOOK!!!!:D
its all niceee
haha
here some pics that i took the front page. not bad actually it was just plain black. then i added color
my webcam not very clear, so sorry lol

COLORFUL HISTORY NOTES.
COLORFUL SCI NOTES
sci notes with diagrams. NICE HOR

and sth the yirong drew.

he said that if i rubbd away something bad would happen to me HAHAHA. but actually, i can just tear out the page. i purposely didn't write anything on the other side, so that i can tear it out(:

oh yah, super tired. now.

gotta study, toodles(:<3>

2008-09-02T06:18:00.001-07:00

nothing i do is ever correct. NOTHING.
nothing i do is ever pleasing. NOTHING.
ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT I'M NOT WHAT YOU WANT ME TO BE.
I'm not blaming it on anybody. buT I CAN'T HELP IT.
you don't even see how much i cry behind your back.
you don't see how much effort i PUT IN.
i just can't be the same as last time.
WHY CAN'T YOU JUST FACE THAT FACT.
i'm trying. i really am.
i've just lost it.
i didn't use it, so GOD took it away.
so now i'm left with nothing.
i can't be the same anymore.

Do you think that i don't feel bad whenver there is something wrong?
don't you EVER THINK about how i feel after a practice, when nothing seems to turn out right?
JUST 'cos you're SO good at it, doens't mean i am.
just 'cos its ' supposed ' of me, and the others aren't doing it anymore.
just 'cos all of THEM. have mastered in it.
i just don't have the GIFT.

i'm SORRY. if i made you think that i had it
i'm SORRY. if i did it once, but i can't do it again.
i'm SORRY.
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?!
i'm losing contrl of my life.
i don't know what i'm doing.
i'm breaking all rules.
i'm stressed out.
i'm putting pressure on myself like never before.
i'm SENSITIVE.
and it makes it all worse.

no dobut, i want to go back to those days.

but you know what? i'm NEVER going back to those days.
its way out of my league.
i'm never going to make it.
so don't put your hopes so high on me.
making it all worse when i don't go so high.
making me feel like an idiot and useless after evrything.

Just, DON'T
i'm sick of crap
i'm sick of it
i'm sick of everything.
i want it to come back, it just wont'

you never see how much i work, just to please you.
you just never see.

2008-08-21T04:41:00.001-07:00

seriously emo-ing.
i feel like i've lost my importance in this world.
like.....
i'm not meant to be here

i dont know why it took me SO LONG to realise that .....
my life is full of screwups.
my life is so screwed
there's no way of putting all the pieces back together.
i'm just useless.
i'm a freak.
i'm a dumbass.
i just suck.
i'm weird.
i'm so gullible.
i don't have an opinion of my own.
i do'nt know how to stand up on my own.
i'm an embarrassing nerd.
i bring everybody down.

sometimes i think that i'm the worst out of the whole sec 1s in Singapore.
and probably in the whole world.
my life is SO SCREWED UP.
i don't feel safe everywhere.
i don't feel safe at home.
i don't feel safe at school.
i keep feeling as if somebody's gonna put me down
somebody's gonna criticize me.
somebody's gonna mock me
i'm just gonna embarrass myself.
I DON'T WANT TO BE THOUGHT OF THAT WAY.
i am a FREAKIN IDIOT!
i just want to die.
seriously.
but you know what,
i don't even have the GUTS to.
exams.
everybody's so good.
wahts the point of studying.
its not like i'll beat them anyway.
whats the point.
breaking down in tears doesn't save my marks
breaking down in tears doesn't make me satisfied.
i have totally NO control of what im' saying
what i'm doing.
I FEEL LIKE A FREAKING IDIOT
I JUST WANT TO KILL MYSELF.
the more i say that.
the more i have guts to.

2008-08-13T03:33:00.000-07:00

argh.
exams suck.
so much pressure.
i already know the consequences.
and all i'm doing is waiting for everything to happen.
i've sort of given up
i just don't think there's any more hope for me.
heck care about what other people WANT me to get.

------------------
english exam : sucky. even passing will be a miracle.
chinsse: abit better. A will be a miracle.
maths: die. getting 30 will be a big miracle.
business : PASSINg will be big miracle.
history : dont have high hopes. tmr we'll see. i tell you. even an A will be a miracle.
sci : ...... don't even TALK about it....

today ollie joanna shumin and I were outside class
and we talked about stuff.
while some of the guys were 'sleeping' on tables.
and it was really nice/.

we liked... talked about stuff that MATTEREd.
stuff that will matter.
and stuff that matter.
it was nice.
we like
trusted each other with our secrets.
no guys aren't the only thing we care about.
and this was one of the few times where all of us were like on the verge of tears.
i never felt so closely bonded<3 and like a big weight bein lifted off my shoulders.

shumin ollie and joanna<3333

i wish that... we will never be separated.
same university.
i just hope that we'll be life long friends.
life long close friends<3
life long best friends<33

2008-08-08T08:00:00.000-07:00

today was okay.
went to school early
to spray hair and do face paint.
but yirong came at like 7 and all the equipment with him.
then suddenly he come and everybody very shocked bcos he painted his whole face
but i found it like cool.
like one red patch at his right eye.
then the rest of the face white
haha
then went back to class
sprayed my hair.
ran from here to there
ran sommore.
johg abit.
paint two lines on my face
u know teh national flag?
(red&white)
sth liddat
then helped to put for other people
then rushed everybody to the hall
then embarassing.
then bleh
over le.
then stayed back for camp briefing.
wah so sian-.-
then went back to class then shumin wanted go esteevo(behind rg)
so went with yirong shumin &weiming.
then joanna called when we were walking outside njc to say tht she no council meeting
then she ask me wait
but i very bad
so i never
:(
hehe
then went to esteevo first
we went like
at 10.53 or sth
then it opened at like 11
but the auntie let us in first
then ordered food/ lunch
ate spaghetti and went back to school
shumin and yirong cabbed back
weiming went home
joanna and i walked
and chatted.
then when joanna and i almost reach cshool
then shumin and yirong come runnig out and say go cafe.
but when joanna and i weren't that happy lah.
but just went
then saw ollie with a biggggggg group of guys
haha.
kavern. nashlie. deyro.benny.
(they're quite big sized so ......... counts)
then 'pangseh-ed' them (but i knew they'd follow) and went back to shcool
then sat in class and talked with ms kong a while
then she went off
and joanna and i were doing math
then the guys blasted music
thne i couldn't concentrate on math so i went to revise sci
then shumin started callng me study freak-.-
haha.
but then i was like feeling abit pissed at myself.
and a bit frustrated with myself.
so i was like
giving faces
:( sorry
then while shumin emo
joanna and i went hyper and painted our faces AGAIN.
'cos the mornin's one rubbed off
but joanna painted her whole face
with a red flower at her left eye
haha.
then i made her leave it on
then she made it even cuter by tying two pony tails

haha.
joanna so funnneh i tell u
then she started to go crazy when we 'migrated' to the hall.
she strted to treat her shoe as her baby
and she rolled on the floor
and she smiled crazily
and she threw shumin's marker until it leaked
then she took benn'ys wallet and made him chase her until he got 'tired'
and she found a secret door
-.-

talk about accomplishment of the mentally challenged.
haha
then went home
then pretended to be mentally retarded(we still had paint on our faces)
then we tried to irritate deyro
'cos he was like
' i dont know u guys'
then when there was a big grup of people
i would go like

(superloud)' HEYYYY DEYYYRROOO!!! I HAVN'TT SEEN YOU FOR SO LONG!!!0
hahaha
he didn't like it
then he said that wehn he go tinto the taxi
we were like waving crazily
then the uncle ask him if we were his friends
then he say we're mentally challenged people or sth
hahahhaa
then went to take neoprints
then sth bad happened
then went to church
sat there
emo abit
while waiing for everybody to arrive.
haiz.

2008-08-05T05:34:00.000-07:00

i just can't get to get rid of you .
when i DON'T want to see you, you're always there.
when i MISS you like crazy, you're always gone.

and when i DO see you, you just ignore me
what happened to, "i love you"?
what happened to those promises you made?
what happened to everything?

it just hurts so much.
just to know you were cheating this whole time.
to know that you ........... never really accepted me for who i was.
you have NO idea how proud i am of you
you have NO idea how much i cry inside when i see you suffer
you have NO idea how much i'm being torn apart when you treat me that way
...
you just don't know
you just don't know anything...

------------------------
emo.
i miss xinghua.
i miss my friends.
i miss talking to them.
i miss being a goody girl.
i miss being the "nice"girl.
i miss running around with them.
i miss them.
not that i don't like 1ex.
1ex rocks my socks.
but...
xinghua was the neighbourhood that i GREW up in.
xinghua was where i experienced.
xinghua sucked. but there were good times too.

i'm being emo the whole day
i think i have some sort of problem with me.
i have this ' wall ' around me.

haiz
okay i'll try to be positive
-----
MASSEX:
2.1km run.
managed to clock 16.42min.
quite happy
improvedALOT from last week
last week was 17.12(?notsure)min.
but this week seriously chionged lah.
with shumin
she's my motivation.
its like
she keeps running
then i try to keep up with her
then when she stops
i try to motivate her
(: i love to run with her<3
haha
and after that lessons blah
until PW hist.
INTERCLASS(1i&1e) hist quiz
at first 'cos each class 3 representatives
so it was liddat
1e: jiazi,me,shumin(idraggedher.heh)
1i : josiah, joshua, kenneth/jonathan(they're twins, i get mixed up)
so like 1e was THRASHING 1i :X
haha
then
details. details
------
then after school
practiced the class cheer thing.
quite cool
haha
then there was this part where benny,russell and yp had to do this ' rap ' thing.
then we had to do actions
so joanna and i came up with some
hahah
when i think of it
I WAN FALL OFF MY CHAIR
HAHA.
cos got one line is
' laocharbo lose money'
then haha.
nvm
very difficult to explain.
haha

then after that stayed back with yirong ollie and aerisa to study
seriously studied.
actually yirong's sci not bad man
but then tomooki came
then super funny
hahaha
'cos tomooki try act cool
try to sing opera, dance, and do funny actions
haha
and trust me.
his singing not good
but his opera not bad actually.
like very clear
and he can actually go very high
:D
how cool!

then emo-ed alll the way home at 5.45
reachd home at like... 6.45
:(
so suckish
i wan die liddat
haiz

2008-08-01T04:19:00.001-07:00

ever noticed how much life sucks.
how much life sucked
and how much life will suck.

ever felt like you're not wanted?
like you're there 'cos you are forced to.
like you're an outsider
like you're alone.

and.
ever felt like you've failed your family,
your friends.
your teachers
your relatives
... and yourself.
ever lived with this guilt
ever lived like a criminal
ever lived like ME?

ever lived with this constant pressure?
with this sense of unbelonging
with this sense of..... unrespected.?

that's how I FEEL.
you don't even KNOW.
you don't even CARE
ALL of you don't care.
you never do.
you never did.
you never will.
so whats the point?

wha'ts the point of living when no one else believes in you
and when you don't believe in yourself
what's the point of living when life sucks so much
when nobody just wants to accept you for who you are.
what's the point of living when living is like...

being dead?

whats the point of living when nobody cares if you're around?
whats the point of living when there's nothing in life to be happy about/

its all FAKE smiles.
its all LIES.
its all CRAP.
its all stupid

what makes me different from them?
that i look different?
that i act different?
that i SPEAK different?
that i have different morals?
that i'm brought up differently?!

WHAT MAKES ME SO UNNOTICED?
WHAT MAKES ME SO UNWANTED
YOU TELL ME.

whymust you set me up in this big huge mass of lies. promises and deception.
WHY!?

WHY NOT JUST LET ME DIE?!
WHY DO YOU KEEP HAVING TO PRETEND?!
it just hurts MORE.
to know that you're acting
to know that i have to act along
to know that you don't really care.
even if i really want you to.

why did yuo even come into my life.
why did all of you even come into my life.
why did all of you just have to set my life into a big mess.
first tell me that i'm included.
then just push me out when i'm not needed.

why first act like you accept me for me.
and wait for me to discover that you don't?

WHY MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A BIG FAT IDIOT BEING SLAPPED RIGHT IN THE FACE?!

2008-07-26T00:44:00.000-07:00

a quiz ripped from kellers<3 blog.

name 20 people you can think of now
1.keller
2.ollie
3.shumin
4.joanna
5.dario
6.kavern
7.benny
8.yirong
9.timothy(bro)
10.vicki
11.kaiyee
12.chinkeong
13.weiming
14.gerald
15.jenna
16.abigail
17.aerisa
18.yijing
19.josiah(bro)
20.terry

how did i meet 14 (gerald)
secondary school? class? haha?

what would you do if you never met 1 (keller)
then we wouldn't have the KJE's :( and i'll die

what if 9 (timothy) and 20 (terry) are fated
EW EW EW!!!!!

will 6 (kavern) and 17 (aerisa) date?
weeell... nothing is impossible :D

describe 3 (shumin)
good freind. despo.funny. abit gross?:P

is 8 (yi rong) attractive?
...to a guy or a girl?

describe 7 (benny)
freakishly blur and funny and easily offended by discrimination against races :P

do you know of any 12's (chinkeong)family?
erhm. in school or what?

what if 18 (yijing) confesses to you that he or she likes you?
... friends?

what language does 15 (jenna) speak?
erhm. i don't know.. jenna language? :D (+ chinese of cos)

who is going out with 9 (timothy)
.... my bro won't tell me who's he's going out with.. pssfftt! he's got btter things to do mann..

how old is 16 (abby)?
twelve i think..

when did you last speak to 13 (weiming)
UH, yesterday :D

who's 2's (ollie) fav singer?
she got too many..

would you ever date with 4 (joanna)
erh. maybe.. HAHAHA KIDDING> I WON'T (neither will she)

will you ever date with 1 (keller)
maybe.... >< if i changed sex and became a guy...

is 19 (jo bro) single?
i don't think so lol.

what is 10's (vicki) last name?
her surname?
ng:D

school of 3 (shumin)?
hmm... school of retards and gross people ( hcis heh)

where does 6 (kavern) live?
...somewhere near tao nan... somewhere expensive... somewhere kavern lives
heh:P

what is your fav thing about 5 (dario)?
erhm. he has a nice jacket? :P and he's my son...

have you seen 2 (ollie) naked?
duh not.

LOL.
i dont wann punish people do this quiz
so whoever wanna do it just do it
lol.

2008-07-24T05:39:00.001-07:00

ah shits.
i feel so stupid.
i dont know why
i just don't know who to trust

the thought of you just makes me sick
i'm getting tired of your whinings.
GET OVER IT. people have lives to live too.
everytime you talk about a person, i want to slap your face. it's so freaking annoying!
maybe the only reason why i'm putting up with you is 'cos i dont have a reason to be fighting with you.
i'm sick of you.
everytime you come into class, i just groan
i'm freaking sick of like everybody nowadays
okay. nto everybody, but alot of people.
mayhbe its' just me.

........ i think it is.......

2008-07-22T05:23:00.000-07:00

ah heck.
i cant find ANYTHING.
i'm SLACKING.
i'm SUCKING.
shit. shit. shit.
supposed to go study this friday
...
quite high doubts that it WON'T be studying..
what to do.
i can't concentrate at home
so study in a group.
freak.
i'm breaking down.
i'm not myself.
i've gone bad
So many feelings,i can't even explain.
i'm so freaking scared that i'll fail ( i will.) this term
YOU KNOW HOW MUCH PRESSURE IS ON ME?
i'm the only ~~girl~~person in sec 1 that is highest for hist for two consecutive terms.
i dont think i can do it again.
i've gone bad..
and even if i want to be in the top 3.
its IMPOSSIBLE.
again, i've gone BAD.
bad. VERY BAD.
i dont even know how to control my temper.
i don't even know my feelings.
i feel like a backstabber
i feel like a loser
i feel like a bimbo.
i feel like a ...wicked person.
..
~~i feel like i dont need my primary school friends.~~
i feel like i can do without them.
i feel like an idiot.

ah dammit.
... i suck.

2008-07-17T03:03:00.000-07:00

hahaha
today was FUN.

description of events :-

haha
reached school at like 7+
then went to class and ' emo-ed'
which, was just lying on the table,
'cos abit difficult to emo when everybody else is yelling
then had business
hahaha
quite fun
mr john had us to do lke a test
-on the internet-
so we were like
' TRUE... NONO! fALSE!'
hhahaha
then had RECESS.
luckily. 'cos i wasSTARVN
but shumin had to go SIM buy the thingo for the star. so i went with her
but havnt open yet
+ SIM didn't have fries or spaghetti since it was morning..
so went back tO canteen
and bought rice
then sat with wuttichye( boss) and hyun ik
haha
they very funny.
'cos like.
shumin to hyun ik : so you from north korea?
hyun ik : - bang table - NO! i HATE NORTH KOREA!
shumin : but same country lehs.
hyun ik : no.! south and north korea fighint
.
.
.
boss : hahah! kimchee war
everybody : HAHAH!
-.

hahaha
then that hyun ik treat us like maid liddat
then go and leave the plate therre
then tell boss to tell us to put back the plate ( no please. -.- ) then run up.
then boss was laughing the whole time
then rushed back to SIM then bought the paper
WAH
VERY EX LEHS
cost us like.. $14.10
(but claim back from class fund luh. haha)
then after that
went back late for hist
but ms kong excuse us 'cos we buying for her
lol
then shumin went like.. hyper
like the picture of general yamashita, then
ms kong : WHO'S THIS?
shumin : JOANNA!!
joanna : HUH!?
me : LOL SHUMIN!
hahahha

the general percival also joanna
hahaha
then after that had science, practical
quite fun lah
but russell keep like wanting to sit in my seat ( nxt to ollie)
then in the end he squeeze me half off. then i was like
: SHIT YOU!

then russell went away then yirong sat there
we were discussing like about sleepovers

OH MAN SleEPOVERS ARE SOO FUN
:D
and haha
benny was trying to 'scare' me with his face...
which was.....
more comical than scary
haha
then had PE
wah
mr sim made us run 7 rounds of the hall
then do warmup
then do like 20 crunches
then go and do training

he make us jump over cones,
which gets further and further away
2 TIMES
then
after that skip
must do 40+
but in the end we all tried to do like. double dutch ( which wasn't very successful lol)
and blahblah
then
had the standing broad jump test
lol
guys went first then they went off tO play floorball
but wuttichye ( boss) was sitting there to make sure the mat didn't move
but i begged him to go and play floorballthen i would take his place
lol
save myself the embarrassment when it was my turn lOl. ( puhlease, he jumped 203-.-)

then after that i jumped
SO HAPPY LAH!
i jmp 150 cm LEH!
and i just figured that actually it ain't that bad

haha
then after that
sat down for 'debrief'
then
mr sim : ARIEL what did you learn today
ariel : UHm. uhm.
benny : standing broad jump luh ( which sounded like standing blow job HAHA)
shumin : HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH!!! STANDING BLOW JOB!!
mr sim : hey , benny u know what is a blow job anot?!
-hey mr sim, all of us know- lol
then the guys 'protected' him ( brotherhood lah.) and were like
' HIS PRONUNCIATION SUCKS DE. benny! say yellow'
hhaha
then benny was like
' yellow ' -but it sounded like lellow-
HAHA SUPER DOOPS CUTE LAH.

then after taht had lunch.
but didn't really eat.
so walked up with shumin yirong and gerald
haha
then we walked into class and yirong played the song ' surfing america' - ithink-
lol
then
we were like ' dancing' to the music
like those '80s move
quite groovy
ahhaha
then the starting we were like
' WAVE!!!'

SUPER FUN!
then like soon it increased
like benny came in, kavern too
( btw, benny and kavern KNOW HOW TO WORK IT .. esp kavern haha)
then alot of people join
THE FUNNEST TIME OF MY LIFE

then had preparation for international friendship day ( international school lah. need to do something lol ) whichwas... good in progress but chaotic. LOL
like.. chairs were everywhere, FBTs were lost. paper was flying everywhere and people ( like me, yirong and kavern haha) were dancing
haha
then yirong played MANY SONGS
like
dancing queen, this is why i'm hot, summer love, maneater etc.
ahhaha
SUPER FUN<33333
then had guitar<3
learnt a new song + 2 new chords today ( G7 and Eminor)
woah.
then walked down to tennis courts to wait for gerald jenna pearlsi and yijing
very relaxing
talked with deyro gerald and jenna
haha
then walked out
jenna pangseh-ed gerald and I 'cos she had to go home 'cos her bro was waiting outisde the door for her -.-
haa
then went home lohs
nothing much to say liao
I JUST LOVE TODAY<33

2008-07-08T05:25:00.000-07:00

i'm getting EMO-ER.
i MUST stop it.
what is my problem> i SUCK at EVERYTHING.
like seriously, when i was taking the bus today, there were lots of seats available but i just emoed 'cos i was like emo-ing. i SUCK at singing, i SUCK at PIANO, i SUCK at EVERYTHING. the html just delted a whole bunch of emo stuff, so luck you.

i'm A SUCKER FOR LIFE. ARGH.
seriously.
i wish.. i was more talented, that i was unique, that i was smarter, prettier, and everything SOMEBODY is.
all i do nowadays is just listen to nice songs, and emo.

had this report from some kind of course :
"Elisabeth, as an Advisor, impresses most people with her warmth, sympathy and understanding. ( crap, right?) She possesses a casual kind of poise in most social situations, and is not often uncomfortable with people. in fact, many people will come to her because she is seen as a good listener ( ME? are you serious?) Elisabeth tends to be very demonstrative ( haha.) and her emotions are usually clear to those around her ( really?). she will not typically attempt to force her ideas on others; in fact, she may be too indirect in expressing feelings or issuing orders. (HAHA. i AGREE) However, if she feels strongly about something, Elisabeth will speak openly and directly about her convictions. Elisabeth tends to take criticism of her work as a personal affront ( yeah, SO true) she can be overly tolerant patient with those who are non-producers in the workplace ( really? ) elisabeth is a true peacekeeper ( HAHA! JOKE) and will work to maintain peace in every cirumstance"

okay that is just the first paragraph
haha

2008-07-05T21:28:00.000-07:00

sheesh.
i'm so freaking tired
its a good thing youth's day a holiday
><
i'm going out to enjoy (:
and after that got FRENCH-.-
as i said, i l;ike the teacher and the language
BUT i dont like my classmates-.-

THURS
my guitar head broke.><
iduno how it happened
on sat, i went to get a new one. then they say that the one that broke the pressure on teh string too much le.
i also agree.
i sometimes very scared the string piang.
but in the end its the head that piang
LOL!
had PE
><
sucks man.
i needa work on my armpower
and u know waht?
like A QUATER/ HALF OF THE GUYS CAN DO AT LEAST 5 PULL UPS
-stand one hor, not inclined-
HOW COOL IS THAT!?

FRI:
nothin much.
after lessons - eng got to write mag review ... what the heck is that anyway?! -
then went to do abit of homework at cafe.
then went tO the field
talk tlak abit
then
had to go
><
'cos of piano lesson
we left at 3.45
then joanna shumin and I wait for like
15 min ++ for 171
like waddaheck lahs.
-.-
><
then they pangseh me halfway
dunt blame them lah
haha
and i reached the place on the dot 5 o clock
lOl
the teacher spent like..
50 min on theory and 10 min on practical
how SUCKY is that?
theory important, but i wan do practical :(

i'm so tired
my back aches
i'm starting to emo
i REALLY want to be overseas, in princeton, studying... NOW.
shumin, joanna, ollie and I alr had this sorta thing that we 4 will go to princeton.
(: i really hope that it'll come true.

and i'm emo-ing 'cos of ALOT of things
i'm dreamin so much lah
and haha just now, when i was sleepin i was dreaming of kungfu panda
the ' FURIOS Five'
mixed with world war II my edition
-.
haha

and i've been listenin to nice songs and meaningful songs
-hymns,
- cassie - is it you
- coming for you - jojo
><
any songs to recommned?

2008-06-30T04:58:00.001-07:00

i feel so drained
i feel so scared
i feel so tensed
its all mixed.
and it ain't nice feelin to feel.
):
today we had chinese 1st period.these days
i've really become like SUPER SUPER OOBBER TOOPER self conscious.
its like
even on the mrt
i'll be thinkin about like..
' what is that guy/girl thinkin bout me'
haiz
i think i got some kind of pyshy thingy
like anorexia
which reminds me
today some hci guy came to talk bout anorexia
and he asked a few questions like

- what is beauty to you?
- what percentage of teenage girls in sg have anorexia?
- is there such thing as perfect? why or why not?
sth liddats.
and there was one quote that said

" appearance is what captures the eye,
Personality is what catches the heart."
SO NICE RIGHTS.
=D
then after the talk we had art
--.
i really want to change group
kavern doens't seem keen on our group
so i shan't care bout him.
weikai.
PUHLEASE.-.-
ariel
well she's the only one who will help
hyunik
okay seriously? i dont even KNOW this guy

then aft that had english
he taught us the format for a movie review
wed gonna do
-.-
sians
then had lunch
then rushed up to com lab
then did the profile thing
for some kind of lifeskill thing
seriously,
i dont even think i was answering correctly

i was answering from my alter ego's point of view
then aft that went to french
!!
I FEEEL SO LEFT OUT!!!
GEEEZ!!
like
PUHLEASE.
they're like p5,p4
!!!
no fair
they count liddat
: if ur birthday come yet, then u are in the other class
'cos
teen : 10-12
youth: 13-15
i'm 13 this year but my bdae havn't come yet
so i'm not counted
!!
what the!
so left out lah
then i think some of them thought i was younger than them
so they take control of me
-.-
i just didn't want to rub off as arrogant
so i didn't say anyth
besides.
its btter to leave a good impression on them
then went kovan buy things from popular
then come back home
super tired

2008-06-27T05:46:00.000-07:00

i NEED luck.
i've been getting TONS Of sco,lding from teachers; mr john (dm), mr dinesh ( sci teach), mr kan ( eng teach)
WHAT DID I DO?!
EVERYBODY ELSE WAS TALKING IN CLASS. WHY JUST PICK ON ME?!JUST 'COS I'M RIGHT INFRONT OF YA
ITS THE SAME WITH MRS WONG! EVERYTHING ALSO PICK ON ME. EVERYTHING ALSO LOOK AT ME.
I VERY NICE TO LOOK AT ISIT.
IT SUCKS. SUCKS I TELL YOU. I SAW YOUR FACE. I SAW YOU LOOK AT OTHERS WHEN THEY WERE TALKING LIKE.. YOU DONT CARE. THEN WHEN I WHISPER. YOU SCOLD ME. WHAT THE HECK DID I DO WRONG?! YOU REFER TO ME AS ' the girl in blue' WHAT THE?! ?! DUNO MY NAME CAN ASK ME RIGHT.
POINTING TO ME WITH YOUR INDEX FINGER IS RUDE ENOUGH.
TALK ABOUT NO RESPECT.

AND MR D.
WHAT DID I DO!? I JUST ASKED KAVERN . WAIT. I DIDN'T EVEN ASK HIM. I JUST MOUTHED THE WORDS.
and PLEASE! YESTERDAY DURING THE SCI LESSON I WAS COPYING DOWN NOTES AND ACTUALLY LISTENING. THE REST OF THE CLASS WAS SUPER NOISY. THEN WHY TODAY YOU SCOLD ME?! JUST 'COS I'M IN THE CCA YOU'RE INCHARGE OF?! BIASEDNESS! WHY DOES EVERYBODY KEEP SCOLDING ME?! I USED TO LIKE SCHOOL NOW I JUST DETEST IT.
I'M THINKING OF ABANDONING MY DREAMS OF GOING TO A GOOD UNI. AND BE LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE. JUST LIVING LIFE.
ARGH!!?1

today was russell's bdae party. super fun
and i tell you. russell's house is like.. SUPER BIG. okay. like my house + garden is only 1/4
PUHLEASE HE HAS A GYM and HOME theatre + SWIMMING POOL in his house
super big lah
then haha. then at first went to ollie's house. ollie's house is so nice.
+ the piano very nice.
and very loud too
ollie super cute larh.
ahha we ate sandwich.(sp?)
then we found out that we were the last to arrive HAHA paiseh :D
then we went in and went into the home theatre
then played abit of the.. guitar hero or sth
hehe i was so scared.
>< but very addictive and very nice.
lol.
can see why they like it so much.
i played 2 times
won 1 lost 1
:D
then watch ' the mist' but i watched halfway then i was so freakd out that i left
then i explored russell's house
so cool lah!
he has a library, grandpiano, bar.. inside his house
:D
cool much.
haha
then went back and found they were watchin ' meet the spartans' super funn-eh HAHAH.
but i watch before lah.
then i go off le.
(: super fun. i wish i had house lidat.
haha.
no i wishi can stay in a house liddat. like sleepovers and stuff
- if only russell was a girl HAHA-

2008-06-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

23/6/08

first day of school blahblahblah.

today 4 new peeps joined us.
3 guys 1 girl
one of the guys is from thailand - nickname: boss
another from indonesia - michael
another from korea - hyung ik.
LOL.
and one more girl from china
LOL
so we had ' music' of the classroom

lOl. 'cos the new music teacher ain't comin till tmr. so stayed in class then did elections ( again) for the class committee. then had RECESS.
then had assembly
WAH ASSEMBLY SUPER SIAN LAH.
like.. mr james talk talk talk funneh
then mr yeong talk talk still okay
then mr john.. talk tlaktlaktlak
first part still okay.
then he started to explain about the rules and regulations
sommore he so tall
then in the lt i front row
then he stand right infront of him
then my neck pain
-eye pain too ;X- haha
then had ' V&L'
then had math
i'm being demoralized again
:( like.. all my hard work hasn't paid off over the holidays
lol.
but i still managed to understand 99% of the questions.
then had chinese
quite funn-eh lah
then ---END OF SCHOOL-

went to cineleisure with shumin and joanna.
HAHA on the way there - on the bus - super funn-eh lah.
like shumin keep blabbing
LOL.
then we're all like -.- shuminnn... HAHA.
then when we were gettin down
shumn lost her balance and ' fell' but she grabbed _____'s teeshirt. HAHA
THEN I WAS LAUGHING THE WHOLE WAY
i mean.. you see his face lah
AND. shumin's face too
thenwent to eat at cineleisure.
then walk walk until the neoprint shop
then took NEOPRINTS<3
the FIRST time that i actually looked .uh.. okay in neoprints
maybe its my hair?? =X
duno.
its more manageable lah.
haha.
'cos duneed to comb also can. ><
just kidding i DO comb my hair
LOL
then came back home loh
quite tired actually.
first day of school and SO much pressure-.-
tmr got Mass Ex. IN THE MORNIN-.-

2008-06-14T08:20:00.001-07:00

-slips into emo zone-
talk about a bruised ego.
today i went out as a happy and contented person. it changed though.
i find myself worse.
i find myself fatter.
i find myself uglier
i find myself emo-er
i find myself slouching.
i find myself stressed.
i find myself obsessing.
i find myself dreaming.
.......
no work done.
---
i'm behind by 2 chapters of science, i'm wasting my time watching movies and listenin to music.
i'm slipping away from God and from my family.
and i find all my siblings getting closer to god and my family.
i just dont believe that i'm even alive.
i dont believe that i'm here.
and worse still, i dont want to believe that i'm alive.

what i really need now is lots of love, and hopefully a perfect man.
i wish that i can grow up. to go to oxford and fufill my dreams. ...now.

2008-06-10T06:52:00.000-07:00

heya'll bored.
\=
nobody talkin to me on msn.
so anw went out with ky and nad ytd.
supposedly to study and shop
-.-
i think the ratio of study to shop is
= 1 : 3

-.-anw.they weren't that focused. i can't blame them. its been sooo long since we saw each other.
alot of catching up. (: so i we met at bishan library at 10+
and ky was very hungry so she bought some food.
she claimed it was very hot
i said ' BLOW LAH!'
ky : HOT HOT HOTHOT!!
haha. i have a photo but i never upload yet.
then we went into the library and studied
well mostly i studied
'cos ky rushed so much that mornin she brought her pencilcase and everythin except the homework-.- how very smart. lol.
and nad was abit unfocused. 'cos she kept looking up from her work
><
but she so pretty. i dont mind looking at her(:
so when i finished some of my own work
then we went to eat lunch
then walked around and shopp abit.
-.- i thot ky would bring moremoney
then she blamed it on the expensive food court at bishan
abit true lah
but i mean. KY!!! aiyo! so note to people : don't eat foodcourt at bishan. the ambience is nice. but ex.
--
then shop shop then go home
then ky came my house
. she was suppose to do essay and i was supposed to do my math.
but halfway we started talking.talk talk talk
then got focused. abit. then 'finished' work.
or at least. HER essay
:D i helped!
oh yeah
on the way home we took this pic
we took others too. but i look not too nice so i don't post it. :D
and nad's blog is on hiatus and ky's blog is deleted ( i still dont get why) so hah! mine's the only blog u can get photos. :D

i might be going out on thursday. kinda lookin forward to it. 'cos i'm goin out with my mom and sis.we considered. : SHOPPING. but we kinda shop ALOT.

so we decided : EAST COAST PARk :D

when my mom suggested . my mind started to form a plan.... but she says its not practical.

reach east coast park. cycle&run.lunch. bowl. take bus. go to somewhere.shop. call daddy. get a lift home :D hahahahha. but kinda mean lah. like i keep asking daddy to pick meup. but i really wanna shop( i need clothes.) and i also want to relax.i mean. its healthy right? runnin, cyclin, bowlin(not really) but anw.

anw bored :>

:D toodles

2008-06-08T03:48:00.000-07:00

i've been drained
><
i have NO idea why
my life just seems so meaningless these days
its just the same routine
i can't go out with friends
so i stay at home.
i wake up
brush teeth bathe eat breakfast
on com listen to songs work abit
read story book if have
sleep
-end of day-

haiz
i was emo yesterday
for no particular reason.
kinda stupid
haiz.
then today
tried to sing mybest for the fathers' day performance practice
had like no energy until had lesson
then teacher gave us some words of encouragement or sth liddat.

then managed to gather some energy
and go and sing
then
after church
practice for john laoshi's wedding

quite tired
i realised that my voice sucks.
i can't reach high notes anymore.
i used to.
i cld reach high G
that was when i was still having lessons
i think that my voice will be better soon

uh-oh.
ithink i'm getting the same feeling again.
my brain must be malfunctioning.
it keeps replaying those scenes.
it can't be.
no, it just can't.

2008-06-07T00:06:00.000-07:00

HELLO!

happy early fathers' day daddy!
=D
we went out ytd to celebrate fathers' day 'cos today and tmr no time.
then we went to this place called.. River View? SUPER NICE ( buffet) ahaha.
but quite ex.
but i'm still counted as child!
;D
'cos up to 12 marh
then my bdae havnt come =D
i ate ALOT of brocolli<3
and there was sushi
but i ate a bit
and the cake is like super nice lar
the chocolate mousse. or sth liddat.
ahhahah.a
but fattening =X
haiz.
so i didn't eat after a while
wah super nice loh.
and the ambience also very nice
my sis wore this small.. coatie thing?
then she wore another shirt thing from this fashion
white and white
not bad lah.
+ jeansand high heels

i wore a billabong teeshirt ( the nice one ) and jeans.
and ... nice sandals?
but haiyo
'im so... blur.
'cos the day before that when i went to dvbs i wore those sandals and they were almost fallin apart
so very irritating.
but i forgotthen i wore it again
ahhaa
super paiseh
=D

today went out with jenna go library
thenwent to library and search for chinese book
then i look for eng book
then i found out that i had $$$ for fine
so i was like
!!
then i couldnt borrow
buttten jenna let me borrow on her card
thanks jenna! <3
then we wnet to kfc then we bought something then did our work
><
but ssudednly it was 2 10
then s he had to go 'cos she had to be home by 2.30++

pretty fun
even though i may seem like i have no life
go out study
come home sleep
go out study come homesleep
hhah.

2008-06-04T03:01:00.000-07:00

Quiz 28

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
just like you - hannah montana
[ i think just like you?]

2. How would you describe yourself?
We live in singapura
[i live in singapure (:]

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
cry - mandy moore
[somebody who cries alot?]

4. How do you feel today?
umbrella -rihanna
[ i feel very umbrella-ish]

5. What is your life's purpose?
we're in heaven
[ to.. uhh.. be in heaven?]

6. What is your motto?
what are dreams made of - hilary duff
[ what it says up there hahaha.]

7. What do your friends think of you?
push the button -sugarbabes
[i like to push the button(limit) XD]

8. What do you think of your parents?
maneater
[ i'm not going to say that my parents are maneaters. no.]

9. What do you think about very often?
i lay my love on you - westlife
[why i lay my love on him/her haha]

10. What is 2 + 2?
catch your wave - click five
[2+2 = catch your wave!]

11. What do you think of your best friend?
come on - ben jelen
[she likes to... come on?]

12. What do you think of the person you like?
we will get there - stephanie sun
[ we will get to that :P]

13. What is your life story?
lullaby for a stormy night - vienna teng
[ yea its about .. my life story? how its very 'stormy' yeah]

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
i will be - avril lavigne
[hmm. i will be....]

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
accidently in love - counting crows
[ i accidently fell in love :X ]

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
perfectly
[ pssfft! i won't play that at my weeding -.-]

17. What will they play at your funeral?
still there for me - corbin bleu and vannessa hudgens
[ yeah 'cos i'm there for a lot of people -.- hahah. kidding.]

18. What is your hobby/interest?
reach - s club 7
[ reaching for the stars?]

19. What is your biggest fear?
fly - hilary duff
[flying. whether on the airplane or not. i get air sick :X heh]

20. What is your biggest secret?
jenny- click five
[ my name isnt jenny. psst. don't tell anybody]

21. What do you think of your friends?
i want it that way - backstreet boys
[ they always want it their way :( haha kidding]

22. What will you post this as?
when you're gone - avril lavigne
[ i am not going to!]

haha
lame but cool quiz
:X i cheated for some questions
heh.

2008-05-30T07:00:00.000-07:00

QUIZZES!

Tagged by VICKI! to do this quizz.
#1 If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
i'll slap him, kick him, scold him and then go home and cry.

#2 If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
...peace?unbiasedness?

#3 What would your dream wedding be like?
a kinda big one?

#4 What would you do with a billion dollars?
get a home and put the rest in my bank.

#5 What's your ideal lover like?
smart, athletic, nice, handsome (kinda) tall, unbiased, christian, responsible, .....
do you really want me to continue?

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved.
gee, i can't decide.. i'll go for both. how's that sound?

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
yeah if i'm really in LOVE.

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
wait?

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yes.

#10 What's the worst you have felt these days?
depressed? lol.

#11 What cheers you up the fastest?
God. friends. family. music.

#12 How do you see yourself in 10years time?
taller?

#13 Who is currently the most important people to you?
GOD<3333( is he a person?)my family <3 and friends <3

#14 What kind of per0son do you think the person who tagged you is?
VICKI(: weird -ahem- i mean unique. funny, ober chio, longhaired? smart, genius-ey, nice, tall, skinny-ahem-slim. :D and its true!

#15 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
i duno. poor as in how poor?

#16 What is the 1st thing you do every morning?
breathe. duh.

#17 Would you give it your all in a relationship?
yeah. 'cos it should be worthit.

#18 If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
psfft! i won't fall in love with 2 people simultaneously. i would just fall in love with 1. i dont like to two-time people.

#19 What type of friends do you like?
pri friends, family friends, high school friends, tution friends, boy friends, girlfriends, girl friends, any kinda friend :D

The 8 people to be tagged are:

.. i duno. anybody wanna be tagged?

QUIZ RIPPED FROM VICKI! 's blog.

SOO. i went out with vicki to study today
><
got dressd and ready at 8.30
then i waited and waited till 9
then i walked to the back and got sweets and took 53 to the interchange.
then later waited for vicki.
then went to library
and talked a while 'cos the library havnt open
-boohoo-
then library opened and everybody rushed in
we didn't wanna fight with them for seats so we went down to the childrens' section
and went up
and went down
and finally sat at the childrens' section.
then i did my english
and a little bit of math.
then the librarian - i duno whats her problem, all the other librarians din't care- told us to leave.
then we left
and we went to 4th level and sat in the ... green box thingy
then we did work
and got a little distracted at times
haha.
but still finished what we wanted to accomplish
i think.ahaha.then we left our cozy corner >< and went to eat lunch at macs.
>,< unhealthy, but fast
we wanted to eat at kfc
but i duno why.
then later went back to ibrary
and found people sitting at our cozy corner
so just found another spot
and did work.
and vicki
'finished' her work
and started to get distracted by the computer
blogging,
visitng blogs, solitaire, blahblah >< haha.

and then time was up
then we went off.
it was fun.
and surprisingly, i managed to accomplish work.
:)

SO, ANYBODY UP FOR A STUDY DATE?
p.s. LEARNING FRENCH! WOOHOO!

2008-05-25T05:55:00.001-07:00

okay
last day of school kinda sucked.
i mean like.
the last day of school.
before a month long holiday.
>,< sucky.'cos its like
1. we were supposed to party till lights out
nah didn't happen.
shumin joanna olivia and I just sat in class and talked.
we coudlve gone to vivo with the guys
but shumin and jo had math
can't blame them

2. it was yihui's last day
:(
i'm gonna miss ya yihui.
you're sweet, adorable, smart, nice
<3
but why didn't you want to accep that gift?
we spent effort on that
we wanted to keep it a secret to as to surprise you
not to 'not tell you'
haiz.

3.boring day

BLEAH.
BORING MUCH.
i pretty much wanted to cry there and then.
i duno why
but yeah
haiz

i'm pretty much torn into pieces.
i suck at my studies.
tlak about 3rd in class
><
but its such a big dif between the 1st
aerisa - 86%
me- 81%
SUCKY MUCH.

and gee.
i'm just talking so much crap
i keep dreaming
but no action.
whats the point
ARGH
i just hate myself

2008-05-17T19:29:00.001-07:00

E-moment.
:'(
i think that i've kinda lost contact with my pri school friends.
i stil ahve their contacts.
but its like
i dont talk to them anymore.
we hav nth to talk about
we don't organise outings anymore.
we used to say
' FRIENDS FOREVER'
we even had a clas blog.
www.5a-family.blogspot.com
what happened.
or maybe.
they're all in contact
except me.
'cos i'm in a differnt kinda school
and i was never in their ' group'
sometimes.
i really feel 'included'
by my hcis friends.
but in xinghua.
never really feLt that.
i mean...
now in hcis, i'm surrounded with people that are MORE like me.
and in xinghua, it was kinda differnt.
i dont know.
i just hope
that
at the end of the year.
there'll be a party
and we all go back to xinghua.
and we all celebrate there
and catch up on our lives.

but again...
that's just a wish.

2008-05-17T05:00:00.001-07:00

HEYALL
16 & 17 may 2008
the BEST days of my life so far
B-E-S-T
HAHA
even thoug hsometimes i have doubts about 1E08
i really love them.
sometimes even more that 6a07 ( as a whole)

okay
16 may08

1Ex POTLUCK PARTY 08
:D
we were HISTORY
H-I-S-T-O-R-Y
no other class had ever had a party in school
as a class.
:D
YEH MANN.
psst.
i heard that the seniors were jealous
...
haha
so school ended
and yirong yihui olivia and I rushed to bukit timah plaza's ntuc
to buy drinks.
HAHA
yihui sorta pangseh-ed us
'cos she ran ahead to try to find her mom ( which was away at that moment)
and ollie and I did our first jaywalks across 4 lanes
:x
haha.
actulally
jayruns
LOL.
then we bought 15 bottles of drinks
( i wanted 20. but we all thought tht was too much....)
then bought some other stuffs.
like gummies
and we took a taxi back to school.
then at school we had dario help us unload.
then we were in class
blowing balloons
(not me, duh.. i can't blow balloon ...:( )
then ollie had a baby!
she filled a pink balloon with water
and drew a face
and called it nike
:D
haha
super cute
and then we were fooling round the class ( only the few of us.. the rest were at home) and playing ' dodgeball'
i managed to duck and catch a few.
but you know how my hand-eye coordination sucks.
so haiya
you shld know what happened.
i got hit
-.-
STUPID dario and yirong and wenjie
only ollie and yihui are NICE PEOPLE
BLEH.
haha
then later we went to yirong's house
(ollie and I + dario + wenjie)
then we met ryan
and we went to yirong's house
and yihui stayed behind.
then we waited to yirong and dario to change/ bathe
HIS ROOM SUPER NICE.
-HIS HOUSE TOO-
HAHA.
then
we went back
nash's mom fetched us
his mom is relly nice
then ollie and I ran to help yihui to put up the balloons
but joanna and shumin were alr there
so we just hanged around abit
then things were abit chaotic
but 1EX people
are really calm
they're streetsmart
(everybody except me)
:X
and t hey can have fun even though we are facing hard situations
:D
<33
and then mr john was like
5.30 sharp!
:D
haha
then we started to put up stuff
and people started to arrive
but we're kinda a small class
from 30
to 28
:(

then party started
and benny started to do his job
( as a dj)
and we started drinking
and i figured that maybe 15 bottles weren't enough.
:X
anyway
the food was WAY too much
:X
lOL
even though we were like
' people just bring enough food for like 10-12 people
>><
people didn't relly eat that much
then a few teachers came
and when all of us kids finished eating
but just hanging around
i started to play truth or dare with a few of my freinds
then slowly the whole class wanted to join
HAHA :D
then we moved to a bigger place
then we sat ina big circle
and i think mr yeong (principal)was pleased :D
then benny was the spinner
haha
but it wasn't really a proper game
'cos like.
when we ask sb to do a dare
the person chickens out
:(
or like truth
then the person lie
LOL.
even when its super obvious
LOL
hahaha
sorry shumin
:X
then mr yeong left
and after a while
we moved to the mph to play dodgeball
then aft playing a few rounds
i went up
with gerald and shaokai
(totake adrink)
and to only find ollie in pain
-cramm
then she squeezed my hand while they massaged her leg.
apparenlty it was super pain.
then yirong and dario and almost the whole class arrived
then yirong and dario pushed her foot and blahblah-.-
then later she was better
and we played hide and seek in the dark
><
the guys took the chance to go to the girls' toilet
since it was like.. nobody pee-ing inside
=.-
and they were like
' !! THE GIRLS TOILET IS LIKE 100 X BETTER THAN OUR BOYS TOILET'
and i was like...
'GUYS GET OUTTA HERE'
LLOLL.
haha
then later we all went into the mph
which was SUPER cold
and then we sat in a circle
and were like
OKAY EVERYBODY TORCHLIGHTSIN THE MIDDLE
-lights were off-
then we were like
CAMPFIRE!!!
-with torchlights-
haha
then we had a few attempts at singing
><
didn't really work out
haha
then later the guys started to tell ghost stories
i was really freaked out
not at the start
but after they started to come up with the real creepy stuff

really wished that my pillow was there
so i cuold hug it
:(
then later we went back to clas.s
and ms kong had icecream there.
then i begged gerald to follow me to lvl 5
totake my icebox
yeh he's not scared of ghost
><
LOL.
my brave son:D
then he help me bring odwn
+ all the ice
haha
my strong son
actually all my son are strong
...
no not all
not kavenr :D
haha
but kavern streetsmart
:D
then later we had a mini party in the classroom
like just sittn round talking
and then when gerald wanted to go off
but not really
he helped me to get rid of the ice in the icebox
BUT
he went into the GIRLS' TOILET!
-.-
but nvm larh
nobody was inside.

we split all the ice into three sinks
haha
then let it melt and go into the drain
><
then later i went back
and packed my stuff.
then went out to wait for my mom and dad
:D

-------------DAy 2------------------------

KAVERN NASH YIRONG'S COMBINED BIRTHDAY PARTY
haha
it was nice...
once i reached there
they wanted to swim
so okay
i satat the side of the pool
then yirong pulled me in
so i was alr wet
so..
no point going up to dry
might as well swim
LOL.
but luckily i brouht extra pair of clothes
then we swam
SUPER FUNN!
SUPER FUN!!
esp kavn and gerald
whenthey were fighting for the floatbed
LOL.
and kavern tried to get on
but he only fell off the other side
HAHA.
then gerald jumped on
and he was like
' LOSER'
then we all got up
and changed
then we played FUN GAMEs
and kavern tried to
' read our future'
haha.so he read yirong's future
-by taking cards out-
and said
-take out Q card-
in the future you'll be a queen
-a hearts card-
of hearts
-takes out a A card with pictures of wings-
WITH WINGS
-takes out a heart card-
with heart shaped patterns
HAHA
and he came up with it on the SPOT
:D
quickthinker
and we all laughed like there was no tomrrow
then my dad and mom came
:(
so
haiz
but i <3 them
:D

anyway
i post too much alr
TOODLES

2008-05-13T04:37:00.000-07:00

YOU IDIOT
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW I FELT.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I WANTED TO HELP.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH AN IDIOT YOU ARE.

1. i copy down EVERYTHING ya'll said in class.
frmo the difernt committees to all the games.
the class was so noisy i had to strain to hear all the suggesstions of the games.
and when i hear some of them juts talking i just take down games.
!
i copy down the jobs.
i copy down who bring what. but u abandon that idea. nvm i dont mind.
its my paper.
and since i'm the SECRETARY i should do all teh writing down RIGHT?
and why not since i'm the secretary. i should help?
and after i copy everything.
you say that you ahve no use for it.
YOU KNOW MUCH OF AN IDIOT I FELT THEN?!
I WASTED MY PAPER
I WASTED MY TIME
I COULD HAVE SIMPLY JUST SATBACK AND TALKED WITH THE REST

BUT I DIDNT.
I WAS SCRIBBLING DOWN THINGS THAT YOU SAID.
AND YOU DONT HAVE THE SLIGHTEST BIT OF APPRECIATION FOR THIS?!

2.
you ego-istic FREAK!
not everything is in your hands.
SO WHAT IF YOU WERE ENTITLED THE POWER TO CALL THE WHOLE CLASS DINNER OFF?!

I'VE ORGANIZED A CLASS PARTY BEFORE.
IT WASN'T PERFECT. BUT AT LEAST I ( AND THE COMMITTEE) DID WHAT WAS NEEDED.
AND I THOUGHT THAT YA'LL WOULD BE BETTER.
SEEING YA'LL HAVING THE BETTER RESOURCES AND EVERYTHING.
I WAS WRONG.
I'M ALWAYS WRONG.
YOU KEEP THINKING YOU ARE THE BEST!

GET OUT OF THAT STUPID WORLD YOU ARE LIVING IN.
THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS THE BEST.
I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE A GOOD FAMILY.
BUT SO WHAT? THAT DOENS'T MAKE YOU GOOD.
YOU HAVE THE POTENTIAL TO DO SO MUCH BETTER.
BUT YOU JUST WONT PUT IN THE EFFORT
AND EVEN THOUGH I TRY TO HELP YOU
EVEN THOUGH I'M TIRED, I'M SICK, I'M HAVING A HEADACHE AND I STILL STAY ONLINE JUST TO HELP YOU REVISE.

OTHER PEOPLE ASKED ME TO HELP THEM BUT I SAID ' NO' 'COS I WAS HELPING YOU.
YOU KEEP THINKING THAT PEOPLE HAVE TO BE THERE FOR YOU BUT YOU ARE NOT THERE FOR OTHERS.
AND THER'ES NO POINT IN PUTTING OTHERS DOWN JUST TO MAKE URSELF BETTER.
YOU PISS ME OFF WITH YOUR ATTITUDE.

SERIOUSLY.

I TRIED TO PUT up with you.
but if you just wont put in the effort and humble urself..
i think you're just going to suffer.

you can make a fool of me. i dont mind.
i didnt say i was the best.
i didnt IMPLY that i was the best.
so it dont hurt so much.
i've been through more criticism than you.
u can keep calling me those.
but you knwo what?
i'll just keep ignoring you until u get the hang of me ignoring you

you may think that i'm very reliable 'cos i keep all your secrets.
but you know what?
EVERY
SINGLE.
TIME.
I TRY.
TO.
TALK.
YOU.
KEEP.
INTERRUPTING.
ME.

EVERY SINGLE TIME I TRY TO GIVE YOU ADVICE>
you NEVER listen.
THEN WHAT'S THE POINT OF TELLING ME?!
when you're sad and stuff.
i just listen
even though i have problems of my own.
BIG PROBLEMS.
you just dont seem to care.
you even MAKE FUN OF ME.

and you still call me your mom....

you're DISGUSTING in my sight.
you weren't last time.
but you are NOW.

2008-05-09T17:56:00.000-07:00

heyo WASSUP. haha anyway yesterday i was HIGH.

oKAY.
1st.
MATH TEST
i FLUNKED>
duh
like
my last two questions probably wrong larh
unless they have working marks
then maybe can save like 1 - 2 marks.
then PE.
HAHA
mr sim had a meeting so ms siew took over us
then later we were supposed to run 3 rounds. those who run below 7 min will get treat by miss siew.
but i was runin halfway then like dario waslike ' MAMA!!!! WAIT FO RME!!!'
so i stupidly waited
and then i saw kavern behind
and dario was like
eh wait for didi!
so i was like jogging on the spot
then kavern was STILL walking
!!!
then i gave up waiting
so i jogged off first.
then dario was like
' AIYO!
then he ran bckand grab kavern
and run
haha
then bth of them were at my side
awww.
:D
in the end after waiting alot of times
then we were almost the last people to reach there
but WHO CARES>
:D

then later RECESS.
bleah
then
HISTORY
HISTORY
HISTORY
when i was walking past 1i i saw ms kong flash the answers there for them to do corrections
i faintly rememberd some of my answers so i dont rmb the points being the same.
or so i thought.
then i was like
i am SO busted.
SOOOO
i tel l you
><
then ms kong had sth todo for about 15 min so she kept us worrying for 15 min
15 min!!!
then later she came back
and aerisa and i were holding hands like. BREATHING
like
HEE hooo HEEE Hooo HEEE hooo HEEE hooo
---------
then later ms kong was like
the highest in the class goes to!!!

and stupid poeple benny and kavenr :(
went to say ' ELISABETH' but u know if i didnt get itt like very paiseh.
then ms kong walk to aerisa there and i thot it was dario, kavern, yijing, yee ahn, aerisa.
anybody but ME.
but she put the paper on my table
and my instant reaction was like
' !!!! MSKONG YOU SURE U MARK CORREcT?'
then the whole class clapping :D and benny and kavern i cld hear them
yay
haha
anyway
i improved by only little bit
:D
at least i beat 1i!(kenneth. 95%)

then aerisa was very sad even though she got 70+
and its like an A1!
then she started to cry
so i brought her to the toilet
then she told me everythin
like
she was verydisppointed with herself 'cos like her sis alwys get good marks
and stuff liddat.and jw nv study as hard as her and took her notes and only gave her abck at 12. thenshe get higher than aerisa.
so aerisa thought it was super unfair
(which it is.. but... )
so she washed her fce and we walked back to class.
then she was still crying abit then we saw mr john and mr james there
then like mr john was like ' aerisa are you alright? ' ( english accent) then he looked at me 'cos obviously she didnt want to answer.
( she's crying!)
so i was like '''' erhm. she's upset by her marks'
then he was like.. aerisa.. you cant always be the top
and mr james said sometimes being 2nd is what makes you strive harder or STH liddat.
i think that aerisa put too much on herself le
:(
then mr james say sth that i really think is truely true
haha
he was like
' mr john tells me that you are a VERY good presnter. and your sister is not .. she is AFRAID of prsenting. '
and aerisa you're also good at sports but ur sister is not good in sports
u can't keep comparing urself to her
so aft that she cheered up
:)
then math time!
we watched family guy
HAHa.
very funn-eh
then aft that we had english
:(
i got 2nd in class for compre
32.5!
/ 40
CAN U BELIEVE IT
i missed the top by 1 mark agaIN!!!
:(
so pissed
anyway
then my compo
aiya dowan to say
;( very lan.
23/30
:(
then

AFTER SCHOOL LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111
went to cafe wit keller shumin joanna ziyi shaokai
SHAOKaI!!!!!!!!11
you almost made me FART!
X:
lol.
u like super funny
imitating all those voices and stuff.
i couldnt stop laughing
and in the end i laugh so much i no more apetite to eat le.;(
awaste my money
:(
haha
then went to the field to chit chat
but in the end we bullied shaokai
we threw his bag down the slope
but we helped him retrieve aft that larh
'cos after a few times he abit pissed
so we all immediately went to apologise and give him bcak his stuff.
then aft that we allsat down on the slope and talked.
and ziyi and keller lie on shaokai
apparenlty he very nice to lie on
then we gave him advice about some people
haha.
then we started to talk
he's seriously a nice guy
but abit gay sometimes. bcos he keep screming
lol.
but only in class
out of class he's okay.
(:
and the nicest guy i EVER. met.
probably the nicest girl tooo
considerint the situation he was put in.
haiz
then later we ahd to go
so keller joanna and i Went to cafe to geta drinkt
then keller treat s.kai to a drinkthen he very nice
'cos he wait for us
so faithfully
even though his bus just passed by him
and like he had to wait for us to sl0wly walk down
:9
thanks shaokai
and sorry joanna 'cos we pangseh u
wit the bags.
:(
then went home
aiyo
i feel like an idiot seh.
like the bus super crowded.
then i duno why
but usually i will feel very embarrassed
if i'm not with friends.
then later came home.
and then my SONS! came online
(:
haha
then talk abit
but i had a bit of headache so i went to sleep
so anyway
today i'm going to s.k's bdae party

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAOKAI!
you're FINALLY 13!!!

2008-05-08T04:13:00.001-07:00

today i promised to blog about my family( in hcis <3)>

1.DARIO( eldest, the DARING one)
you tall tan(sexy) and H-O-T
:X HAAHA. i know you really like this compliment wor HAHA.
anyway. jiayous for all ur studies PLEASE dont pangseh us for acsi THEY'RE NOT WORTHIT(: and i'm proudda you 'cos of all ur achievements(:

2.KAVERN( 2nd, the WEIRD&ENTERTAINING one)
haha you very good entertainer you!
i'll tell you what's the song he wrote.
Momalicious is just so delicious.
she will make you just so chuckylicious.
she will feed you oreolicious fill with kavernlicious!
(you missed ryan you fool!) haha.

3. RYAN( 3rd, the BLUR one)
aiyo! you so blur :>
you seem very cute these days
like very blur liddat.
after you said in the bus when gerald was figuring the rubricks cube and you were figuring how to eat. HAHa. anyways CONGRATS on ur chinese. SERIOUSLY very proud of you (:

4. GERALD ( my problem child, the SMART one)
haha please!
you are my ONLY HOPE. do NOT be corrupted. WALK AWAY from the temptation of listening HAHA. :> anyway DO ME PROUD. actually i alr very proud... looking at your results.

REMEMBER U 4!!!! MOTHER'S DAY IS COMIN :> (you realise theonly one i'm not proud of is KAVERN. but he's entertaining (: so kinda proud in that area.)
------------
MUMMY ( jenna)
u like very auntie
you should be my auntie, not mama. no offence there
haha
seriously.
u my mommy how cum u scaared of butterfly?
haha...
------------
GRANDMA ( yijing)
chu! chu! yijing yijing yijing
hahahaha
i really like it seh
you very nice
very gracious
not like mommy ( ahem) hahahaha.
:>

---------------
GREAT GRANDPA ( JOSIAH)
haha you hor.
so old alr still want to play so much
still like yr carry you?
AIYO TAKE CARE.
:( later you hurt urself i cry seh.

<3 my family!!!!! ( in hcis) was never included in xhps. so HCIS <33
:)
and i sorta like the idea that i'm ur mom. ( d, k, r, g)
haha.

2008-04-26T20:57:00.000-07:00

KY. i <33>

you rock my world.

( xhps friends you do too. but she's my best friend. be patient (: )

you cheer me up when nobody else can.
you cheer me up when everybody else breaks my day.
you are one of a kind best friend

you are so sensational

you are so cute

you are just so adorable

you make my day.

i know we fought alot back then. but its all over

and now ur imperfections just make you all the more perfect.

i wish that i could be you........ somehow.
somehow not

NADD VICKI MS YIN AND OTHER xhps FRIENDS ( including guys, you aint that bad:D)

you all rock my world.

you knwo how much i depend on you guys

esp when my NEW friends all insult me.

i knwo you wont.

You all know how much you mean to me.

<33

HCIS people

nah you dont rock that much.

but anyway,

abigail you rock. and yu're so cute ( :

AERISA you ROCK!

nashlie you're a nice guy

BENNY YOU ARE SOO CUTE (:

gerald.. you're a good problem child >____<

JOANNA you rock(:

julian... ~~i find you a bit irritating but who cares~~ nothin to say

YIJING YOU ARE A GOOD GRAND MOTHER (:

Shumin you rock

dario... i'm a proud mama XD

david..... noth to say >_<

ME : you suck :(

jungwon you're so quiet!!! BUT SO CUTE TOO

jenna....><>

exaggerating, scared, teacher's PET!

>=(

wenjie haha you are cute SOMETIMES

yirong you ~~flirt~~rock

olivia you pretty cute person! ( girl) HAHA

YIHUI YOU GORGEOUS CUTE PERSON!!!! HAHA

ariel you emo nice person HAHA.

emo-emotional. emotional = have feelings have feelings = good so emo = good (:

arwin you cute little mohawk guy!!! WHY ARE YOU SO CUTE?

weiming HAHA you als0 very cute leh

yeeann.. yee ann... MARIA :) you so cuteleh.

haha

KAVERN

you rockstar>=(

you make me laugh..hahaha (:

i'm a half-proud mama (of you)

weikai you IRRITATING FREAK but kinda cute sometimes

tommy.. rrrrrrr XDD

chingyueh. yao jiang duo ying wen

_______<

shaokai. GAY WOR

russell...... you... not-hot- guy

(:XD

yunpeng..THE BALDY XD

RYANNN

my 3rd son:D

you very sweet <3

okay i'm done with dedications for my clas.

1I. another time (:

2008-04-25T22:44:00.000-07:00

i'm tired of all this CRAP.
C-R-A-P
so what if i changed?
so i always have to be the supportive one. but the one that's not supported?!

WHAT KIND OF SELFISH FREAKS YOU ALL ARE.
HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL!?
I ALWAYS NEED TO BE THERE FOR YOU, I ALWAYS NEED TO DEFEND YOU. I ALWAYS NEED TO GIVE YOU ADVICE. I ALWAYS NEED TO SUPPORT YOU
AND WHAT DO YOU DO FOR ME !?

you just dump me aside when i'm talking
you make me feel so freaking stupid
you make me so embarrassed. YOU STUPID BUNCH OF STUCK UP SNOBS!

-----------------------------------------

just some quizess from vicki's blog
vicki copyrightEd
(:

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAMES STARTS WITH A 'S'
Shumin
Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS
Jenna's house lol.
Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?
"haha.. wait"
Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
Yep
Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
yep. VERY. i intend to use the straightener. but i'm scared that'll make me look bald ;X
Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
i have no idea.
Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
persons can? 6a 07 & my family lol.
Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY ALOT?
"huh?"
Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Maggie mee(lunch)
Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT
joanna(sis) erh. can i lie on ur bed?
Q.DOYOUWATCH TV?
duh. who doesnt?
Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE, DONNIEDARKO?
nope. never heard of it before too.
Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
not for animals. but for lost stuffs. yep duh. i'm very forgetful
Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
in my FANTASY future ( never gonna happen anyway )
Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, ''I LOVE YOU'' AND MEANT IT?
erhm. to my family?
Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
Studying&revising&exercising
Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
duh. lots
alibaba-birdbird-sunny-lizard-beth-eli-lis-elis-ellie-elizabeth-mama-
Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
nope. its stupid.
Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY?
me lol
Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
yep duh
Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
nope haha.
Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
i don't use one. much less, have one
Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE?
in school. had a headache...during eng class
Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
Nope.
Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
as i said earlier. my memory isnt very good._______.
Q: WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST?
Ky, Vicki, Huiying (: they rock my life <3
Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY?
erhm. no? i think they're just bored ._____.

LAST
1) person you saw: sis
2) talked to on the phone: daddy
3) hugged: erhm. sis
4) person you texted:Gerald

TODAY
1) date: 26 April 08
2) plans: Emo revise sleep eat
3) dislikes about tomorrow:its the end of weekend

CURRENTLY
1) missing someone: actually, someoneS. 6a07. i dont miss 1e08 some of them are ... nvm
2) mood: depressed, tired and angry

TRUE OR FALSE
I am a morning person:yeh.
I am a perfectionist:Depends
I am an only child: false
I am currently in my pajamas:false(:
I am online 24/7: Nah.
I am very shy around the opposite gender: Nope. been with them for 13 years.. waddya think._.
I can be paranoid: Sometimes,
I currently regret something that I have done:true
I enjoy talking on the phone: Depends.
I have a lot to learn: duh.
I have a secret: Many.

i'm too lazy to rip anymore. so haiz.
i'm off to emo and do my work.

2008-04-22T03:26:00.001-07:00

22.4.08 haiz
today wasnt a good day.
1.
i was looking horrible today
2.
during art... ms kong asked kavern who was doing work.
then kavern said ' elisabeth and me (kavern)' then it was like......... ariel wanted to help. but
1 . she didnt have ppt, so she cldnt write the script.
2. she was told last minute.

WEIKAI :
- said he ' did the final editing ' but apparently 'cldnt send to us bcoz he didnt have internet'
what kind of crap?! so rich go and buy a router larh.
u go and sell one of ur hps. can buy alr.
- had it in his thumbdrive BUT didnt pass to us even though he had .. .. i dont know how many days.
- 'lost' his thumbdrive last minute.

CHINGYUEH:
-kavern dont tell him what to do. ( or explain)
-is away from school most of the time

see?>
and i
- transferred all the info from the file into ppt.
- helped to add pictures

and MANY MORE.
AND WHAT THE !!! I STILL HAVE TO GO AND DO ANOTHER PPT!?
HOW UNFAIR IS THAT.
AND KAVERN DONT HAVE TO.
I HELPED TOO OKAY.?!
JUST BCOZ KAVERN IS THE LEADER.
MS KONG TREATS HIM LIKE HE DID ALL THE WORK.
WHAT THE HECK.
TALK ABOUT BIASEDNESS.
---------------------
3.another incident of biasedness:
presentation this morning
i got 6/15.
3 for eyecontact 3 for tone
sucks huh.

then _________ went up.
and what the heck.
got 6/15 TOO
2 for eyecontact and 4 for tone
WHAT!? _______ DIDNT EVEN HAVE EYECONTACT.
AND I SPOKE BETTER?!
BIASEDNESS!!!!!!
JUST BECAUSE _______________ HATES ME, YOUSHLD STILL BE FAIR!
UR FAVOURTE STUDENT. WHATEVER.

------------------------------------
4.i saw _____________ today.
:( he looked pissed.
he looked irritated.
he looked at me as if i was the last thing on earth he would want to say.
what about those words you told to me?
i tried to talk to you
you know how much courage i had to muster up just to say ' HI?'
why'dya have to make me feel like shit.
why'dya have to treat ariel so bad? even a simple 'hi' to ariel would be oky.
why did you ahve to make me feel so embarrassed!?
why did you have to make me feel so unwelcome. so unwanted?!
i'm UNWANTED enough in SCHOOL.
GIMME A BREAK!

WHO CAN I EVER TURN TO TO NOT FEEL UNWANTED!? LIKE I'M WANTED. LIKE I'M WELCOME.!?

5.
and i disappointed myself.
what happened to my stamina?
this process is so difficult.
esp with D____ teasing me about stuff that i dont wanna be teased about.
how'dya think i feel huh d______
i thought you were my friend.
whenever you just had a bad day. you take it out on me. i comfort you. i listen to you.
i lend you a shoulder to cry on. and you turn hyper. i dont mind.
then you start to tease me.
ITS THE SAME CYCLE.
STOP IT.

6.today i was also supposed to go to yijing's house.
but yijing and jenna were both doing their ppt. since their GROUP couldnt care enough to help.
its sad.
SAD.
SAD

7.on the bus home, i SERIOUSLY considered suicide.
no not cut myself.
SUICIDE.
its........ scary.
i never thought that i would think about it before.
before i reached sec1.
everything in my life was still going right.
turns out, my life wasnt ever so perfect before.
suicide, now it dont seem so scary an option
its a very tempting option.
VERY.

2008-04-18T06:15:00.000-07:00

WHY CAN'T I JUST BE LOVED.
ITS SO HURTING YOU KNOW.
like, everybody is just making use of you. or jsut PUTTING up with you.

and you do things for people, and don get even a THANKS? or even a ENTHUSIASTIC SUPPORT ?!
i mean.
its like. i never wish to understand how people feel.
i DO. but i DON'T WANT TO
IT JUST MAKES MY LIFE WORSE
DAY BY DAY
by the end of the week, i'll be dead.
even before my exam.s
there's just no more hope in my life.
maybe i'm giving up too early on my life.
but i'm too lousy for anything.
i've taken advantage of alot of things.

argh.
THAT IRRITATING PERSON!!!!!
ARGH.
every morning . have to come isit.
every morning. have to call me that isit
every day. act as if you're oh-so-good.
ARGH. SEEING YOU MAKES ME PUKE.
good thing i wont be seeing you forever. since i'll be dead by the end of the week.
just rmb that if you call me THAT agian. i'll NEVER EVER TALK TO YOU

2008-04-14T04:52:00.000-07:00

weeeheee. my 100th post!!!
okay anyway
i found this REALLY cool quiz on vicki's blog ( copyrighted vicki -._________________ + ) haha okay
so here it is.
1. whats your name spelt backwards?
HTEBASILE. you can try to read it... good luck (:

2. What did you do last night?
... sleep . D-UH
(what else could i be doing?? -.-)
.3. The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
a software? for a CREATIVE webcam (:

4. Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
Nope. i wouldnt want to anyway

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
FRIDAY!._______.

6. What are you wearing?
do you REALLY need to know?
school tee and pe shorts.

7. How many cars have you owned?
.... none. but hope to have one...

8. Type of music you dislike most?
scream.

9. Are you registered to vote?
duh not.

10. Do you have cable?
yeap XD

11. What kind of computer do you use?
brand? err the cpu is duno waht brand but the screen is JVC. (:

12. Ever made a prank phone call?
never CALLEd. but always TOOK part. xD

13. You like anyone right now?
nope. i love everybody XD

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
... scaredof heights. dont evenBOTHER asking.

15. Furthest place you ever traveled?
CHINA. (:

16.Do you have a garden?
YEAP its for GOLDIE to run around (:

17. What's your favorite comic strip?
BABY BLUES & GET FUZZY XD

18. Do you know all the words to the national anthem?
Duh. 12 years in singapore hasnt been wasteD!!!xD

19. Shower, morning or night?
BOTH. liketa feel fresh!

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month?
.... duno?

21. Favorite pizza toppings?
Cheese.

22. Chips or popcorn?
Chips.

23. What cell phone provider do you have?
Singtel( not like u need to know anyway -..........-)

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
- never smoked. never intend to.
- PEANUT SHELLS?!/1?!??!?! WHAT THE HECK._______.

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
nope... never'll be in one

26. Orange Juice or apple?
APPLE.. d-uh.

27. Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
ollie and joanna (:

28. favorite chocolate bar?
Dairy Milk!<33

29. Who is your longest friend and how long?
GOD. eternity. <33333!
FAMILY. 12 years <33

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
Never ate one.ewwww.

31. Have you ever won a trophy?
one? yes. two? no.

32.Favorite artist?
errrh .
song - duno.
painting - no interst(:

33. Favorite computer game?
None currently.(stopped since last year_)
34. Ever ordered from an infomercial?
huh?wads .. infomercial???

35. Sprite or 7-UP?
7-up.. definitely.(:

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?To school?
Of course!

37. Last thing you bought at Walgreens?
Huh?no. since i have NO idea where walgreens is.

38. Ever thrown up in public?
Yes. :(... in school.

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
mone ( not equal to) happiness. waddya think?

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Nope. 'cos that would be LUST.
how can you tell somebod's nice anyway.......(by first sight.)

41.Can exes just be friends?
d-uh!! for me.. anyway

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
My dad, office (:

43. Did you have long hair as a young kid?
Yes.. i'm still a kid.

44. What message is on your voicemail machine?
None.

45. Where would you like to go right now?
somewhere, no where, everywhere?

46. What was the name of your first pet?
Lucy <33

47. What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?
which bag? XD

48. Last incoming/outgoing call on your phone?
incoming - Benny.
Outgoing - Benny.
( he called me but i didnt pick up X: )

49. What is one thing you are grateful for today?
i am alive.

50. What do you think about most?
why i am still alive everyday? basically... emo stuff.

2008-04-11T03:45:00.000-07:00

a DEDICATING post

this is dedicated to ms yin
: MS Yin!
i know that one of your family members is in a critical condition alr. but i just want you to know that 6A IS BEHIND YOU!
even though you're in the front and you have to fight it by urself. 6a will be there to catch you if any disaster happens.
i know you think that u are not appreciated. but you are our favourite teacher.
i know that you are very sad or depressed or whatever. but you got to be strong. you got to perserver. even if he enters that door. you know that SOMEDAY you'll see him again.
i hate seeing you so sad everyday
'cos it just makes me feel more useless than i already am. useless in a sense that i cant cheer you up....
when you always do cheer me up...
thanks ms yin for everythin<333

NADHIRAH
love you nad... you always cheer me up
and well you make me hyper when you do
i know i'm freaking emo these days. but well, its part of a process of growin up
i thought i was over it long ago. but u know.
all these confidence issues are taking a toll of me.
i guess its just a different group of people
you dont feel emo kayS?
oh yeah i love you!!!<333
and i know you love me too<33333 XD

KAIYEE : lol
i miss those butting-each-other days. i miss those days where we just jumped around and had fun.
i kinda miss those silent moments too
it was fun.
it was exhilarating.
it was satisfying
it was hyper
it was everything i wanted
<33
your imperfections just make you perfect.

VICKI : <33
booyar!!! !
haha
how's life ? tough huh.
i <33! your sense of humour. its sO cutee111111
haha. if u ever feel emo (hardly. your life's almost perfect)
TELL ME
I <33333 3you1!!!!!

kelLER : you make me laugh
XD
YOU MAKE ME LAUGH
YOU ARE SO CUTE
<33
hahahahhahaahahha
dont do stupid thigns even though you're angry/ sad / depressed wadever.
u could juts tell me.
sometimes JUST telling somebody would release the anger.
okay?
<33

SHUMIIN!!!!!
YOu'Re LIKE NO OTHER FRIEND I EVER HAD
OKAY THATS ALL I CAN Say xD oh yeah . i say
GIVE UP ON TDH!!!!
XD
GO FOR HC!!!! XD AHAHAHAH

okay tatata
dedications<33

2008-04-10T04:26:00.000-07:00

heyo . back to another update in the life of ME.
another kinda-emo- post. again.
haiz.
starting with yesterday.
boring boring boring.
ever since THAT mrs _____ scolded me
i've been avoiding her.
and apparently she told ms ____ so i also decided to leave the two of them alone.
whats the point? since you would be ' some time now or later ' get scolded AGAIN
besides. it would save me the embarrassment of having YET another teacher disappointed
list of teachers hating me :
1. ms K___
2.Mrs N-
3.Mrs W____
4. Mr S__
5.. . .. . and lots more to go.

what happened to me?!
what HAPPENEd. to the pupil that was on good terms with almost all the teachers.
WHAT TWIST OF FATE HAPPENED?!
seems like everybody else is adapting well to sec life except me.

i dont want to talk abotu it anymore.
---------------------

today we had swimming.
oh great i can(t) dive.
and --- --- JUST had to go and make fun of me.
i mean its like
okay if MR S___ says it. not like i care. its a fact
but you dont have to go and LAUGH at me

L-A-U-G-H AT ME
how in the world can you be so INSENSITIVE?!
HOW IN THE WORLD CAN U BE SO HEARTLESS
AT LEAST S--- --- HAS THE COURTESY TO NOT LAUGH AND ACT AS IF NOTHING HAPPANED.
DONT YOU EVEN KNOW THAT THATS LIKE MY WEAKEST POINT?! !?!?!? SO WHAT IF YOU'RE BONE SKINNY. NOT LIKE I CARE. AT FIRST I THOUGHT YOU WERE INNOCENT. TURNS OUT. YOU THINK SO HIGHLY OF YOURSELF THAT NOBODY REALLY BOTHERS TO BE AROUND YOU.
THATS WHY YOU SUCK

S-U-C-K

I know that you eng aint very good. so i spelt it out for you.

that was a prettty angry post.
anyway.
keller you rock my world
!!!

YOU SO CUTE SEH>
XD
thats why i laugh until siao alr
xD
oh yeah i'll link u as soon as i can? (:
as well as sauching
<333!>

hAVE I MENTIONED? we were playing
truth orand truth today super fun larh!
hen shuminrevealed sth
haha
then lter when dummy walked past - i was high -

TDH!!!!!!!
then yr came in and in and i was like ' D!!!!'
oh yeah btw TDH = talkative dark hilarious

just kidding
ya'll shld know what it stand for
XD

okay i think i've spilled enouggh
is that what u wanted. KAVERN?
=elisabeth
(not like you can do anything)

2008-04-04T23:50:00.000-07:00

i'm going to snap
...
i've never felt so useless. so busy. so forgotten. so USED.
i know. whats me problem huh.
i aint worth anythin.
oh great.
i'm blaming my emotions all on sports day.
just incase anybody didnt know. it was sports day. but i doubt anybody would wanna know . . . . my blog's hardly read.
well its not a good feeling. but what can i do? be the irritating jerk going round and saying ' VISIT MY BLOG AND TAG!!!'
-.- wadever . i tried that already. never worked out.
argh
its so discouraging you know?
okay so what i've been involved in 200m, 400m, 4X100m before?
apparently to some people i'm just useless . . . .
apparently they've never met me before. how would they even know tht i couldnt run?
no i'm not blaming ms kong for not choosing me. i'm blaming SOMEBODY for making fun of me and telling me that i'm just an ass.
wadevre. its not like i care. i get that kind of comments all the time.
but everytime i do, i go home and i lock myself up in some corner and cry myself to sleep
and the next day i go to school acting like its all right and i get hurt again
its such a familiar cycle its almost like a routine.
yeah u might think after a while it goes away.
but it doesnt.

argh! i HATE jealousy.
and i hate myself for having jealousy
i see all their medals shining in the sun.
what the heck .. .. argh!
shocker for all : i used to have a medal of sports. and well, my only medal. i'm not realy good at studies. .... not a shocker.

-----------------------
i wish that ican just curl up in a corner. and hopefully-die...
no more busy schedules.
no more having to let people down(muchless,myself)
no more having to put up with criticsm and acting like its all right
no more having people yell and shout at me
no more having people forgetting who i am and thinking i'm just ' oh that ass in our class right?'
no more having people USING me for the benefit.
no more having people making fun of me. trying to use every single thing against me
no more having to act good
no more having to live life.

2008-03-28T04:07:00.000-07:00

28/3/08 XD

1st period : SCIENCE!
borrinngg-.-
have hw as USUAL. haiyo.

after science was PE; swimming XD
hhahha.
actually ihad BUTTERFLIES ( haha jenna ) in my stomach.then i told myself ' its okay, its gonna be fun'
then it was like REALLY FUN !
aND THANK GOD! ALL THE GIRLS WERE TAUGHT BY MS SIEW
(:
ms siew's soo nicee.
then aft that.
we ended like 20 min earlhy
then went to change./ bathe / shower/ wash hair.
xD
HAHA..
so cool but i gotshampoo in my eyes -.- ):
then later wrapped the towel roudn my hair and then went to put my shoes on.
wah so nice siia.
the floor is carpeted de loh
and sommore the sun so hot/ cooling.
u know
when its hot + coolingHAH.
then my hair was like WET.
and like SO COOLIng LARH.
but my calf muscles were like HURTING.
oh yeah olivia you look good in ur swim suit dont have such a low self esteem -.- ):
then went back to class.
figured that all the guys finished CHANGING / bathing
well technicalyly they just pull of their pants jump into the shower come out put on their clothes and BAM! they go off XD
LOL.
then went to recess.
ate economical rice.
the wind was like blowing at my head
SO COOLING!
yay thanks joanna u told me to cut my hair haha.
;>
then hor. aft that we had HISTORy
YAY!
hist so fun
then haha we were all sitting in the classroom
then i had the towel wrapped roun my neck
duno why
just foudn it cooling AHHA.
then lte rms kong came in
then i stood up to greet her first
then i STILL had the towel round my neck !! HAHA.
XD
then i pulled it off t hen everybody stood up.XD
so fun lrah!
ms kong u rock! <3
( oh yeah she gave us minie lollipops. i traded my cola with yirong for an apple) haha
then later had MATH
MRS KOH! WHEN ARE U COMIN BACK
):
ms choy ( or ms chio, according to russell'icious' HAHA)
okay larh but she dont explain as well as you doo!
:( oh yeah congrats with the twin GIRLS!
GIRL POWER YO XD

------
okay then later had enlgish
HAHA MRS WONG DIDNT COME
so fun larh
oh yeah u know dario, kavern and benny have the same phone? SO COOL HOR.
they call it ' the brotherhood phone'
:'( i'm not included anymore??!
haha.
then talked alot alot ALOT.

OKAY I HAVNT EVN FINISHED THE DAY
---- went to the cnateen but wasnt hungry-----
went to the field.----
then saw ollie and joanna practicing for sports day
then they went to rest
then yr, yp, shumin, zy, all come to cheer them, along with me ofcos
butten they didnt run.
:( not like properly
AHA.
then later hor.
they had math
so ollie and I waited in the 1Ex. clsas room

ahaha gerALD u GOT surprise tmr,.!

oh wait. monday
HAHA.
then hor she was like peeping out of the window
XD i cant describe everythin here 'cos it would be exposin everything that we talked about
okay so aft their math we went down to the field AGAIn.
then saw the HCI band!
WAH THEY SUPER GOOD SEH.
XD
and then one guy in the front was triyng not to smile
haha.
'cos we clapped aft every performance.
russell, zy, yr, ollie, joanna, shumin, I
then i saw aheM ahem!
then theywereall like ' ----!'
then i ran away.
:( i know he will be pissed.
he always is
then later yr was like ' i swear! he kept lokoing at me!'
then iwas like ' hands! --- -- ---!'
Haaha
then we ran one round
then listend to somemore band
then went home
XD its not even in detail
but alot of personal stuffs
some stuff, hiding from xhps friends
XD

2008-03-26T04:04:00.000-07:00

EVERY CLOUD HAS A SILVER LINING.!

THANKGOD!

2008-03-25T00:07:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE ETHAN!
YOU'RE 21!

P.E.T.rocketO-o

today we had a pet rocket thingo
haha quite fun.
then from 9.50-10.20 had recess
then i was waiting wif jenna, aerisa, yijing and yeeahn.
then i saw HIM.
standing just there.
then i was like gaping
HIM! two days! straight.
but apparently,maybe this could be my last.
then HE.saw me and was like ' what?' - i hate you 'cos you disgust me and you suck- kinda look.
then i was like uhm ' hi'-waves-
*sad smile*
aft that, i went back to LT and like my whole world CRASHED.only yesterday, he told me that he . . . .didnt hate me .
and today? he just said it all.
Waht is he doing?
i'm NOT for ur use.
yet whenever you say 'thsoe things' its like, i cant stop mysef from feeling appreciated.

----
then after that we were going to launch the rocket.
soO we went toO the hci field
and launched it
haha.
i was wet.
;X
andi LA?UNCHED. the thingy

so COOL!
hehe
;X
then we went back to the LT.
haiz
maybe i AM. jealous of HER.
i dont know how i'm EVER. going to patch up with HER.
then i went out to ps with shumin, kav, obaja, josiah and ryan
HAHAa.
they're very fun to be withXD

then i slept on the train home
and tada~ XD

2008-03-24T03:47:00.000-07:00

WHY? WHY? WHY??!?!?!?
DONT YOU HAVE the SINGLEST BIT OF EMPATHY, OR EQUALITY?!
WHATS UP WITH THE DISCRIMINATION
YOU'RE JUST A GOOD-FOR-NOTHING SPOILT BRAT! I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY SHE FAVORS YOU . WHATS SO GOOD ABOUT YOU?

1. u like to insult people.
2.you discriminate.
3. you suck
4. u keep having to remind people abt their appearances
how they look SUCKY on that day
WHATS SO GOOD ABOUT THAT?!
WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM
i've had ENOUGH OF UR CRAPPING
WHATS UR PROBLEM!?
i was there for you throughout the last term,
i comforted you
i helped you wif HER.
i helped you with PROBLEMS
and THIS?! is how u REPAY ME>?!
WHY ARE YOU JUST SO UNFAIR??

i reall y want to return back to p6
dont care what the loh! would have done to me / us
i just DOnt WAnt to have these kind of horrible people, esp GUYS aroudn me.
they SUCK
SUCK
SUCK!?!
they SUCK! they Just dO!
6a07 u know what i love about you? we dont CRITICISE eachother.
at least not in front of their FACE
okay fine
we dONt.
never
ever
this is how it works.
1e08 GUYS.
TAKE NOT OF THAT>
YOU SUCK!

2008-03-22T08:01:00.000-07:00

so it has come down to this huh.
thati'm just the pathetic,good-for-nothing, backstabbing, action, proud, stupid girl ? just a furniture standing in your room?
a piece of useful furniture.
for YOU??
what the heck.
gee,thanks alot for that.
it makes me feel NO better than what i'm feelingabout myself now.
like i'm a wreck.
like i want to just curl up and die
like i have no purpose on this earth.
i have no talents.
or even if i had.
it no longer exists.
i have no good things abotu me.
i bet that even if my best friend had to file in a report on me, she would find nothing good to write about me.
i'm having a tough life
gimme a break.
i already feel bad enoguh about mysef.
what you said, hit me hard.
smack into my face.
i really feel as if the past term of work is just.. useless.
do you REALLY know how i feel now?
i was just having some boosting self-esteem moment and you RUINED IT.
i suck.
so waht?
waht can i do about my pathetic self?
its not as if i dont want to change it.
i ... thought you were my FRIEND.
i guess you dont know what it means.

2008-03-20T00:54:00.000-07:00

where were you guys when i needed you the most? its all excuses and excuses again AND again. i just acted as if i'm totally fine with it because i didnt want to start another fight. not after olivia.
but you know what? it doesnt pay off. people just take advantage of me.

WHY CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I DONT TAKE INTEREST IN THESE WORLDLY THINGS ANYMORE?
. not neoprints. not accessories to signify friendship. not you.
i thought you were my dream friend, somebody to rely on, somebody to study with, to laugh with, to have fun with. turns out, you only wanted to have fun. how can best friends be like that?
how can best friends be like thaT? best friends go throughout the hardest times together. turns out, i've nothing to rely on. back in school, except God. 'cos , simply, nobody cares about me.
everybody just cares about what use i am to them. if i'm of no use, dump aside.
nobody understands what i'm going through . a tough change and a resistance of temptation.
NOBODY understands, at least not somebody from where i go to. its like, i'm ALONE. i turn to God for help, but turns out, maybe this is just a test of my faith.

i'm really disappointed after what happened today. but i'm just trying to control myself, from slapping you, from fighting with you, as the old me would have done. Even the GUYS would be better friends than you.

really, disappointed and let down.
maybe this is how it should be. but its all about sacrifice. right?
-elisabeth

2008-03-11T23:30:00.000-07:00

WE FOUND HER WE FOUND HER !! :D tha'ts goldie. my beloved doggie.! :D a cross between a hound and sths.

i, found that there was a hole in my umbrella and called joanna out to fetch me home (: thanks jo.

then aft that we were walking back and i saw goldie. just sitting there, in the rain, almost crying. ( look alike!)

then i was like ' joanna?! isnt that GOLDIE?!'

then i saw her blue collar and i knew it was her

then joanna turned and SAW goldie.

then goldie stared at us with unbelieving eyes. i think she was looking for nikki, our neighbour's dog, which died a few days ago.

then we knelt down and gestured fo rher to come ove.r and she RAN towards us. ahem. - sprinted-

then aft that we were so happy. and she was running around us, barking like mad. super loud. but she got a cough. maybe bad food over the past 3 days. and its been raining, so u know how much she stinks. but I DONT CARE!

we FOUND HER!

AND TAHT

WHAT

MATTERS

MOST!

=D i'm so happy!!!:D

then aft that all 3 of us ran home. and then timothy came out and said ' GOLDIE!! U THERE?'

he musthave heard =D then he ran out in the rain to open the gate.

then he refilled her water bowl

then we patted her ( too stinky to hug hahas)

then we heated up rice + broccolli fo rher :D then phoned my mama then told her that ' WE fOUnd GOLdIE!'

=d then later went up and HERE I AM :D GOLDIE LLUVS YA!

2008-03-06T03:38:00.000-08:00

pressure really sucks. well that's what I get. for being the friendly always-there-for-you kinda person.being the i'm - so - willing ........ available person. but if thats me. its not wrong right ? but somehow i think i'm crumbling under the pressure. of all the expectations. of not me alone. of the teachers. haiz. mainly me. its like i'm so messy. its like i've lost my position as the initiator. i'm not going to hide it.

'im JEALOUS.

tha'ts why i'm so sucky. that's why i keep fighting with olivia. and i just wont have the humility to apologize, and make everything all right. i feel tht i'm ALWAYS the one who has to give in. regardless at home or at school.

i think that i'm really going to break down during the march hols. i want to go out, yet i want to revise and go for the youth camp. and still i wont budge to make a timetable. sucky huh.
see how unorganized i am? see how i'm not the initiater anymore.

Confessions :
- when john initiated a class outing every month, i felt jealousy. 'cos usually I will be theone who initiates. i felt guilty too. 'cos i didnt even think of anything. usually i'll be all hyper to gO out. and its like. 6a 07 has faded away and is (not at the back, but not at the front too ) ofmy brain. i want to killmyself. as in not physically as . in a breakdown. and start afresh.
its like i keep wanting to hang out with 1E08 people. but one thing that i'll miss about 6a 07 is the simplicity of friendship. and the always being th ere for each other. the enthusiasm.(: 6a 07. even though i might not love you as much as i did, i still have feelings for everyone of you. and every single one of you has my sincerest apologies and i still love you. just that ... i cant love 2 classes at one time. and manage my studies. and since i'm going to spend the next 6 years of my life with my calss, i choose them. i hope you wont hate me. and i still love 6a 07.

- i fougth with olivia and i deleted her. i'm sorry olivia. i'm apologizing now. so if you're reading this. i'm sorry. i suddenly think that ... i'm really stupid. all along i've juts been JEALOUS. J-E-A-L-O-U-S...
if you dont want to forgive me. i accept that. and i will bear no grudges. but neither will i ever talk to you again.

-dieing.
elisabeth. ... if i'm not in school tomorrow, it probably means i'm dead.

2008-03-04T01:38:00.000-08:00

OKAY PICTURES FOR 28/9th feburary.
WENJIE AND ME :D he was enthusiastic about it and went ' i take pic with elis!' then i was. like.. OKAY! then click! shumin's finger pressed the button :P
JUNGWON<33 href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eV6D7Kafvn4/R80oF5ycPTI/AAAAAAAAAKc/yivilF7ZOiY/s1600-h/YEEAHN!.JPG">
YEE AHN OH YEE AHN :P SUPER CUTE < href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eV6D7Kafvn4/R80nb5ycPMI/AAAAAAAAAJk/hPn12iQJVWI/s1600-h/shaokai+and+shumin.JPG"> SHAOKAI -.- ( a.k.a. gay) AND SHUMIN<333333~ href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eV6D7Kafvn4/R80ncZycPNI/AAAAAAAAAJs/ZKnOHaewZ6E/s1600-h/shaokai+and+weiming.JPG"> SHAOKAI AND WEIMING POSING FOR US :D HAHA
SHAOKAI ! go find a TOILET! dont do it HERE! we dun wanna see it!
( worst part is that i'm sitting BEHIND him! )

okay larh i was being zilian so i insisted that alot of the photos included me inside. then i decided on this pose :D HAHA but the scenery relly nice and btw it just rained so it was nice and cool
HAHA I TOOK THIS BY ACCIDENT U KNOW SO COOL RIHGTS :D (shaokai being bullied by people to carry their bags)
MS KONG <333 href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eV6D7Kafvn4/R80iCJycPJI/AAAAAAAAAJM/PDSFwRXV7Mk/s1600-h/helpful+shaokai+and+tommy.JPG"> shaokai being a guai person and helping weiming
+ tommy -rawr-
u know during math lesson one day, shaokai was like picking up stuffs for people who dropped their things. then mrs koh was like ' actually hor. shaokai ... even though he dont show it. actually he's quite a nice guy' then the whole class erupted in laughter / coughing :P and then we all said ' BUT HE's NOT STRAIGHT!':D

JENNA AND AERISA :D two skinny poots who are pretty& gorgeous. <3333! href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eV6D7Kafvn4/R80iC5ycPLI/AAAAAAAAAJc/rA2S0gN756Y/s1600-h/ohh+yeeaah.JPG">
OH YEAH BABY I LOVETHIS ONE . i was like ' GIMME SOME LAUVE!' then all of them were like.. ' AHAHHAHA ELII!!!!'then ariel put the loser sign above me :'( i pouted at her aft that then she apologized. HWA HWA HWA HWA !!! CHONG CHONG CHONG CHONG !!! :D
CUTTTTTEEEE ABIGAIL!!! And PRETTY JOANNA we went to subway so we were eating. then before that we wanted to take a pic of the food. buten jenna was like ' EEKS! NO NICE LARH!' then took us posing with the food.. uhm. we're missing yijing :D
GERALD!!! U KNOW U FELL DOWN AND SCRATCHED UR KNEE AND BLOOD CAME OUT! and uknow what? u dont even KNOW how to wipe it with WET TISSUE -.- hopeless seh.i had to do it for u u know. then ariel called me a mother -.-
kavern was suposed to be in this shot. butten he 's out of it :'( ah well too bad.
the BOWLING ALLEY !!! WOOTS

THAT'S JENNA / ME :D <33bowling href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eV6D7Kafvn4/R80dg5ycO-I/AAAAAAAAAH0/BH8TlwEJVBc/s1600-h/class+pic+1..JPG"> CLASS PHOTO! uhm. i was the one who insisted on the james bond post for the girls. :>

okay i love it. how the monkeys/ guys are hanging out from all over HWAHWAHWAHWA! CHONG CHONG CHONG CHONG! D:
+ ms kong and mr chye.
+ mr sim and ms kong

hahahahahahahhahh :D
ARIEL !!!! like a baby who lernt how to walk ... onskates hahah
email ( i duno how to spell his name :X ) and his bag and dario and his bag. BAGGS!!!
BOWLING!

OKAY

I BOUGHT A WATCH AND A RIng :D totally same with SHUMIN! I LOVE YOU shumin!!!

( pictures courtesy of YIJING<33!)

2008-03-04T01:32:00.001-08:00

maybe its my fault. but i've always been around people who dont care. so why shld you? or rather. why s.hld i?
but then again. look at the people you're MIXING around with. they're also sucky. but inFRONT of YOU they are angel.s in front of me all those horrible stuffs spill out. it SUCKS OKAY?!?
JUST GIVE IT A REST. U CALL ME RUDE I DONT CARE. U JUST WATCH watever u do.
u just make me feel as if you hate me. then aft a while, you dont.
WHAT IS UP WITH YOU?
this morning when u talked tO me i saw that smile. oh it aint working okay?
------------------------
OH YOU SUCKK!! ( differnt person)
oh wait. since i'm a 'HEARTLESS' [b][i][u]!!![/u][/i][/b] PERSON. i shldnt be bloggint about you rihgt? but because i'm actually NICE i shall crap about you.
you're a lie-r. you suck. you just want tohurt people. you are irritating you are act cute. you are very aimei. you are a FLIRT. you suck. BIG TIME okaY?
so just butt out of my life. i dont care. i dont need you. you are nothing to me.
-------------------------

TODAY ! the best day of my life worh! :D
so nice
pics uploaded another time
- bought a watch ($10 :'( )and then it's the same as SHUMIN'S!
- played truth or dare which isnt really truth or dare with fun people without THEM.
- they skipped class so yay! i have sth to blame them.
- went to FORT canning park
- I'm an ELEPHANT :D
-got a ride home from jenna's MOM hehe ;d
okay
pics of east coast park stuff are on the next post :D

2008-02-29T17:01:00.000-08:00

okay people ytd rodcked :D
sooo muhc okay?
okay we went to ECP and i ate SUBWAY for my VERY FIRST TIME
it was ......... okay
and then later walked a little bit
then scolded gerald 'cos he didnt use the tissue to dab dab his scratches. :X HEHE
then went to the BOWLING ALLEY
at first i waas so afraid.
then even worse, the others came in, so i was like.. uh-oh.
then aft that i bowled
SUPER FUN
then had 3 games
:P
then time was up:(
then went back
then aft that went out
actaully olivia and yihui wanted to follow us butten we were like... errh okay? then they just went off so ... ah well i dont care.
then went to HEEren to 'take neoprint's
butten the shop not open
so went to cineleisure
or sth lidat
then went to take NEOPRINTS(:.
then later went down to the foodcourt and ate :D wan ton mee
then later did homework
then went home
..

:D
THIS IS JUST THE SHORT VERSION OKAY?
:D
'cos right now i have to revise.
(: okay
buh-bye
pics will be uploaded later

2008-02-22T01:31:00.000-08:00

OKAY
3 things to post about today
1. KY!!!
dear ky,
Thanks for those wonderful memories that we had over those two fun-packed years.... i really miss you. i SO wish that we were in the same school... ofcourse, i do wish we were in MY school but anyway :P
you were always there to cheer me up whenever i had a low-self esteem or just needed somebody to lean on... i could always count on you. thankyou.. i'm sorry if i've let u down in anyway way...
urs, ELISABETH
we had a birthday party at her house
i ended school at 2.10 and i immediately RUSHED to catch the first bus and mrt...
sorry JEnna, if u wanted to do anything.
then iwent to meet ck and dilon and a few of their yuying friends.
but the two of them were waiting for ms yin
and when msyin finally came we rushed over to precious thoughts..
then aft that we wrote a card impromptu
then later we went to rent a movie, - at the shop thiru called me and asked to go... last minute yo HAHA
then we went to ky's house
HAHA dilon flagged a taxi when we wanted to take bus so.. thiru ck dilon and me squeezed into the back and ms yin directed the driver-o-
then later met up with ky and jessie at the guardpost
then went to watch the movie
meet the fockers
erbit pervertic but........
anyway.
then at 5, dilon had to go for tuition butten ms yin stopped him 'cos she wanted him to hug teck hwee.
and teck hwee was so slow :(
so dilon went at 5.15
then we were all so mad at teck hwee that we planned a beat-teckhwee-up thing.
HAHA
we hid behind the door and then thiru brought him up
then we wacked him
with pillows -.-
so aft he came he went
and he gave ky her present
and her pillow HAHA
and she WACKED him with it
...
- simple, but nice

2. YOG OLYMPIC BID
YAY! i was a road IC and good for me, i wasnt alone
i was with OLLIE
okay so we didnt hve lesson that day and i was like rejoicing 'cos i ESPECIALLY Didnt want PE
. then at 10.30 wave 1 people went down for 'lunch'
and i went off... at 11.
u shld see the t-shirt! so cool! just that the h-two-o thingy destroyed the whole imgae.
i mean, they could put it at the SIDE right?
okay so i went to bk panjang, near to westspring sec sch
and t hen ollie and I were bored so we walked back to nashlie's stop and =decided to go see kavern 'cos we were bored and kvern can cheer us up. - or so we thougt.
then later we went to the fairprice across and then bought a drink
and there was this SUPER rude lady
not even a CURTEOUS ' excuse me, please'or even 'excuse me'
then she just went ' SCUZ!'
then i was like SO SHOCKed
then i almost fell on kavern
then aft that i bougt my drink andwe went back to our stop
then aft that we were bored again so we walked to ryan's stop - zhenghua sec sch
walking there is like long!
-.- then walked back
and poor ollie scratched her leg on a brance :(
then later we waited and waited
and then we called kavern
' KAVERN HAVE THE RUNERS COME YET?'
kavern : yeh
then we rushe to our posts.
and aft waiting for what seemed like 15 minutes, we called kavern again
us : KAVERN!!! WHERE ARE THE RUNNERS!!?'
kavern : they're right in front of me!
us : FOR WHAT?
kavern : waiting for some cyclist
-.-
waht the heck
we wiated fo another like 10 min then we saw the runners
and then we rushed to our posts
and t hey were like SUPER QUITE
so i was like ' yay? go people. little beet more... on ahead at zhenghua'
hahah
hten theyh passed us
and then we called matthew
then waited long time again
then surprisingly the second grp of not - so - staminarish runners came
or rather, walkers
like THEY'RE WALKING!
HELO1
they're frmo zhenghua
but good thing is that they have alot of sch spirit ;D
then aft that FINALLY af tlike 1 h + we went on the bus
back to padang
THERE AT PADANG I COULD FEEL THE HEAT MANNS
TOTALLY LOVED IT
;D
its like it was so great 'cos 'cos 'cso we're like actually PART OF STH THAT IS NATION-WIDe
and the 1st in SEA HIST!
this will be like in my memories for my grandchildren and future generations to hear (:
and then later, i went out with joanna shumin ollie and THE GUYS. D:
apparently THE GUYS like ditched us. :(
like they told us they were at toys 'r' us and then we went there 'cos they rushed off and we cldnt catch up
then we went to toys 'r ' us then we searched and werent there
so we called them again
' oh we're at the fountain of wealth'
wht the heck
so we rushed o the fountain of wealth
then we saw them
raced aft them and wacked them
then lter we ate at the food court while those filthy rich people ( THE GUYS.) ate at CARLS JN. and then u know what? they WASTE}D FOOd
:(
thn later the 4 of us went to take NEOPRINTS!!!
Uper cool
;P do this more often kays? then we will do more poses
like the james bond one :( WE forgot to do that :'(
okay then we went to walk and walk arnd
then later ollie went off
then bcos we were bored then we sat on the steps arnd the top of the fountain of wealth. super cooling
then we talked about STUFF.
then later ryan called and said he was comin over
so we went to the convention centre and looked for him
at FOOD REPLUBIc.
then aft that, walked up again
and hten shumin had to go, so bye shumin
:(
then aft that, ryan joanna and me talked a while like... ahaha
then I ! had to go
:( so i went off
...

thanks guys, you realy made my day
(:

3. TODAY
i went to sch and first period guess waht. SCI
i never got a B! for SCI!
:'( my first time.
haixz
then had PE
well the girls cheered me up abit (: THANKS
then had shot put
very cool
:P
yay mr sim isnt so scary anymore :D
i was like ' mr sim i'm scared lehs'
then he was like ... ' aiya dont be scared'
then i threw
and i PASSEDD!!!! :DD
i never passed shot put in pri sch before
BEFORe
before!
cos last time they never teach us properly de.
XP
then aft that we had RECESS
:( didnt see HIM.
then afthat HIST

then kavern handed in our project - research
and then ms kong was like
' WOOTS!!! GOOD JOB!'
she went over to 1 i to boast too HAHA
:P ms kong i feel honored :D
then aft that had math
and then english
wehad composition test today
i think i'll score well
. erhm.. i hope
:P

LUNCH LUNCH LUNCH
:P
YAY!
i saw HIM. lining up for economical rice
and i was like
' HELO!'
HIM ; erhm.. hi ( looks away)
ME : (still try to look happy).. why u stay back?
HIM : err
me : CCA?
HIM : yeh
ME : softball arh
him : yeh ( looks away the whole time and focuses on thefood)
me : disappointed and walks away
then i went to buy my food and i sat down near the bookshop
kinda wishing he would pass by
then hor he was like
............ talking behind a pillar
then he appeared
and i pretended not to look
wat the heck manns
all my friends were like LOOKING.
so i was like..
: hey guys.. what homework do we hve?
then he disappeared and i went to conitnue talking
then Ziyi said that . ' MY BEEHOON WAS EARTHWORM'
then i screamed and i jumped away from the table
then WHOLE table was like LAUGHING.
then i was like :( ya'll laugh at me i go buy drink
then aft that i came back 'cos i didnt want to buy a drink haha
then aft that ollie was like
: DOGS WAS STARING !

then iwas liike huh?
ollie ; DOGS STARED AT YOU FOR LIKE A LOONG TIME AND SMILED WHEN HE WAS WALKING By!
then i said ' u gotta be kidding me.. dogs was staring at the wall!
then i just put my plate back and i started to walk back
(:

then went to jenna's house
did proj
so proudda us yo like we finished the proj in like 1 h
:P
when u set ur mind to it, you really can (:

- ELLIIISSSSAAAAABBBBBBEEEEEEETTTTTTTTHHHHHHHHH

2008-02-15T04:29:00.000-08:00

this sucks
i reaLLy like just want to cry.. there's like... nothing really happy going on right NOW..
and just to add on to it, all my hopes were like crushed
my reputation too
and i let you down
you know its like.. it hurts SO freking much...

i just want to run away and cry and hide and never come back....
all my efforts are just like crushed....
i'm RISKING myself for you.... yet you seem so oblivious to what i'm doing....
THATS wads is hurting me....

i waited and waited... maybe it just wasnt to be this way........
i'm gonna tr yto forget about you.. it'll be hard. but whtever...

WHAT HAPPENED? its like i cannot count on you ANYMORE
you used to be there for me. just to catch me when i fall
and i was there for YOU. you know how much your words just hurt me once you said them? i was like shocked and i couldnt tlak to you anymore. i still try to. but you're IGNORING me. WHAT DID I DO TO YOU?! you HURT me too. i'm willing to forgive and forget, but you're NOT...

these days have been like crazily stupid....
haiz...
today when i went to school, people said that i was so sad
i told them i was tired
but seriously, i have NO idea
it wasnt HIM
NO IT WASNT
but i think its more of my friends
or SO CALLED FRIENDS

i never thought that this would happen to me...
you all say i was so cheerful and now i'm not?
its not like its my fault right
waddya expect me to do? your life is perfect.. mine isnt
u dont expect me to hide everything do you... that'll hurt even more
........

THIS SUCKS

2008-02-14T04:21:00.000-08:00

haiz.. yet another valentine's day................. haiz
full of hope and yet, disappointment
u know, i kinda hate myself for wishing for somethings that ............. i know i cant get..............

this is so different
i was never THAT
i was NEVER. it was always THEM...
......... haiz
but now i am........ i dont wanna disappoint u guys... wad do i do know???

can like for ONE DAY somebody just LISTEN to me and stop babbling abotu their troubles?
u know sometimes i wonderh ow nice it would actaully be....

i'm really sorry
WADEVER happended today made me - angry, sad, disappointed, jealous, happy, anxious...........

it was just for you........ it really kinda hurt me yesterday... i couldnt stand seeing you.. but i still did...
.......
you just dont know how much i'm doing
in fact, nobody does
nobody knwos just wad i'm doing...
haiz
trust me, today............ i kinda hated it
haiz

5 more years to go...

and BYe hcis

2008-02-11T04:14:00.000-08:00

okay its not in order. this is a grp pic at the park
i'm not inside 'cos i'm taking the pic....

TERRy'S dare : kissing eugene...lookalike huh

dilon and his 'modelling' skills.. ;D advertising the soyabean drink ;X
gee, those were the days.. u miss being Y"OUNG huh ck ? :P
EUGENE how cld u! dont betray TERRY tsk tsk
GRP PIC AGAIN
ah weel this time i'm inside
but i look toot. so ignore................ u know, its like when you're on the spiderweb, no matter wad pose, ya'l look great
love ya'll

2008-02-10T17:55:00.001-08:00

you know i never thought that she would be so ----------------------------------- i wanna forget about it.... i REALY want to.. but everytime i try, everytime i see her face, i just put up a 'wall' around me... a wall the only prevents her from coming in.... i saw it with my own eyes, oh i wish i didnt... i dun want it to stay this way.... i think she hates me too

he keeps mking hints.. is he? i dont know. but everytime i see both of them, its like, i keep having high hopes. i dont want it to be like that. i want to go back to the start of the year, when i was JUST FRIENDS nothing more.......

I MISS those. when you said those WORDS, they kept replaying in my mind over and over again. That's why, whenever i see you, my heart skips...........you really knew how to make my day, thats why i feared losing y ou and when i heard your school, i knew i had a chance, ONCE more.... why do you always seem to avoid me? i know you're busy. but whenever you're not, you just dont care about me. its just different. but i dont want it to stay that way. Why cant you be like last year? when you were so friendly? .......... its like i can never get back the same you......... you're always to hung up on the fact that we'll always be like that...

sigh......... so many emotions... i really miss .............. some people........... i'll never forget them.. never........

2008-02-07T04:55:00.000-08:00

HEAR NO EVIL SAY NO EVIL SEE NO EVIL
terry teck hwee & jiawei ;D three great guys haha
GR"OUP PIC.. well, ONE OF THE GROUP PICs!
OO i look darker ;D i guess its thanks to............ ;D 1 h 10 min of PE lesson for thurs and friday (EACH!!!) + on walking home in the HOT SUN + exercising ;D
haha my shin looks good;X but ah well.. still got work......... to do
MWAHAHHAHa
u know? this was SO good u know why?
ms yin was juyst like ' GROUP PIC!' then everybody impromptu-ly just fell into poses ;D cool huh.... <3333 ;D ONLY LIKE 3 or 4 years together with them... actually, not so feew people were there lohs.. just like we never had a COMPLETE grp pics ;D BLAME IT ON THE TIME CONTRASTS

hahaha toodles ;D

2008-02-06T07:23:00.000-08:00

.... back again......... haiz.
should i love today?"
yeah , i think so ... abit
well... sorta... i guess
i guess i just miss my friends so much as in ( 6a ones) and uhm.... well, today, i've been overcome by guilt, tiredness, emotions...... comments
okay
so i went to sch and uhm.. only 2 of us from 1E wore sch uni.. well, i wanted to wear sch uni, its nice to wear... shumin and i wore the sch uni
okay so like... ahem........................................you know, its weird.. like. its only been 6 weeks, and in my class, there's like sorta havoc around....
;X i keep thinking its my fault... & my big mouth
........... haiz

okay so anyway... the celebration was fun
mr yeong! WOOOTS SHAKE IT MANNS !!! HAHAHAAHAHAHHA
mr tan too
hahahahaha
;D
.... i really dunt know how to describe it
so.. i shall skip it
okay
then were walkin down to the busstop
then kavern was sending me the vid of THEM dancing
;D cool right? there's a part 1 & 2 HAHAHAHAHA... u know, his hp is 5 megapixel!!! rich kid :( not like me hahhahaha ;X i'm acting pathetic lOls
me : eh u all going back to taonan isit?
g&K : no, because by the time we go back, sch close liaos...
me : orh. then where u all going?
g&K : parkway
me : how u go there?
g&k: its near taonan waht
me : OOH WAH
g : u want to come along?
me : uhm.... another time bah
jenna : ..............................................
lols
hahahahhahaha
then its like
U know i feel so left out ;X all their schools got 'NAME'
but nvm
there are great people everywhere
you know they were like ' why u go those kind of schls?'
then i was like ' bcos its near my house -.-' lOLS
i think that was wad i said
kay then walked the overhead
then took bus 66
they sat across us
HAHAA u know right
the seat was for 4 people, and 3 people took up all the space -.- okay i shldnt be laughin.. since it aint good
u know why they took up so much space?
bcos gerald, was opening his leg, and sorta leaning to the side
kvern was sitting in the middle between one side of the pole and another -...- oww.. lols ;X
josiah was ....opening his legs and sitting in the middle of the seat
see how inconsiderate guys are??
;X jenna and I were nice people and sat on the seats that were MEANT for 2 people

hahaha
;D
then later, stopped at boonkeng and waited fr vicki
then went back to xinghua
then went to the park
haiz
i feel guilty ;X i asked him to come.. and i didn't even know why
i just ....... am so disorganized these days
like
............ everything is just havoc
bcus i just wont TAKE the effort to go and actually orgnize myself...........
haiz
i kinda hate myself
i dunt know who i am these days
i'm just trying to fit in SO much i dont know who i'm transforming into
...........maybe i'll start to go on a diet
or maybe i'll just eat veggies
and fruits
and little bit of bread
and drink milk
or water
..............
haiz
and exercise added on to that
trust me, if i havnt slimmed down aft 6 year,s i'lll REALLY jump down
........................... its too big a burden to hold
...................................haiz

then aft that we went to kfc and figured that it was full well, not exactly butten not all of us could FIT into kfc
there were like 20 of us
then we decided to da bao and go to ms yin's house
then went to her house
wahhh! her house REALLY very close to xinghua lols
actually very nice, that area
(:
like, very breezy
then later hors.. we went to sit on her front porch because they were mopping the inside
MS YIN UR HOUSE IS SUPER BIG
+++ good ;D
then later ate... i chose a bad day to wear hcis skirt -.-
then later saw her dog !!! I WANTED TO TAKE A PIC! but hp was outta batt ;'(
sad right?
nvm
then played TRUTH AND DARE
uh... yijie . stupid question
actually, i dont know
when the feeling is right... i guess

then later, went home
actually wanted to stay abit longer
but i went home
then i sat down for a while at the back, ( HDB there) and i ............... reflected............
then aft that, i went home, i sat down AGAIN and this time, i fell asleep i dun owhy i was suddenly so tired
then i took my medicine and i went to bathe
and wash my hair
then aft that, i rested a while
THEN
reunion dinner
: noneed to say, it was great.... i guess
-.-
again, no comments
i'm tired so gdngiht and another time
(:

he pisses me off

2008-02-05T04:39:00.000-08:00

OKAY here to post again
haiz.i wish somebody were online now
okay
random
okay
anyway
uhm
i'm here to VENT MY ANGER
again
...
i ~~HATE!!!!~~ ahem him
he is SO busybody
like
HE HAS TO GET INTO EVERY SITUATION ISIT? HE
1. DOESNT COMPLETE HOMEWORK BECAUSE IS TO BUSY PLAYING HIS STUPID COMPUTER GAMES
2. IS SUCH A BUSYBODY I WANNA KILL HIM
3. PISSES EVERYBODY OFF
4. IS SO SISSY HE THINKS ITS COOL WHEN ITS NOT
5. TELLS PEOPLE UNNECCESSARY THINGS THAT THEY DO NEEDA KNOW!

okay yay, sth to brighten up my day, somebody's online
blahblahblah
WATEVER
I JUST TELL U THIS ONCE AND FOR ALL OKAY?! WANG SHAO KAI.. THIS IS NO laughing MATTER
IF u ever maker HER cry, ... i'm gonna kill you.. you will DIE a SOCIAL DEATH
OKAY?
TAKE NOTE

i'm pissed
okay
over that part
lemme say wad happened today
OH YEAH DID I MENTION
i'm PISSED ! at her too
her as in the one inside MY GROUP
the SUPER PISSYFYING - EMO'ish ONE
-.-
like
wad the heck
she SUCKS
;X anyway
u know, its like.. during PW today, she thinks that she's the greatest, she DIDNT CONTRIBUTE
only kavern and me contributed
.. - chingyueh has not been attending sch for no reason, maybe he has problems at home or sths..
.. - WEIKAI was sick ( a reason) cos he didnt turn up for sch
..-ARIEL was FREE
and INSISTED that she DIDNT know 'waht to do'
so WHAT TH EHECK
U DUNO ASK LARH!
U DUN WANNA ASK BECAUSE ... why? BECAUSE U FREKING DONT WANNA DO!
...............WAHT IS YOUR PROBLEM?! DO U KNOW THAT KAVERN AND I HAVE BEEN WORKING OUT ASSES OFF?! U KNOW1? AND ALL U CARE ABOUT IS about YOURSELF..
U KNOW HOW SELFISH U ARE?! U REMEMBER THE CAR?! ITS ABOUT TEAMWORK
T-E-A-M-W-O-R-K-
THERE'S NO 'I' IN 'TEAMWORK' HOPE U REALISE TAHT
... WAHT THE HECK
U KNOW HOW MUCH KAVERN IS LIKE
TAKING THIS?! U KNOW HOW MUCH HE'S DOING?! DO YOU KNOw!?
waD ARE U CONTRIBUTING?! U TELL ME
WAD! WAD WAD?!
CHINGYUEH DRAWS THE STUFF
WEIKAI PROVIDES THE STUFFF
KAVERN AND I ACTUALLY DO THE STUFF
AND YOU?
U JUST CLAIM THE CREDIT HUH
SO WAHT IF YOU PRESNT
UR PRESENTATION SUCKS LIKE HECK MANS

GET A LIFE

2008-02-02T02:25:00.000-08:00

JIAHONG, ERNEST, MARCUS,TECKHWEE, JOHN,JIAWEI,ME,VICKI :D
i <3 all of ya!

its JIAHONG and he just arrived :D... haha
WOOTS jia wei has been working out.. AHAHA ;D

JOHN... no idea WAD is on his mind but arh well :D and hats marcus sipping his drink (:and a handphone and a half face of dl and ofcourse! the cups the food and THE TABLE :D

DL, oh DL............................. his TYPICAL poses =D and john eating.... GRP PICCC!!!!!! before dilon & ck had to go off....
AGAIN!!!!
THIRD TIME ;D

WEEee11111

2008-01-31T05:09:00.000-08:00

this is like sorta . the WORST day SO FAR in HCIS
... how can i stand this for another 6 more years?
so waht if i'm F**?
SO WAD IF I'M U***?! WAHD CAN U DO ABOUT IT... ITS NOT AS IF ITS YOUR FACE RIGHT.. U IDIOT... YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THIS IS HURTING ME?! U ~~REAKING~~ IDIOT.. YOU DONT KNOW HOW I FEEL BEHIND THE SCENES RIGHT.. SO WAHT IF I'M H****?! ITS IN MY GENES.. WHAT ARE U GONNA DO ABOUT IT?! SO WAHT IF SHE'S PRETTY AND I'M NOT?! JUST ACCEPT THE FACT OKAY? YOU'RE AN IDIOT AND NOBODY WANTS TO SEE YOUR IDIOTIC ~~FREAKIN'~~ FACE !

SERIOUSLY, STOPPIT
its hurting me... SUPER **M* BADLY OKAY? YOU JUST DONT KNOW HOW YOUR WORDS AFFECT ME... ITS NOT A JOKE ANYMORE.. I'M NOT GOING TO TALK TO YOU EVER AGAIN....

life sucks.. again...
period?
...
PERIOD
its like
nobody really understands me, except YR ( okay YR is just nice, nothingreally much more than being nice huh.. except when it involves sb else )
KAI YEE, vicki.. and basically nobody else really...
its like...
haiz

haiz
today, during guitar, i never felt to happy...
i could just strum a few chords, and all my thoughts of him and his ~~freaking~~ friend ( face)
its like...
haiz
music...
wad did i ever do to it??
its like..
i think i've changed
for the worse.
i dunt know who i am anymore
i'm not the initiater anymore
i never let waht other people say really get to me that much, and now i do
WAHT IS HAPPENING?
...
why am i caring SO MUCH?!

i cant stand it anymore
i shall try
....

`Elisabeth

2008-01-18T19:21:00.000-08:00

hey ya'll! i'm so excited i mean.. i'm like super happy u know why? BECAUSE YESTERDAY WAS GREAT
i was toO tired to post about itlast night
lol so i'm posting now
its a day i'll NEVER forget
18th January 2008.....
<33
okay so anyway
lemme start frm the very beginning...
SCHOOL
went to sch on my own
'cos daddy's overseas ... ( bon voyage :D)
ok anyway
SO I REACHED there like.. super early
and i was like.. sorta hurting
'cos i had 2 cuts & 1 blueblack lol
LOL
anyway
then had sci
butten mr dinesh didnt come ( Get well mr dinesh!!! ;D )
then mr reddy came in and he said stuff about the textbook being as important as a teacher.. true huh...the people who wrote the book.. we always dont rmb their name lol
the whole clss was like
super super super
quiet
okay
so anyway
then he said about 'self learning'
and hten he said
in sch,
he doenst teach
he juts tells them wht to learn and they teach Themselves
then i think...
if he DOESNT teach... then... why is he there??
then its like...
he's supposed to be TEACHING
and its like.. i think he gets paid alot ... because u know.. its not cheap.. to study in HCIS...
so its like
-.-
DIAOS his work so easy lohs
-.-
anyway
i was SOOOOO happpy it was 9.30 alr
then had PE
oh mannnnnssss
DONT LIKE PE
its so scary
but anyway
sO we jogged to the track
... i always lose my momentum when i'm runing up the slope
but i still could catch up :D yays i'm so proudda myself....
heh its sth ya'll wldnt understand =D
hehe
anyway
then did some stretching..
so cute larhs
but when doing the hip rotation, its like.....
abit embarrassing because i'm at the BACK row and HELLOO!!!! they're like HCI guys RUNNING ?!
so anywya
it was sTill fun
and i duno why butten ytd, mr sim ( pe teach) was like.. better lohs... he was very funny
he didnt scare me tOO much
lol anyway
then ran 400 M
100 m ... peep ! * whistle* reach down right
peep! *whistle* reach down left
blahblahblah
then 100 m
peep!* whistle* jump up!
then 100 m skip hop
then 50 m jog
then later stopped and did a 100 m
oh manns u know i challenged against that Guy? i was like AHHH!!!!! I DONT WANNA LOSE butten he' slike so oo fast
hmph
XP
someday i'll beat him
MWAHAHAH
okay i dont sound evil enough=X :D
so had arnd 3 min of water break
hhah
thenthe boys had their first round of long jump
OO not bad
:D
then it was OUR turn
so all the girls were like
... 1 2 3 MR SIIIMMM!!!!! DONT LET THE BOYS WATCH USSS!!!!!!!
then mr sim was like
-.- okay.. guys.. turn around
BUTTEN U KNOW THE GUYS WERE STILL WATCHING
-.-
DOTs
HAHa
sO i ran
and i jumped
blahblah
gOOD take off!
then i went awa
*away
lOL then i went for a short drink
then it was the guys again
sooO in order not to like... make it unfair that we watch them and they 'cant watch us' all the girls turned around
then its like
SERIOUSLY SO NICE LARh THE Scenery
then i was like waving to anybody who walked past..
which are.... boys??
so i was like
' NI HAO!'
then they were like
.... uhh....
then all the girls were like ... abhahahahhahaa
then isaid
'LETS SAY HI TOGETHER'
1....................... 2........................ 3.............................
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehe
hehe i very high LOL
then had second jump
lol
i was 2nd to go
lol -.-
heard sk screaming like ' GOO!'
isit him? i think so ;p
lol
then heard mr sim say
' gooD take off ! goOD landing'
then i was like ... 'phew'
lol
then saw dario... then he said ' waddya get?'
then i was like..
i know larh u break record.. duneed to tell me lol
then i went to sit in the shade
in front of sk
then haha
he was like....
-.-
and that stupid nashlie larh.. keep saying f word
:(
I TELL HIM LIAO
NO BAD WORDS
then haha
lol
the guys so funny u know
when a girl is like running
( after me)
they were like
... ' WOOOOO.. '
then the girl jumps and lands'
OOOOHHHHH'
-.-
lol
hahahhaa
the sound effect sooo funnehs
then had 'wwarming down'
then reCESs
haiz
sian lohs
then aft recess
HISTORY
sO funny ;D
butten -- ---- was trying to tell me sth about ------- and i was like.. ' WAHT? i'm trying to listen to the lesson HERE !
then olivia called me
then i turned around and i was llike
huh? i cant read ur lips currently.. too rushed
then aft lesson i was like
' TELL ME'
then she refused
aiiyooo
then later aft -- ---- ' approved' then she told me
then iw as like
orh kay
but i tried not tO listen bcos it was abit...
nvm
okay so anyway
later
math
did filing
had 3 As in a row
:D A = no mistakes
lol
then had 1 b
then yihui was sO funny & cute
HAHAHa
she was like
' u know i got 1 b-!? u know?'
hahaha
so anyway
then had english
uhm...
mrs wong didnt pick me even though i wanted to answer larhS!
NO FAIR RIGHT?
i was SITTING right IN FRONTTA HER!!!
like HELLOO!!i'm not sO short okay??
then its like
she DELIBERATELY LOOKED at her list then said' OKAY kavern'
...
-.-
DOTs
larh
then LUNCH
lol
sit with -------
okay
i shall describe
i fund a seat
had a father & a son & daughter
they're nice
(: i smiled at them
no harm right?
okay so anyway...
waited for JENNA sopHIA & erissa tO buy their food
buten yirong & shumin & joanna came so i just went off
i cant stand -- ---- when -- around with ------ uhm.. nvm
then later
i was lining up for economical rice
then russell was in the other line
then he was complaining about.. ' i DUN WANT TO GO FOR THE MATH THING'
then i was like..
whats that about/
then he said about the diagnostic test
he got 24 / 26
so i was like
WHAT DE!? I GOT THAT TOO! OKAY ?!
-.- then he was like
but i more handsome what!
lol
note russell.. i'm PRETTIER Than u XP
lOL
then aft i ordered my foOd
then he scared me by suddenly like saying
... ' ehs.. if i dont take the mee mee can anot?'
then iw as like.. ' then u waste ur own money lohs'
then he was like ' .. uhm.. butten i havnt pay yet'
thne iwas like .. ' uh okay lohs'
then i duno what i did then i just went to sit down
thenaft tht
i sat down & then russell came along
then iwas like
huh.. he ATE from economical rice
-.-
DOTs
lol
then aft that
he sat next to jenna
then jenna was like..
ew -.-AHAHA
then i was like..
jenna
since he's there.. might as well lean ur bag on him right?'
then she just 'threw' it against him
then russell was like...
....
....
then he 'nudged' her bag
then she was like 'OII!!!'
then he acted as if he didnt care
blahsblahsblahs
then i was very quiet i duno why
then blahblah
then i never saw --- again
then i went home
sOO tired larhs
i felt like sleeping
then reached home
slept
until lke 4.30
then bathed and went out tOO heartland
called ck
& msged marcus
buten NEITHER of them answered
then i was like dots
thne i waited for them at the atrium
then i saw them going in to YELLOW
guess what? buyin a BAG
for MS YIN
then i wa slike..
LAST MINUTe
then i walked in and said..
' boo..'
then th turned arnd and said
' whos this girl??'
kidding voice duh
then marcus looked SOO shocked
lol then i said ' i tried calling u lehs!'
then ck was like..
sorry...
GO TO PIZZA HUT first
then i waited outside.. first
then ms yin called and was like..
' ... we're inside alr..! where u ?'
then i saw them
then i went in
=-D
then had a jolly good time
haha
very fun toO
then later ck & dilon went off bcos they had tuition
then JOHN came
and i was like...
john looks kinda diff..
bcos he's like... darker & stuff..
lol
he said he went to kallang for canoe-ing
lol
then he orderd his food
then later
he was like
' INVITE JIA HONG!!'
then we were all ' YAYY!! YESSS'
then jiahong came
haha
then jiahong bought SUSHI
then we wer elike
AHHAHA
JIAHONG!!! SOCIAL ETTIQUETTE MASTER
lol
then
ms yin took a vid of him eating his ... sushi
then he took some rice
then stuff inside his mouth
then he stuffed the WHOLE SUSHI INSIDE HIS MOUTH
ahhaa
soO CUTE
he looked like a fish then
then i took a pic of him liddat
then haha
so funy
:D
then later went to walk around
then we sat in the play thingy =X
its only for 8 year olds
hehe
lol
so jia wei sat in it
and we posed
haha
oh yeah
btw i just rmbed
john.. i might meet u on thurs & fris..
depending
haiz...
anyway
sO
then later went tO the park
but i had to go
sO they 'dropped' me off
i SO wanted to stay
but haiz
anyway
took VIDS & PICs
pics will be up
but vids will not be ;P
hah
so anyway
overall
i still love it
and apparently
MRS CHEN Misses JIAHONG :D
HAHAHA
jiahong MUST SLIM DOWN WHEN YOUR'E IN NCC KAYS?' =D
lol
;D it was simple.. but i still love it
18th jan 2008 !!!!!!
<333
-elisabeth

2008-01-07T05:01:00.000-08:00

OK!

MISSION UNACCOMPLISHED !!! :D
so many things thati wanted to accomplish
correction : 2 thingslol
haha
1 . to make friends with the other girls in my class : CHECK! ;D
THEY're NICE!
abigail ( aka abby), yihui, ariel
etc;D
2. GET ONTO THE CLASS COMMITTEE OF 1E 08 : CHECK!
badd thing : i'm the only girl -..-
i'm the secretary
the chairman, v.chairman, treasurer
THEY'RE ALL GUYS! :(
how? haha no lah
they're... nice... i think lOL
YOU KNOW THE VICE CHAIRMAN... HE'S LIKE... SORTA 'GAY'
-.-
riiight lol
anyway
nothing much
juts that i dont like chinese class
hope that i'll learn to likeit. yeahs
i'm SOOOO glad that i'm in 1E 08 ;D
1e 08 <3333!!! =D
woo

elisabeth ;D

2008-01-05T04:19:00.000-08:00

HELLO peeps
OK
HCIS is not bad
the food is nice * yumMY* &&&! CHEAP *hehe*
HAHA
the CLASSROOMS are AIRCONDITIONED * brrr*
lOl
haha'
Met some very cool &&&! cute =D friends
they're like so funny larhs
ok
here their names
i cant rmb ALL
but i CAN rmb their faces
=D
i'll just name a few outta the 11 girls in our class now
(theres another girl comin' in next week)
olivia, jenna, yijing,lisa, joanna, shumin etc...
you know
olivia's surname is 'lim'
so.. jenna was like
' ARE YOU SERIOUS.!!! I'VE NEVER HAD A FRIEND WITH SURNAME OF ' LIM' BEFORE! YAY!'
HAHA
sth liddat =D
then we were all like
.... 'jennnnaaa.....'
LOL
AND GUESS WAD?! JENNA IS LIVING JUST BEHIND Me =D
jade towers
haha
her brothers are kinda irritatin'
like they were screaming & stuff
* i was walkin' home with her*
HAHa
ok
olivia's really cool
her fathers a chinese, her mom's a half english
&&& she's REALLY preetty too
Her way of talking is very cute =D
like
... kinda
uhh... abit... like
dont understand me =D
like
?AHHA
SHe's SO CUTE
just duno how to explain =D
oh yeah! did i mention ( ok i didnt) MY TEACHERS ARE VERY CUTE
INCLUDING :
(form teacher : MS KONG ( HISTORY TEACH)
she's VERRRYY NICE
i like her =D
she's VERY energetic..
her english ISNT perfect.. but its understandable (:
all my teachers are SUPER cool
but i hvnt met some of my teachers
i hope that i get into the guitar club
i wanna learn a string instrument ( besides piano)
.. and.. uhm.. maybe.. it'll give me the motivation to.. start.. practicing piano & improving till i get my previous standard again.... yeaps
lol
there are just some people that i really wanna know
i hope that the teach will change our places
like yeah.. so i can like meet sb that i dont know, and we can become good friends (:
yeahs...
like
yeah...
and... some people from xinghua... that... i never really got to know.. ok
mostly from parry
the guys...
nv really talk to them
'cos its just like
me : hi
the guy : hi
-------- END OF CONVERSATION--------------------
.... i mean
i dont know why
but i just wanna know them better....
i dont like people to like.. you know.. keep sth from me..i like people to 'open' up to me
ofcourse... not immediately ofcourse (:
haiz
wierd huh
yeahs i admit.. i'm a WIERDO

OH YEAH
i forgot
i want to getonto the... class committee... i figure its really fun (:
i mean
1E 08
not 6A 07

ok
toodles

BYE
ELISABETH

2007-12-24T04:48:00.000-08:00

hello! just got back from malaysia & the server was uhh.. down so waited a few days but i'm ok ;D
haha the church camp was like... super super doops nice ... and now hor.. i actually want to ... erase all my 'emotional' past last time... 'cos its like.. stupid you know? why in the world would i be depressed if i already have everything that i could have wished for...
thank god..
oh yeah! tomorrow is christmas!
merry christmas!
btw its' not xmas bcos its like... about christ? so putting it as an 'x' would not mean christmas anymore...righT? yeah right
btw the updates on the camp will be later
'cos uhh..
uhh...
the pics are with jia en & she's not online so she nv send to me =X :D
haha
okay
i'll go now
and oh yeah
about the music thing?
yeah
i've decided not to listen to pop anymore bcos its..
worldly
&& christians are not allowed to listen to stuff like that
correction : REAL christians
yeapps
ok
bye now!
---Elisabeth---

2007-12-14T23:36:00.000-08:00

posting time...
i feel so new..
like.. i have cut my hair, i have lost those troubles etc...
but i still feel that part of meWANTS to be my old self
HAHA its so funny
when i had troubles, time passed SOOOOO quickly
when i DONT have troubles, time passes like... wooahh so slow
haha
the 'tough' exterior HAS broken down a few hours or days ago...
i dont feel like fighting with anybody now
i dont feel like 'impressing' him anymore
i dont feel like shooting out bad comments
i dont feel like destroying the other party
i just dont feel like

its a tough change
but i gotta take big steps to change my attitude if not, i'll be lonely in sec school

yesterday night, i had a fearful dream that i'll be the loner in the school, the person that everybody teases & has to fend for herself..
will i really be like that??
i keep picturing myself going up to somebody and say sth like, hi... i'm elisabeth or sth like that
just be friendly
but then, what if...
they just stare at me as if i was the worst loser in the whole universe??
what if they just ignore me and leave me standing there feeling so embarrassed..
i dont know if this is the correct thing for me to do..
whtever it is, i'm going to do it...
haiz
i gotta be in the same school with them for 6 years anyway....

these few days, i feel peaceful
as christmas draws, i feel the spirit of christmas
that peacefullness, that kind of serenity
the joy the happiness in the air
no troubles, no nothing
i'll be in church, listening & singing
and it would be a great day

and well, i hope that i would get wahtever i want for my birthday =)

BTW THE THAILAND TRIP WAS GREAT
PICTURES WILL BE UPLOADED ANOTHER TIME
ITS ALOT OF PHOTOS SO YEAH BE PATIENT ;D

last day of school

2007-11-15T03:32:00.000-08:00

okay its about time i started to post lol.. anyway
i'm gonna post about today.
not that its special or anything.
i just think that today is really good (:
okay
today was the last day of school
a sudden rush of affection for xinghua suddenly came over me..
the teachers softened, we softened and grew wilder...
THIS MORNING, when i came to school, my eyes grew watery BUT i controlled and drowned my tears with happiness.
then friends came to school & i hugged them
its one of the times that i had my hugging - mode on. (:
HAHA so i hugged all the girls except vicki, but i know that we're still good friends (:
i wanted to hug the guys but they all found it was so-..-
and eeeee
lol haha its the last day and they're still thinking tht way
haha
hilarious (:
i realised that even though its not the last time i'll see them, it WOULD be the last official day in xinghua,
the thought is soo heartbreaking that i just REFUSE to believe it... but soon now or later, i'll have to face it... and soon, in a very short 4 years time, i'll be crying over leaving my secondary school... time is rEALLY impatient.
i wanted to hug the whole canteen, the robotics room, the hall, 6A class room, 5A '06 class room and well... kiss the floor
okay so anyway, back to the events
we all proceeded to the hall after our assembly
and we sat in a rectangle shape, forming the shape of the hall.
and it was the balloon-powered car race...
so 6A was practically smiling like crazy because we didnt have an entry and somehow, we found it funny. ahaha six aye oh seven is the wierdest class you will ever see (:
but we still ARE a class ... dont you all realise that classes across the whole island are starting to bond
like having class things
(: maybe our cohourt is reALly a special one (:
i hope so and i know so (:
but i dont know if other people think that way
okay so anyway, chiobu a.k.a. leland a.k.a. saxy lady raced his car and it was so cute :P the car i mean..
eugene sito was in one of his 'gaze - at - one- person' mood HAHA
i think -.^
and vernon was racing too
haha
woo people!
and daniel tan toO1
but teh car didnt move
HAHA
such an embarrassment eh?
'cos the lower classes won LOL & the topclasses didnt do anything... i mean the cars didnt do well
hAHA
nevermind its all for fun laughter peace & joy..
today, i wish that i brought a camera
to take down all my precious memories, develope it then keep it in one of my photo albums...
okay then later, had the prize giving for the post-exam activites
congrats people (:
and vicki was saying me and eugene had 'yuan fen' or sth like that..
LOL usually i wont dare to say that but since its the last day of school
but vicki, it doesnt make sense LOL
its just a coincidence
coincidences always happen LOL
okay so anyway
went back to class, and mrs chen was so sweet and nice and kind (:
i <33>
that's REALLY alot to accomplish in ONE YEAR
(: okay then later she let us off for an early recess
saw the p5s lining up
i just realisedthat next year, i wont see some of the closest p5s to me
terence, yuhe, yiyu and a few others..
will miss you guys
(:
okayso anyway
after recess, went to hall for a short while...
then later went back for mother tongue
mother tongue was so boring
and my class BEGGED cai lao shi to let us stay in class..
and so she went down to the hall
and we wondered from the 4th floor to the 2nd floor
HAHa
LOL okay anyway also
i'll miss my parry friends
jit hui, simhwee, jolina, JOANNE, licheng, anne, pandora, melissa, leland, eugene sito, vernon, .. yup i think that's it... i guess?
it's amazing isnt it?
we're close even though it's only been 1 year.. for the guys, not so close maybe...
but still friends..
so anyway
later
so went back for math
and i realised what a jerk i HAVE been during the organizing process fo the class party
thanks chin keong, it's overwhelming at first.. but i realised that its true
and i REALLY want to make it up to the committee
but i dont know what to do.. 'cos they're just too pissed at me...
haiz
i REALLY love every single one of you 6a...
daphne,belinda,crystal,kaiyee,szemin,mavolyn,nadhirah,jessie,afiqah,aqilah,farah, yien, theresa, vicki, Yijie, Jeremy, Daniel leong, Zhi jie, Dilon, John, Ernest, OCK, Jason, OJK, Jia hong, JIa wei, Terry, THIru, willianto, jonathan, julian, jack, junhao, junkai, eugene, and etc.. (:
its not in order of merit...
haiz okay so anyway
later had science
i wrote the details on the board and i realised tht nobody wanted to read it
buti left it there anyway
then later, i stayed back to do the rest of the class party preparations
its no longer planning, its the actual stuff
so crystal accompanied me to go and see MRS CHAN (:
thanks crystal.. SO much
i wish that you were my younger sister (:
mrs chan.. you really hit me with these few words
: eh MUST keepin contact arh.. MUST ARH!
thanks to elisabeth you all have this class party.

i was feeling really guilty.. it wasnt only my work
well, mostlyMY work . but that was because i never allocated the work to the others..
and they all feel likequitting
committee members, i really feel sorry and i'll write a personal letter to each one of you alone
if its long, its long
if its not so long, i'm sorry

then later i walked with jason, ck, ky to heartland mall, but jason went home halfway
so ck ky and I went to kfc bcos ck say yy and dint want to go to macs 'cos she was there
so it was kinda wierd
2 girls 1 guy
(i'm notsure if hes guy or girl)
LOL
then ltaer vicki came with jithui & sim hwee (:
then went to popular to buy the marker to write on CDs
then later wentto library with vicki
'cos ky didnt feel happy about not going to my house..
and ck left me with dilon's umbrella so DILON if you're reading this, your umbrella is with me..
and then later
i talked with vicki
and even though she acts as if i'm not her darling & she doesnt want to hug me, i know that we're still GOOD friends and i never want to lose a friend like her
once, i came close.. but i'm lucky that i never

and i came home and i almost cried
i've been thinking that she was innocent.. but no.. she's not..
the stress is building up, the pressure...
i feel good & sad
good because mrs chan believes that i can do it.. and the other teachers are proud of us
sad because i've let my team mates down
i'm sorry guys

REALLY
sincerely
sorry
to every single one of you
john, chinkeong, dilon, ernest, jason, teck hwee

i'm gonna make it up to you
so for now, bye
elisabeth

2007-11-03T18:26:00.001-07:00

OO okay i'm like.. posting SO late
anyway
i'll just make ( hopefully) let this be a VERY long post (:

THURSDAY
this is gonna be a 'short' day.. but SORRY mr jeevan
we never knew.. it was KINDA of a good thing that you talked to us.. yeah you're NOT TOTALLY innocent.. but yeah. at least you're better than vicki and I thought...
FRIDAY
ookay so we went to the SDC ( singapore Discovery Centre)
the BUS was SO sick lah. i almost vomitted.
i HATE travelling in buses
but in a public bus, its suprisingly OKAY
but the bus that we sat in.. its... so... stuffy. that kind
argh! i HATE travelling
bY AIR andBUS
sea? i havnt tried LOL
okay so wheni reached there
wAH!
nadd and i did scene 1 and 2
AHA! very cool
i forgot a little bit .. but ah well (:
then later guess waht? we had to ride on the bus AGAIN!!
):
haha but this was MUCH better
dont know why
so we had a small tour around the army forces or sth lidda.t
oO the people were friendly..
6A, as usual, waved to them.. and they WAVED BACK!!! (:
and our tour guide was.. "NADHIRAH!!"
HAHA
its cool
(: she's nice too
so later came back then had a tour
hmm
the fun part was the 'free and easy'
HAH! we ( nadhirah, me, kai yee, afiqah, vicki, aqilah ) STepped into one simulation thingo
where it's like in an mrt train, ( you can feel the vibration ) then later there was a bomb
hAH!
the 6E guyswere there too
but.. being so " heartlesS" they didnt like you know.. show any expression. maybe its to IMPRESS the girls.
LoL
but kai yee and I screamed when the 'bomb' exploded
AHHH!!! and then i realised that leland and eugene were staring at me
hehh.
and kai yee too HAH1
but it was REALLY sad...
the last part
kai yee and I were on the VERGE of tears
we were like.. almost.. the only people on that big plate thingo
okay then later hor.
we went back
walao that stupid fat terry stepped on my foot
only CLUMSY FAT people do that.
doesnt know how to contain his anger
oh and did i mention? ck and th were SO sweet
and they looked so CUTE together
HAHA1
problem : they're BOTH guys HAHA
AND
problem 2 : ck is TH'S mama
AHAA
okay the family tree in our class is like REALLY complicated. and it DOESNT make sense AT ALL
oookay so anyway
aft that
i ALMOST slept on the bus
i COULD actually SLEEP in PEACE
if it werent for the stupid noises terry was making ( laughing.. btw his laughter is HORRIBLE!)
so anyway
aft that
went back to class
HAHA MRS RAMADAS PRAISED US!! AHAHH!
(pardon if i spelt that wrongly)
mrs chen : waaah. from JANUARARY till NOW it's the FIRST time that i HEARD praises.. HAH1
then she wanted to buy 4D then can get 1st prize so she ask us for numbers
and we were like.. saying stupid numbers LOL i didnt even say one number HAHA
so anyway
later i went to kfc with Jithui, Joanne, Vicki, Licheng, Licheng's brother, and another girlthat is PRETTY NICE (:
then later
we waited until 3 for simhwee
haa then walked to jithui's house
then later took out valuables then TRIED to fill the balloons wiith WATER
but couldnt
so we just sprayed using the hose
then later we 'cleaned' the gravel and sat on it
then played TRUTH OR DARE
HAH!
haiz
i HAD to tell the truth
simhwee is SO cute lah
jithui : truth
simhwee : okay..i ask the question that iLOVE to ask.. HAHA..

oo she said STH liddat (:
AHAH SO anyway after that we went to change/ bathe
then i read part of the story book and sat in the massage chair.
waaah
very nice
HAHa
then later ordered pizza hut and macs (:
HAHA
SO anyway
aft that.... ATE and then later watched a movie
(: very nice
then later i went home
tata good night liao
HAH

SATURDAYY!!!
OOKAy
so i woke up VERY EARLY
and i was feeling 'anxious'.. for what reason ? i dont know
i guessi just love to meet up with the committee
we're MUCH closer now
ookay so anyway
kai yee and I met earlier 'cos we felt VERY sian
and VERY restless HAHA
so we met
then went to popular
and we bought key chains ( THEY WERE NICE!)
then later went down and slowly worked our way back to school
but bEFORE that, we bought some things from macs.
then later walked HALFWAY
and i saw the guys
teck hwee, dilon and chinkeong.
chinkeong... as usuall.... DIDNT bring ANY bag HAHA
he doesnt need to anyway
so aft that
they came back to my house
hmm
so we started on the work
then later kai yee and I decided to start to design
( design what.. i cant say)
hM
then later i started to cropp
then later went out to the kopitiam for lunch
then ltaer came back and cropped again
then later oo did some stuffs
WAH we accomplished stuff in that day (: i'm proudda us
ookay so the guyswent home first
and i asked if they wanted to continue this NEXT YEAR
and they ... were like.. orh .. i guess? or sth liddat
i HOPE so
today.. when there was like.... 5 people, we accomplished MUCH more than we usually did
with ernest, jason, john and yijie
i'm NOT saying that they are not of help
itsjust that ernest AND jason AND john keep pointing out the mistakes.. and slow it down
and Yijie only dares to tell me his ideas via sms
oO
SO anyway
kai yee stayed a little bit
THEN laterrrrrrr she went home
and i went up
WAH its the FIRST time that she was at my house and we DIDNT fight
gee
i guess it's a two way thing
SO anyway that night,my sis helped me to put back my ear studs
i aint removing it anymore..
until my ear hole is SOLIDY there
oo
okay

that's all i guess

and i'm SO scared of my PSLE RESULTS!! HELP!!

XOXO
Elisabeth